Remembering

 

Last night while I was making supper, Billy and I were having a texting session, which is something we do. Billy is an excellent texting partner. It started out with him sending me a video of Joni Mitchell performing one of my favorite songs of hers, which is "Case of You" off her Blue Album. It's funny because I was just thinking about that song a few days ago, wondering if I still knew all the lyrics, and had been singing it in my head. Of course, as I discussed a few days ago, Blue is the album that I listened to constantly (in the darkness?) when I was attending college in Denver and it either saved my life as I went through a major depression or (and this is possible), pushed me even farther into it but either way, it gave me something beautiful to hang on to, something of color and sweetness and a sense of sadness that reflected my own perfectly. I knew I wasn't the only woman ever to have felt this way. She gave me that. 
So Billy and I discussed how much we love her and why and how beautiful the lyrics are on this song (all of her songs, really), and then we moved on to other things until it reached a point where I was telling him how inadequate I feel these days and he gave me wise words to contemplate. 
And while all of this philosophizing and sweet counseling was going on, I was making my soup and then the naan and finally I said, "To lighten things up, I can make some GeeDee naan," and sent him that picture. I love making making naan bread. It's truly easy and almost too delicious. 

I was worried because the dough hardly rose at all but it didn't seem to matter in the least. As soon as my flattened rounds of it hit the hot skillet, it puffed majestically. 
And I didn't burn one!

Anyway, that happened last night and today has been Sunday, Mr. Moon's and my date day, as we describe it sometimes. We spend the time together just doing what we usually do but with more loving intention somehow. I believe it's good for us. 

I took no pictures today except for the one below. Absolutely no one needs to see another shot of my Seminole pumpkins ripening on the vine or of Maurice following me around as I feed the crows. That went well, the crow feeding. This morning they yelled at me to alert me to the fact they were hungry so I fed them their mealworms and peanuts. They seem to like these peanuts. As soon as I got their food on the six stumps, the one I call the Scout came down to check it all out. I think that the same one does this every time but I really don't know, as I have said before. They all look just alike to me. But this one did a little walk around to check out the offerings and then cawed to the others in the branches, waiting for his all-okay signal, and then they flew down and began to eat. 
You are old, Father William. Or, rather, Mother Mary. 
Old enough to be entertained daily by five crows.
It's not so bad. 

I finished sewing the green heart on Glen's overalls. 

It's not done. I have not stitched together the small tear which was the reason for patching yet. I'll probably make another heart inside the green heart to do that, sewing together the edges that need to be joined as I do. 

Maggie's incredible growth spurt in the last year has made me a little nostalgic for the days when she was just the most darling cherub in the world. Here's one of my favorite pictures of her, back when she was still a horse-riding girl. 

She was already starting to really grow but she still had plenty of baby-child in her. 
I don't know if nostalgic is the word I would choose to describe my feelings about missing the little ones my grandchildren used to be. I feel exactly the same way about their parents. About all of my own children. 
It's more like a sort of homesickness, I think. Not just a fond remembering feeling but more of a very mixed emotional yearning for those days as I look back on them. They say you can't go home again but you can surely do that far more easily than you can go back in time to when your littles could sit on your lap, wanted to sit on your lap, were still so open and, if not uncomplicated, than at least more open to the uncomplicated love I could give them. 
Does that make sense?

Oh, dear Maggie. Her emotions have always been big, from so sad to so joyful. Her mother was very much the same. 

I'm thinking about all of that tonight and how it's not the young ME I miss nearly as much as the young sweeties I raised and that some of them are raising. Don't get me wrong. I love who they are now and that we can talk about stuff, both the grands, and the kids. Stuff that's quite real and quite serious and quite humorous and quite wise. 
I adore the fact that when I hug Lily or Jessie, my head pretty much comes right up to their bosoms, and I can feel like the kid for a moment, and they let me. I love the fact that May is like my twin in so many ways, only smarter and funnier, and that Hank is Hank, as wise and true to himself and to the world as he has always been. 

Still. We can adore where we are now, where we live our lives and make our days and sleep our dreams, and still look back on places we remember with such longing.

It's okay. Humans are complicated little critters, but then again, so are gag groupers. 

I'm going to go cook some shrimp and grits and trust me when I say there will not be any damn mushrooms or truffles or other hoity-toity, cheffy-ness influence in them. The grits are stone ground and as such, take about an hour to cook. 
I better get on it. 

