It seems as if many of us are going through "unbloggable" events and yes, I guess I am too.
It's nothing huge or a tragedy or life-threatening, just...you know- life.
And isn't it funny how we can talk about some things and not others and I guess that's mainly because other people are involved and it's not fair to them (if we ARE fair and many of us do try to be) to rant and rave in a public space about private matters. And so yes, there is good reason to keep our mouths shut or at least to keep our rants off of the internet and anyway, at some age you realize that things are always in flux, things do tend to resolve, and finally, what may be a huge issue one day may not even make the top ten list the next.
But wouldn't it be nice, wouldn't it be HELPFUL sometimes to say, "This is what I am going through. Am I being unreasonable, is THAT person being unreasonable? Have you been through this? Or something similar? What did you do? How did it resolve?"
To be able to write those things instead of always just the things that make us look (unintended or not) to have near-perfect lives with everything figured out, in place, set in stone, lucky, lucky, lucky?
I think, at heart, that many of us DO know what we need to do about a situation and in knowing that, we also know that it serves no purpose to just vomit up the detritus of it online. Although...that would be so much easier than actually doing the work we know we need to do to rectify or correct the problem we are dealing with. Wouldn't it?
I have been thinking a lot lately about trying to always hold the other side's reasons in mind. The reasons for whatever I am perceiving as negative whether it is bigotry or blind faith or...whatever. Whatever, being a behavior that I don't agree with, that pisses me off or that hurts me. It is, of course, not always possible to do that.
But, sometimes it is.
And sometimes, it is vastly important to remember that there are generally at least two sides in every situation and that we play our parts as well. That there is no magic wand to simply be waved to create the best that we know can be created. That ignoring something and hoping things will change isn't always the best way to deal with it. That we must admit our parts in whatever is off the rails, that we must be willing to change and that (and this is the hardest part for me) to display the behavior that we would like to have displayed towards us.
Especially if we feel wronged or hurt. Especially then.
I am pondering all of these things today. I am wanting to make things as best they can be in my life which is, after all, a small life. One that should be manageable. If I can be reasonable and sensible.
I am thinking about all of that and I am trying to cut through bullshit and I am going to go to town to run some errands and it is a beautiful day, a little cooler again, and I had a good walk which did not kill me and I feel stronger in many ways.
I am SUCH a flawed human being but at least I know that. And I know that as much as I protest that I am doing the best I can, I am quite aware that I can do better in so many ways. That it is a great comfort sometimes to think that like Popeye I yam what I yam and that's all that I yam, but there comes a time to admit that that is a very limiting philosophy in real life and that change is possible and inevitable too, and it is up to me to try and create the changes I would like to see, instead of waiting around for life to deliver unto me the changes I seriously do not want.
To know that there is a potential for a bigger, better life and to not try to make it so is a wrongness and unfair to every one involved.
Yours In Being Human And Reaching Out For Grace...Ms. Moon