I started writing a really whiny bla-bla post this morning about how I never want to leave Lloyd and it was pretty ridiculous (although completely true) and I was getting myself all worked up about it all, my isolation, my fear of the marketplace or perhaps more specifically my dislike of being out in the world and then the Freddy Crew got here to film a pick-up scene and next thing I knew I was helping edit lines and lace up Darling Laura's dress and joking and talking and holding light-things and you know what?
I may not like to leave Lloyd but I am so damn lucky. It's not that I don't like people. I do like people. I love people. MY people, as my friend Lon says, and suddenly, it's become a beautiful day and I am a part of this world again.
If we never would have bad days or doubts we would most probably not respect the good ones or even feel the difference. I am glad you found your spot back and that you have seen a little bit of light... And who's fancy camera is that?
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean, it's not that I don't like people either...I love them too...but especially when they are MY people - like you.
ReplyDeleteAnd I would have loved to read the whinny bla-bla post as well - there is always a gorgeous nugget of truth in there from you.
Enjoy your beautiful day.
I had a little anxiety/misery freak out on the way to work this morning, of the kind you describe so well.
ReplyDeleteBut I just reminded myself that it would pass, and tried to stop cataloguing my flaws, and did my best to woman up and get on with things, and it did work itself out pretty much ok.
You don't have to move away to excitement, Gal. Excitement comes to you, right to your house. Glad you have Freddie and the film folks to play with.
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Photocat- That's the camera which Freddy uses to film. Believe it or not.
ReplyDeleteLiv- Oh I DID enjoy my beautiful day. And still am. Thank-you, love.
Jo- It usually does, doesn't it? No matter how much we worry or don't.
N2- Oh. Me too. SO grateful for that.
Nice camera!
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