Love...Ms. Moon

Another Life In Lloyd Post

Well, it was bound to happen. I just wasn't expecting my granddaughter to reach my height when she was in the fifth grade. I've still got an inch on her or maybe a little more. She was wearing shoes and I wasn't. It delights the grands when they become as tall as I am. It's like a badge of honor and sign of maturity around here. I haven't seen August in a few weeks so it's quite possible he's right there with his cousin. 
Lily and Lauren and the Magnificent Magnolia dropped by today. Lily recently bought a new car which is new only to her but it does have AC which her old one did not and let me tell you- when it's 97 degrees, all driving around with the windows open does is to blast you with hot air. It's not just like being in an oven, it's like being in a convection oven. Or air-fryer. 
It's not in the least bit enjoyable. So anyway, of course Lily wants her Daddy to sell her car for her and they dropped it off here today and that was the main reason for their visit. Actually, Glen volunteered to sell her car for her because he doesn't really like the idea of strangers going to Lily's house, especially since she has children. As Lily pointed out today though, he doesn't seem worried to have strangers coming out to our house even though his wife is here and when it comes right down to it, she said that her kids could probably fight off an attacker a lot better than I could so there's that too. 
I'm not worried about the issue. I can't tell you how many things (including cars) Glen's sold from our house and no one has ever come back to do any sort of mischief. 

Now where was I? Oh yeah. Lily and Lauren and Maggie. They left after just a little while because they were hungry and I really didn't have much here to offer them. I mean, I have plenty of food but nothing guest-worthy. 

I hardly did a thing today. It was one of those ugh days. And you can't spell rough without ugh, can you?
Gosh I'm clever. 
Nothing really wrong at all, just one of those days. I took the trash and dropped by the post office where I had a chat with Ms. T. We discussed the new business going into the old boutique which is probably a hundred yards or so from the post office. She doesn't know much about it either. I told her I'd visited their web site and it seemed to be mostly about their faith. We agreed there might be eggs. That would be nice if they don't charge twenty dollars a dozen. 
We talked about a few other things and she thanked me for coming in and chatting as she had not had one customer all day. It was already almost 11:30 and they close at noon. I'm sort of surprised we still have a post office here. I probably should have discussed this whole mail-in ballots mess that Trump's trying to do to prevent people's votes from counting. What's the end-game there? Are there far fewer Republicans who use mail-in ballots than Democrats? 
I swear. I can't figure out a damn thing anymore. Nothing makes sense. I just didn't feel like talking about it so I didn't bring it up. 

I watered porch plants and I admired the firespike. 

It's doing well by the front gate. I actually set the sprinkler on them yesterday. The rain we got wasn't nearly enough to really matter although some things do look a little greener. 

I think the crows left me another token of exchange. I found a magnolia cone on one of the tree stumps this morning when I fed them. It was an older cone and the seeds in it were softened with age and I wonder if that is how the crows like them because they're easy to eat whereas the new seeds might as well be made of plexiglass or something, making the aged ones more valuable in their estimation.  

The new ones are pretty, aren't they? 
But once again, it's hard to imagine how an entire cone could have gotten onto the stump without some help. In this case avian help. 
Not to be ungrateful but it sure would be nice if they found and gifted me with the earring I lost some years ago and still miss. 

I decided to use one of my pumpkins in making the creamy, curried, cashew, butternut squash soup I love so much. 
There is going to be a learning curve as pertains to these vegetables. 
Here's what they look like when cut open. 

Beautiful color. And a whole lot of seeds. Seed to meat ratio is a little disappointing but these are heirlooms and that makes sense. Their desire to live and thrive which I have truly appreciated is reflected in the number of seeds and I'll never have to buy any more seeds again. 
There was no way I was going to be able to peel the raw pumpkin so I steamed the halves for awhile after I'd removed as much of the guts and seeds as I could, and then cut them into smaller pieces which were far easier to peel. I do the same with butternut and acorn squashes. Delicatas do not need to be peeled. Their skin is imminently thin and edible. 
I threw a sweet potato into the soup along with the pumpkin and I think the soup will be good. I've good dough for naan bread rising. Mr. Moon is not the biggest fan of curry flavors (or so he says) but if I make naan to go with the soup, he is far more enthusiastic. 

Fishing didn't go smoothly today due to something about the trolling motor but he wasn't too disappointed. He got to come home earlier, he's not as tired, and he doesn't have a cooler of fish to clean. He also stopped on the way home at My Way Seafood and bought me some gorgeous shrimp so I am quite happy too. 

The only other project I worked on was patching a place in a pair of Mr. Moon's overalls that he'd snagged. They are practically new so of course they deserve a patch. I asked him when he showed me the snagged hole, what sort of a patch he wanted and what he said charmed me so much. 

"A heart is good," he answered. 
I agreed. So I'm sewing a green flannel heart-shaped patch over the snag in his overalls and I think I'll try to fancy it up a bit. I remembered something about patching or sewing on pants as I was working on this today though, which is that stitching and embroidery require one to be able to access the patching area from both sides, inside and out. And by golly- it's not that easy to get your hand down the leg of overalls, especially when they're the britches of an extremely long-legged man. It's just awkward. It can be done but it's not nearly as easy as stitching or embroidering on, say, the front or back of a blouse or dress. 
This may not make sense to you if you've never done any sewing on a pair of jeans or even a shirt sleeve, but if you have, you know what I'm talking about. 
And that's something I'm pondering about the Levi's patching project. Would it even be worth it? 

Who knows? 
Not me. 

Love...Ms. Moon

Eat Up! With Jesus!

