Owen eating the bacon and lettuce on a bun sandwich which he loves and Gibson eating the Gibson sampler platter which is pickled okra, deviled eggs and potato chips. When we got there, I hugged my boys so hard and asked Owen to tell me all his secrets. He dragged me away to sit by the little pool and did so. I had to promise not to tell anyone what they are but I will say that one of them involved stealing a baby dinosaur and keeping it in a safe in his house and feeding it cats because it is a meat eater.
And another one, whispered at the end was, "I love you."
After lunch I went to the Goodwill (manic behavior- wanting to shop) and spent thirty damn dollars. I bought a beautiful purse bag which, when I sent pictures to Lily she proclaimed as looking as if it were made from a couch. I texted back, "A really cute couch."
I also bought a fine leather-bound journal, a tablecloth which has about four years' worth of hand-stitching on it, a Gap purple very soft v-necked T-shirt, and a red and black dress which doesn't look that great on me but which fits.
I consider all of that a major score.
And when I was looking through the dresses, a woman told me, "If you see anything slinky, sexy or slutty let me know."
Holy opportunity, Batman!
I found her a dress which she loved.
"I could wear that to dinner!" she said.
"And if you play your cards right, you could at least get a drink or two out of it," I said.
"Or a movie!" she replied.
I felt as if I'd done my job.
And Mr. Moon and I have had a martini and I have rosemary and Kalamata olive bread rising
and he's got charcoals going to grill steaks which I have smeared with olive oil and smashed garlic .
I don't think I could ask for anything more and yet, here is something else that happened to me today- when I was hugging Owen good-bye after lunch, he said to me, "Mer. I will always be here for you."
I swear to you, that is what he told me. Five years old. And I almost died.
"And I will always be here for you," I said, stumbling over reality. "Or, until I'm not. And I will ALWAYS be in your heart," I told him. "Always."
Dear god, let this be so.