No sun again today. Still chilly. So humid that the air turned liquid and it has been raining all day. I swear, I feel as if I am living on a different planet than any planet which has sunshine. I know this isn't true but it feels like it. Just like when you're depressed you KNOW haven't always been depressed and quite possible will not always be depressed but it seems as true as true that you have been, will be.
I look at pictures from Cozumel and I think, "Whoa! Look at that sunshine! What a great planet that must be!" Of course this is usually how I feel when I look at pictures from Cozumel, so there is that.
It's been an unusual day for me. I did not take a walk but went to town to go to an appointment with my husband who has a hernia which needs repair and so we met with the surgeon and also his nephew who is a resident in practice here now which is pretty cool. I think he's going to be a good doctor. I've been pushing and pushing Mr. Moon to get this done but he is stubborn and finally it is now to the point where there is no more putting it off and that is that. In a week and a half, he will submit to the skill of the doctor and it will be over and I can't wait. I'm sure he can't either.
We had lunch with Jessie and then dropped him off at his office and Jessie and I went to Target. I knew there was something I needed but I couldn't figure out what until we got there and it was a pair of tights. So very important, that pair of tights that I forgot we'd gotten them and came home without them. They were in the bag with Jessie's things. I looked at Crockpots because mine came from Goodwill and tends to cook things a lot faster than you'd want in a slow-cooker and it's very small but I didn't buy one. It was way too much trouble and anxiety-producing to try and figure out whether to buy the regular one or the one with the lid which clamps down for easier transportation purposes.
"I think I'm bi-polar," I told Jessie. "And I can only buy things when I'm in a manic phase. I don't go out and buy a lot of stuff because I'm manic, I just buy the things I need when I'm in that phase because I can. Otherwise, I pretty much can't buy anything but food."
I think this is a fairly honest observation. And let me say that I realize with all of my being that this is not truly an indication of possible bi-polar disorder but more a pale, pale imitation of the real thing.
Then I took Jessie home and went to a dentist appointment of my own where they took impressions for that crown which involved trays full of goop being pressed into my upper and lower teeth. Nothing like having a dentist hold a tray full of goop into your mouth for four minutes which can be a very, very long time given the right (wrong) circumstances. What can you do but try to stay amused? I also got some new hardware where the crown is going to go.
Talk about a process. This thing has been going on for over a year.
But. In three weeks, THAT will be over.
I came home and cleaned out the henhouse in the rain because that had to be done. More chickens make more poop. You can quote me on that.
So that has been my day. And it is still raining and it's getting dark and tomorrow it may only be partly cloudy and boy howdy! I'm looking forward to that. I'll let you know if it happens.