 
We're finally, and at long last, getting some rain. It's certainly not a downpour but it's enough to green up the grass some, to perhaps give the beauty berries the fortitude to stand up a little straighter, and cheer the birds enough for them to talk about it in their own various bird languages. Do you suppose birds have different accents depending on where they live? Different dialects? Does a cardinal in Texas sound exactly like a cardinal in Florida? I'm sure someone's studied that. 

Glen and I are taking the credit for bringing on this rain. He's been watering those fruit trees as if their lives depended on it, and they do while I hung out the laundry this morning. Mainly sheets.

In fact, I barely got my sheets off the line before it started raining because we were on our way back home from Monticello when the sky began to bruise and the thunder began to clap. But I got them in, still dry, and all is well. They're back on the bed now. 
I'll be sleeping on them alone tonight as Glen has gone to the coast to get up early and go fish for gag grouper. Don't ask me what a gag grouper is or why it's called a gag grouper. I'm sure there's a reason but even if I found out, I would forget before two days had passed because my brain is only accepting important calls for retention and often not even those and I'm not really curious enough to just look it up to satisfy that sort of itch so what's the point? 
Well, I lied. I looked them up and I'm glad I did because there is a very interesting fact about them which is that all gag groupers are born female but some transition into males later on in life. And now I'm wondering whether or not the individuals who turn into males make a choice to do that or does it just happen randomly? Are the fish surprised when they wake up to realize they are now of the male gender? 
Probably not. I am far to quick to anthropomorphize, aren't I?

So Mr. Moon had some legal stuff he had to go to an official office of some sort to get prints and copies made and of course this involves Tom's estate. There's a little office in Monticello where he could get that done. I was eager for another shot at Wag the Dog and perhaps another place, too, if there was time. So we both got dressed in more socially acceptable clothing and I even put on a bra-like garment and off we went. He dropped me at Wag while he went to get the papers printed. 
Wag was very, very good to me today. I believe that anyone who thrifts realizes that going shopping at one of these places in hopes of finding a specific item is rarely rewarded by finding that item. I believe it's best to just go with open eyes and an open heart. As soon as I walked in the door I saw a display of glassware which included five nice martini glasses, all of different colors. Five of them for sixteen dollars. A steal! 
And no, of course I don't need any more martini glasses but I am fond of them and these looked to have never been used as the little stickers on the bottom that said, "Handwash Only" were still attached but in such a way that I think if they had been washed, even by hand, they would have peeled right off. And anyway, it doesn't matter. So I gathered the glasses up and took them to the register and the woman behind the counter said she'd wrap them for me while I was shopping. 
Monticello has some mighty sweet people in it. 
I looked through clothes, found nothing. There was a good selection of lamps but none I needed in the least, the cookware did not excite me, the sewing and crafts things were not treasure-worthy, and the placemats were nothing I'd use. However, I did find four Vera Wang napkins for $2.50 and they are quite nice. 
While I was going through the knickknacky china stuff, my eye fell on a tray that I was immediately drawn to. I couldn't tell if it was ceramic or plastic but it turned out to be made of a very heavy plastic, a resin? Yes. Resin I think. 
It wasn't the material the tray was made of that drew me to it though, it was the print of the woman's face on it. 

I've done some searching and the image on the platter may have been originally painted by a woman named Alja Horvat. 
Whoever, whatever, I picked it up, felt its heft, set it back down. It cost ten dollars which is pretty high for a plastic tray at Wag the Dog. 
When I'd finished up with my survey of the entire place though, my feet took me right back to this lady who knew without a doubt that I'd return and buy her. Her stare dared me not to. 
I did not have the strength to resist. 

So I bought my glasses and my tray and some lovely satin ribbon and then Mr. Moon and I went to lunch at place where I don't really enjoy eating because, once again, Jesus is prominent on all the walls via those plaques you can buy at the Dollar General that say things like, "In this place we shall worship Jesus Christ, our savior and redeemer." 
Talk about being eat up with that shit. You just can't avoid it in small towns in the south. 
The owner wore a t-shirt that said, "Redeemed" in case we didn't get the picture and it would appear that she did something in the entertainment world at one point as there were quite a few pictures of her with celebrities and near-celebrities on the wall when she was a lot younger. 
And possibly not yet redeemed. 
The funny and frustrating part about the restaurant for me was that everything I asked for from the menu they were out of. To begin with, they were out of iced tea. 
This is like going to a Waffle House and discovering they are out of Waffles. 
Sigh. Water was fine. 
They didn't have the chicken salad salad, they didn't have the Caprese salad, they didn't have the grilled chicken sandwich.
"Get a wrap!" the owner told me. It didn't sound like a suggestion but more of a command.
"I don't really like wraps," I said. And I don't. 
I finally ended up with a bacon, lettuce, tomato, and avocado sandwich with potato salad and they were all good but the bread on the sandwich was Wonder Bread and I shit you not. 
Still. Not bad. 
Glen ordered a club sandwich which they also had so all was not lost. That too, came on Wonder Bread. 
Here's a thing that was on the table:

I have to say that even for Monticello, this place was pushing it. 

