Better. Much, much better.
Those babies ARE a tonic for me.
Gibson is growing and he is just the most calm baby. He wants what he wants- his nursies- and when he gets them and is satisfied, he is happy.
Our fears that Owen might feel displaced by Gibson have been unfounded. He is as sweet as pie to that baby and kisses him all the time. Gibson, of course, is already fascinated by his big brother. I think this fascination will last a lifetime. I think Owen will be worthy of that.
He is getting to be so verbal and so funny. We have been watching this video together and it's silly and it's simple and we like it.
If you don't want to watch it, that's fine. But it's about a duck who keeps going to a lemonade stand and asking for grapes. "Got any grapes?" he asks. Which frustrates the lemonade dude tremendously. And all afternoon Owen would look at me slyly and say, "Got any grapes?" and then he'd laugh.
He played hard and got dirty and so I let him get in the tub, which he loves.
His hair is short but he is still so beautiful. Those eyes. Oh my lord. I love those eyes. After his bath I wrapped him up in a towel and he laughed and laughed and I put his clothes on him and made him a ham and cheese sandwich and all day he kept saying, "Don't worry." And to the baby chickens, "No be afraid."
Every time he said those things, I took them into my heart. I did.
His Bop got home and didn't even get in the house. We were on the front porch when he got here and Bop and Owen immediately broke off sticks from the Confederate Rose that we never trimmed this spring and proceeded to fish together.
"We should go real fishing again, Owen," said Bop.
"Nice," said Owen.
And he told me to go away.
Which I did. I know he loves me. I'm sort of like tap water. Turn on the faucet- there it is. Turn around and there's Mer-Mer. I like that. I'm not jealous.
My little short-haired growing-boy.
My new little bundle of sweet joy.
Yeah. I feel better.
Don't worry. No be afraid.
Love you, Owen says when we kiss him good-bye. Love you! he shouts as they drive away.
My heart. Be still.