We crossed the street after lunch and went to the antique/vintage store for a short run-through. Another extremely tall man began a conversation with Glen, asking him how tall he was and it went from there. This guy had been a football player, although he'd loved basketball. I take it he just didn't have the necessary skills. They traded stories about their glory days but I don't think either one of them is the kind of man to be stuck back there. Still, I have come to realize that people who spent a portion of their life playing a team sport and playing it well, will never forget the experience and can't help but look back on it with some wonder and also pride. I think Glen's basketball career had a lot to do with the sort of man he turned out to be. 
And hell, at least he got to go to Europe. 

I took a picture of myself upstairs in the vintage place, right down the hallway from where I found Dorothy Anne. 

I wore the Is He Dead shirt and I do not think one person actually noticed it. They were all too busy concentrating on their "Redeemed" shirts. 
Each to our own. 

Here's a picture I took because I wasn't sure if it was an art installation or just a temporary place to put a mannequin bust. 

Could be both. One never knows. 

We didn't buy a dang thing in the vintage place. I was hoping to find a string of pearls for Levon but did not. 

On our way out of town we stopped at the farmer's market.

Glen wanted a 25 pound bag of raw, jumbo peanuts to roast and of course, they can be crow food too. I got some peaches and some onions and a few sweet potatoes. 

When we got home I decided to do some culling and clearing of one part of my kitchen where I keep a lot of glassware and bowls and platters and trays and other things that I don't use from year to year. I wanted to do this so I could fit my new tray and martini glasses in and so, I have done that. 

Another art installation, I do believe. 

That area looks a little more tidy and perhaps, slowly, slowly, I shall get rid of even more. 

I already have several things promised to the children and in fact, my hallway is looking a bit like a yard sale staging area. 

It feels good to pass these things on to the next generation. 
They're going to get whatever of them they want eventually and I'd like to clear my spaces now and am feeling relatively unattached to a lot of it. Many of these things made me happy at an earlier time of my life and now, well, if I want a platter with a stern and beautiful woman on it, holding five martini glasses, so be it. 

As you can see, I still have a goodly plenty of bowls. But you know what? I am getting rid of a few of them. I can easily see getting rid of more.

The other end of the porch. It's stopped raining and according to the garden cart rain gauge, we did not get a lot. 
Still. Better than none. 

Can we comment yet on blogger blog comments? I hope they fix this situation. Please know that if I generally comment on your blog, I have no doubt read your post from today, I just couldn't leave my footprint. 

Oh well, probably does us all good to have a comment free day, both on the making and receiving ends of the deal. Really, there are no rules. 

Here's your weekly shot of joy, this time provided by The Boss and Little Stevie Van Zandt. 

Happy Friday, y'all. 

Love...Ms. Moon

Hot Pants

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The hurricane lily, the only one I've seen so far, has opened up entirely. They are such gaudy beauties. 

It's so, so dry here. The grass has gone crispy, the leaves are drooping, I can almost hear the earth panting, thirsty for a good, long drink of water. Our daily cruel rain tease happened early today and gave us just about enough moisture to dampen the back porch steps. Mr. Moon bought a new sprinkler in town today and he has it on as we speak, watering the fruit trees we planted a few months ago. Well, there was no "we" about it. He planted them. If we don't water them, we're going to lose them and they were not cheap and let's not forget his labor, getting them in the ground. 
Plus, I would just feel so very guilty if we let them die. You know how I am about plants. 

I stayed home all day and finished up my shirt project. I am not what we might call thrilled about the job I did but I could spend the rest of my life on it, trying for perfection but that ain't gonna happen. It is good enough. 

Now, speaking of embroidery, I discovered what I consider to be just about my favorite example of visible mending combined with embroidery and patchwork I've ever seen in my life. 

I am completely in love and blown away. You can find these glorious jeans at the Magnolia Pearl website. I knew nothing of Magnolia Pearl until Lily told me about the company. They have extremely unusual and very hippie/boho clothing. I get a sort of Helena Bonham Carter/Betsy Johnson vibe from them. Some of their things I like, some I don't, but they are all unbelievably expensive so it doesn't matter what I like or do not like of their collection because I won't be buying any of it. 
Those jeans cost $650. 
However. I think you'd be purchasing a work of art which, should you so choose, you could wear. 

The handwork is phenomenal in an extremely folk art way. 
And of course, the Virgin of Guadalupe is my girl and so I really feel that they should just send me a pair as obviously, they were made for me. 
Sigh. 
But what I'd really love is to take one of the shit-beat pairs of Levi's I have and make my own art jeans. Being a realist though, I know that the project would take me approximately twenty years. 
Still, my fingers are itching. I'm thinking about all the Virgin of Guadalupe images on fabric I have. Not as many as are represented on those britches, but a few. 
And other things that would make fabulous patches. The jeans are not especially holey and I have patched the places that are but the fabric is so thin in many places you can almost see through it so it wouldn't be exactly fake patching. I'm not going to start ripping up Levi's. 
That would be almost as much a sin as letting the fruit trees die. 

But if I started doing one little patch and embroidery border at a time, that might be doable, right?  

Not much else happened here today. I gave myself permission to not do any yard work after I got bitten by at least three different yellow flies. I'm still itching. Those things are the pets of Satan. 

I tried something new with the crows today. Along with their mealworms, I put three raw-in-the-shell peanuts on each tree stump. They came in and seemed to do a lot of discussing about this new development. I truly wish I knew how and what they think, and what they're saying to each other in these discussions because I would bet the ranch they are saying things to each other which they can and do understand. Anyway, all of the mealworms and the peanuts have disappeared so I guess the updated menu was approved. 

I also wish I knew what Maurice was thinking. I hate to say this but she is becoming seemingly more and more...mentally ill? 
Her fear of Glen is becoming worse. She hasn't gone to sit and nap on his lap in weeks and that hurts him. They really had such a cozy relationship. If she's on the back porch and he opens the door she bolts off into the yard. 
I don't know what to do. Perhaps she has a kidney issue. Can UTI's cause cats to display behavior that mimics dementia like it can in humans? I just looked it up and the answer is that they can. So perhaps that's it although she isn't displaying signs of discomfort and is eating and drinking water as usual. 
Let's face it. She's never in her life been "right." 

And that's enough chatter. I don't want to be like the lady in the Aldi who wouldn't stop talking. 
But first- I forgot to tell you about the best thing that happened to me today. 
Yesterday I realized I didn't know where one of my favorite blouses is. It's got the colors of almost everything I wear in it and it has pockets which makes it perfect to wear over t-shirts or whatever, with dresses or skirts that don't. I went through my closet twice. I looked on the floor. I checked the closet where I hang the un-ironed garments. 
I could not find it. I decided I must have left it somewhere after shedding it when I got too hot to need it.  
But this morning I thought I'd just do a double-check in that ironing closet and by golly- it was indeed there. 

It needs ironing. So does everything else in over half that closet. 
La-di-dah. La-di-dah. It was here all along. 
I am so happy. 

Love...Ms. Moon

Tickets To Fire!

This is a cockeyed picture of how my caladium platter fit on the shelf of squares. Sorry. Jessie placed it for me on a higher shelf than I would have put it on so I was holding the phone at a clumsy angle to take the picture. As you can see, I slid my little fishy under the leaf and Gail, our teacher, said that would be fine. So. Four squares for the one platter. Not so bad. I am honestly excited to see how this turns out. I hope it colors up and shines up during the firing. It should. 

And...I finally started working on the fish platter. 

It has begun! As I painted her eye she whispered that her name was Francis. Francis the Blue-Eyed Fish. 
I have never named anything I've made in pottery before unless you count, "Failure" or "Sigh" as names. 
I'm excited. I do love to paint fish. 

It was a big day for our pottery class as we celebrated Gail, our friend and teacher, and Shelly, our joyful friend who loves festivals and has a beautiful son she's raising by herself. And she's doing a damn fine job. The lemon bars I brought and the cookies Jessie made were hugely enjoyed. I am so glad. It was nice to make today's class a little special for Gail and Shelly. The lemon bars were delicious. I'm not going to lie. And Jessie's cookies- well, I have to get that recipe. It's gluten-free and has peanut butter, oatmeal, chocolate chips, butter, and flax seed in them. There may be other things. I think I like them better than the life-sustaining cookies I make for Glen when he goes off on one of his manly adventures. When I get it, I will share it. 

There was some serious pottery-making going on today, too. It wasn't all cookie eating and birthday celebrating. Jessie's trying to figure out how to make August a dragon pot for the plant she got him. He has requested that. She'll do it. 
And Gentleman Caller™ came in for a quick visit. He looked especially spiffy today. I bet I'm one of the last ten people to use the word "spiffy." Perhaps I should use the "sartorial" instead. It is far more sophisticated, don't you think? Lizzie sent me this picture which she took this morning. 

Takes a real man to wear a pink jacket and a tie to go with. 
It really is amusing how the class responds to his presence when he comes in for one of his quick visits. Let us just say we all have a fondness for the Gentleman Caller™. 

I think he looks a little like my own Gentleman Caller™, don't you? 
And by the way, he gave his permission for his photo to be posted here. I thank him for that. I believe people like to see what the folks I talk about look like sometimes. Generally, I am shy about asking anyone if I can take their picture to use on my blog but I don't think it's fair not to get permission. I mean- someone could be in the Witness Protection Program and one of the ones and ones of people who visit here might recognize and wish them harm! 
You never know. We are a pretty wild and possibly dangerous community here at the Church of the Batshit Crazy. I mean- look at me. I attempted to steal a cart with unpaid for foodstuffs in it today. 
Not on purpose. Let us be clear. Read on for that story.

After class Jessie and I met Lily at the Indian buffet which was excellent, as always. We talked and laughed and then laughed some more, again, as always. And then I dropped Jessie off at her house so she could get a nap before her shift tonight and I went to Costco and Publix. Are we surprised? 
I had an experience at Publix. 
I should be embarrassed to tell this story but for some reason I am not. Perhaps because this was not the first time this experience has happened to me. Well, I made it happen. But that was a long time ago back when I didn't worry about my brain and its functioning. So that is reassuring. 
What happened was that while I was shopping I felt the need to visit the restroom. I parked my cart near the restroom doors, went in to one of them, did what one does in a restroom, came out, saw only one cart, grabbed the handle and pushed it down the aisle. 
It wasn't until I was about two aisles over that I looked down at the basket where I stash some of the things I'm going to buy and thought, "I am not buying bread. Or grated cheese. WTF? Goddammit! I grabbed the wrong cart!" 
And indeed I had. 
I found the guy whose basket I had stolen and he was NOT WELL PLEASED. Turns out I'd parked my own cart a little bit away from the restroom doors, sort of in the floral section, and had blithely taken possession of his cart, which was parked much closer to the doors. 
Sigh. 
I apologized and he sort of glared at me but I was feeling feisty and refused to be shamed. Are you not proud of me? I thought, What the fuck, man? Shit happens. 
He took possession of his groceries and sort of huffed off and I went back to the floral section to collect my own which was sitting there, waiting patiently for me to realize my mistake and come back to retrieve it. Which I did, and off we went. I finished up my shopping and then went to pick up Mr. Moon who had taken one of his cars to a body shop to get something done and that's a long story but there were no dents, scratches, or tragedies involved so, whatever. 
I was was vastly relieved that the place he'd taken the Camry was very near to the Publix I'd been shopping at and not twenty miles away which is often the case when he needs a ride. 

And home we came where everything is so very, very dry. The beauty berries are not as fat this year and the clusters are smaller too. 

Everything looks tired and somewhat sad. 

These years happen. We were doing so well there for awhile, getting daily rain, and a good amount of it. 
And now, well, we're not.

I'm tired. Wednesdays are long days for me. But they are generally good days, as this one was. And tomorrow, I can gather my energy back around me. Perhaps I will even finish my shirt. 
And oh, wouldn't I love to put a little more color on Francis? 
Yes. Yes I would. 

I hope you've had a good day too. 

Love...Ms. Moon

Back In My Own Sweet Little World

Look at the pollen on that bee. 
Oh wait. I just looked it up and it's not a bee. It's a mason wasp. But it's a pollinator and as such, welcome in my garden any day of the year. Hell, I'd welcome it just for those blue wings. 
Now this guy? 

Not so much. It's more of a terminator than a pollinator. 
I know I've posted too many pictures of these things but I'm not sure I've ever seen as many in the years previously as I have this year. I just let this one be. I really cannot stand to smash them. At this point they can pretty much eat what they want of the garden but I do realize that every one I don't kill could represent literally hundreds of offspring. 

It's been feeling a little different here in the mornings when I get up. Perhaps a bit cooler, a little less humid, and the sky is taking on that blue which fall brings. The trees are still very much leafed but if you've lived here a long time, you can feel it. A very, very subtle change. Quite possibly so subtle in fact, that you can't consciously name what the change feels like. And yet, it's there. 
This morning I was tossing a dead roach wrapped in the ghost spider webs out the back porch door and I saw this.

The first hurricane lily I've seen this year. Usually, I start thinking about them right before they shoot up but this one came as a complete surprise to me. 
Well. There you are. Hello! 
I've never seen one growing in that particular place so it was a little disconcerting to find it there. That bed, which is between the house and the little pathway under the wisteria arbor is one that I am yearning to clear out. I mean, it's almost a physical need to get on my knees in there and pull out that nasty crocosmia which never blooms and the border grass gone wild and the random weeds. But right now I'm working on that bed beside the kitchen and the library. 

I try to think of the work as resistance strength training as the chenille plant and border grass definitely resist my efforts to pull it up. I can handle about an hour there while it's still in shade and I think a few more days of work will be enough to get it done and then I can move on around the corner to that other mess that I so yearn to get my trowel on. 
A little bit at a time. 

Maybe it was the way the air felt or maybe it was seeing that hurricane lily but I suddenly felt the impulse to plant a few greens seeds. I went through my last year's seeds and collected a very few collard seeds, along with kale and turnips. I cleaned out some of the grow bags and worked some sort of organic fertilizer in them and then did a casual pressing down of the seeds into the dirt. And then I turned on the water and wished them luck. I need to buy more collard seeds and I will. I just wanted to get some in the ground now.
The okra seeds I planted are up and looking pretty happy although I still have my doubts about whether there will be time for them to mature enough to make pods before they die back. I did the tiniest amount of thinning of the arugula, but enough to go into tonight's salad. 

It just felt good to be out there, getting something in the ground. Oh, how I would love to have enough greens to cook a big pot for Thanksgiving! 

I had great plans to do the outside work and then come in and finish up the neckline of my shirt and also do some more painting on my leaf platter and we all know how that turned out. 
Eh. Not quite. 
Before I got started on that I made some lemon bars to take to pottery tomorrow. It's Shelly's and teacher Gail's birthday and I think a few treats are called for. Somehow I don't think I'd ever made lemon bars before and I have no idea if these will be any good. I used a recipe I found online from The Pioneer Woman's blog. They were easy and pretty fast to make but still, I had to give some time to it. And for the first time ever, I used Glen's mama's citrus juicer which I've had on the shelf in the kitchen for the 22 years we've lived here. It's such a pretty thing, and functional too. 

It has to be made for lemons and limes, because it's way too small to hold the juice of an orange half. Even an entire lemon filled it to capacity. I realized that what looks like a decorative feature around the center part is a seed trap. How cool! 
I just hope the bars can be cut and transported tomorrow morning and that they taste good, of course. They're in the refrigerator now. 

By the time I got around to my shirt, it was already getting late but I got some more done. Here's what it's looking like. 

Now you know I only showed you the part that looks best. All hail the feather stitch which is so easy and as I said yesterday, does not require absolute consistency. It's...feathery. Right? And I'm having a good time with it. 
I didn't even have time to think about my caladium but that will happen tomorrow. Hopefully, my brain has been thinking about it all week and has some ideas as to colors. 

Overall though, I have felt rather cheerfully grateful today for the time and energy to do things that please me. That's a good way to feel, isn't it? Gratefulness can be a therapeutic tool, or so I hear (I wonder how many gratefulness journals Oprah sold?) but that sort of gratefulness, dredged up when your heart is closed and tight and your mind is raging and roaring, can feel like painting on a lipsticked smile to try and make yourself believe that DAMMIT, I AM HAPPY! JUST LOOK AT ME! 
I mean, okay. I get the idea but for me, counting all the things I feel grateful for when I am trying to keep my head above water only adds to the general guilt and shame I feel about myself for somehow managing to be so unhappy when I am obviously the luckiest woman in the world. 
And I have just found the most perfect video in the world to show exactly how genuine this feels to me. I beg of you, do not watch more than perhaps 20-30 seconds of this dreck because I fear it may cause brain damage to go any further. We used to sing this song in school when I was a child, especially at Thanksgiving. Even then, I tried so hard to believe. 
Even then, it never worked. 

But when the gratefulness comes easily and freely from the heart- well, that's one of the very best things in the world. 
Or at least it's pretty damn good. 
In my opinion. 

And as we all know, I have as many opinions as I have theories. 

See you tomorrow, should you choose to come back and hear more of both. 

Love...Ms. Moon

It Was Great! It Was Weird

I woke up this morning and thought to myself that if I did not get out of my house, out of my yard today, I was going to probably die. 
 I haven't left the yard since last Wednesday except to go to the dump. 
That's pathetic. 

But Jessie saved my life, as my children so often have, texting to see if I wanted to go to Monticello today. We'd been talking about taking a little jaunt over there for awhile and she'd found an outdoor table and chairs on FB Marketplace not far from my house and on the way to Monticello which she wanted to buy. The funny thing was, was that I'd seen the same listing and thought, "I should buy those. I need an outdoor table." And then I reminded myself I have too much shit already so I didn't. But Jessie did!

She picked me up in Vergil's truck and off we went to buy a table and chairs and the road we went down to get to the house is a road I've passed gozillion times, both in the last twenty years I've lived here and the five or six years (I think), I lived in Lloyd with my first husband and Hank and May, and never once turned on to it. What I discovered is that there is still a whole lot of undeveloped land in that area, just woods and more woods. It was sort of reassuring. 
We found the house where the table and chairs were waiting for us and a very nice man and woman were waiting too. The guy helped Jessie get the table in the truck and tied down and Jessie put the stacked chairs in the back seat of the truck. And then off we went to Monticello. I asked her if she'd mind driving down the little road my house had been on when I lived in Lloyd before and she said she would.
That was interesting. Someone has done a lot of work on the house and yard but again, the woods behind the house are still...woods.
A lot of memories, I tell you. 

We knew most things are closed in Monticello on Mondays but we found two places open that we stopped in. One was called Faith Full Refillery and one was The Monticello Soap Company. 
It too, is a sort of refillery where you can buy or bring your own containers to fill with their laundry detergents and housecleaning liquids and body washes and shampoo and so on. You know. 

Is "refillery" a name now? A real word? I guess so. 
The first shop we went to, the Faith Full Refillery, has jars and jars of spices and herbs and teas, etc., along with a few olive oils and some local honeys. They have a refrigerated section with somehow-legal unpasteurized milk and sour cream and so forth. They also sell sourdough starter and give classes on bread making. The shop is as clean as it could possibly be and everything is incredibly neat and tidy, as is the soap shop. 
What in the name of holy, hippie hell is going on in Monticello? And need I mention that the Faith Full Refillery's business model is based on the owners' Christianity? 
I swear. I don't get it. The woman is a nurse. Has been forever. She's still working. And yet, here we are. 
The soap lady didn't seem to have have any obvious religious proclivities but was rather jolly and I discovered that she lives about half a mile away from me. 
I just find it so hard to believe that shops like these can survive in Monticello, Florida. I think there may be a growing tourist situation going on there for day shoppers who want to buy antiques and vintage stuff and get delicious coffee and pastries and so more and more businesses are opening up. 
Still. It's just so hard to fathom. There are wellness places that offer massages and who the hell knows what, clothing boutiques, knick-knack purveyors, a store that sells plants (not to be confused with a nursery), all mixed in with Wag the Dog and the barber shop which makes no pretensions at all about being anything more than a place to sit down and get your ears lowered. As they say around here. 

So it was interesting and we went to the Mexican restaurant. That was excellent, as always. And I had to take a picture of the ladies' room. As always. 

You just can't beat that for decor. 
And I am being serious. 

So. Refilleries, lunch, a little stroll around, and then, to round out the experience, we hit the new Aldi's. 
Now some of you may know and some of you no doubt do NOT know because, why should you? that Aldi's has bought out Winn Dixie which was the only large grocery store in Monticello. Winn Dixie is a well-known chain of grocery stores but for whatever reason (probably Publix and Walmart), they are closing store after store and many are being reopened as Aldi's. 
There is at least one Aldi's in Tallahassee and I have been there exactly once. So this was going to be a big adventure for me but it turned out to be the best and the worst of going out in public. 
First of all, the store was empty. I mean- flat-out empty. 

Except for us and maybe three other people and one of those people grabbed on to us (she literally held on to my arm) and kept us in an aisle for at least twenty minutes, maybe more. 
She was one of those people who simply cannot not talk. They talk so much that there's no break in it long enough for you to say, "Oh my. Look at the time. I think I need an emergency appendectomy. Must run!" 
She may have been Chinese. I really don't know but she did tell us she was Mongolian and Hungarian, I think. Her English was pretty darn good and just about the first thing she said to us, after she'd grabbed my arm and determined that I was Jessie's mother, was, "Oh, you're so beautiful!" And to Jessie, "Your mother is so beautiful!" 
Well, who doesn't want to hear THAT? 
However. After about the thirteenth time she'd said it, I was growing weary of hearing how beautiful I was. She did ask questions about us and probably knows more about us and our families now than most of our pottery friends, but we know things about her that I wouldn't even repeat here because they are so private. But she was so happy to share! And she would say, right before she gave us another tidbit of her life, "You are cool. Like my family is! I can tell you this!"
So not only were we beautiful (she'd told Jessie she was too), we were cool! I think she's been in Florida for a very long time. She's married to an American and she works at a nursery and her one daughter lives in Alaska (I wonder why). She has no grandchildren and wanted them so much and now her daughter is too old (she's thirty-seven, I think) although she's getting married a year from this November.
As she talked, I grew more and more anxious. I broke out in a sweat. She held onto my arm and she stood very close to me and I am sure that's a cultural thing and that's fine but after awhile, my American culture-brain started saying things like, "Warning, Warning, Will Robinson." And finally, I felt a drop of liquid running down my leg and it was neither pee or amniotic fluid. It was sweat. 
I have never experienced anything quite like that before. 
I kept looking at Jessie for some way out of this but she was so calm and so patient and answered all of the woman's questions so graciously and I tried to do so as well. 
I've known one other person in my life who had whatever this inability to understand that conversations need to come to an end after a certain amount of time is and I kept thinking about her. You had to simply walk away while she was talking because there was going to be no end. 
Finally, finally, I said something like, "Well, we need to get on with our shopping so Jessie can get back to town to pick up her children," and although I had to repeat it twice, she finally got it and I pulled away from her and felt as if I was just this side of madness. 

The thing is, I liked her. She was darling. She showed interest in our lives. Obviously she is lonely. She didn't talk about religion. And we did not want to be rude to such a darling person and yet, if I hadn't said what I said, we'd still be there in that aisle in Aldi's. I can guarantee that. 

So I got out of the house today. I got out of Lloyd. I got to hang out with Jessie. I had fajitas. I bought a little tiny bit of organic nutmeg. 
On the other hand...Lord have mercy and save me from encounters like that in the future. I do not have the mental fortitude to handle them. 

When I got home I picked up my t-shirt embroidery project, realized what I needed to do which was to use a feather stitch as a hem border, ripped out everything I'd already done, and got started on that. The feather stitch is forgiving and does not require exact spacing. I could quite possibly finish up with it tomorrow. 
And I can tell you right now that I do not plan on going anywhere tomorrow. Jessie probably saved my life and my mental health by getting me out of the house today but I need a whole day to recover. And Wednesday is pottery. 

We're having our daily fake-promise of rain and I am growing weary of this. I'm going to have to water the fruit trees again tomorrow. For the first time, the crows did now show up at all to eat their mealworms. Mr. Moon fed them because I was in Monticello and he claims they don't come and eat if he feeds them. 
I hope they're okay and haven't decided to take off for south America or something. But if they have, they have and I think will eventually return. 

Remember to establish boundaries with family, friends, AND strangers. Weird things can happen in the bare aisles of Aldi if you don't. 

Is there a refillery in your neck of the woods? I'd like to hear about it if there is. 

Love...Ms. Moon