Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Home Body Or Agoraphobic?

I haven't left Lloyd in four days and it would probably be a good thing for me to do so today. And I plan to. I'm going to meet up with a friend to go see The Grand Budapest Hotel early this evening and before that I really should get a bale of hay for the chickens' nests and probably a few things at the grocery store.

My tiny life has become even narrower. This is just the truth.

And although for me it is enough, this tiny life, it probably isn't that good for me to be so isolated.
It's hard, though. I am almost completely content here, especially on these beautiful spring days where it starts out chilly and then warms up, when each morning brings something new, whether a new tender shade of green or a sudden waterfall of wisteria pouring down or the astonishing overnight growth of baby chickens or seeds breaking ground or the way the light falls, hour to hour throughout the day. It seems like enough.
To me.


I live in this real world and there is more to it than even these beautiful things and as I always say, "Who do I think I am, Emily Dickinson?"
Not even close, mama. 

Well. Today I will leave Lloyd and go out into the world a little bit. 

Meanwhile, here's a picture my husband just sent me.

That makes me smile. 

I should get moving. The trash isn't going to take itself, and neither is my walk. 

Good morning from Lloyd.

Love...Ms. Moon 


  1. I can't wait to hear what you think of the movie. And the photo of Mr. Moon is so darling --

  2. Yes! I'm with you. I love staying in my little house apparently more than people want me to. I know it's a fine line between solitude and isolation. I ride that line too. Although I think I'd be perfectly happy hanging out in your little chicken area, poop and all.

  3. I'm often tempted to tell you no, it's ok, be Emily Dickinson!-type things, but only you know what's best for you, so I will just say that you have my love and respect as a homebody, agoraphobic, all of it, more of it, less of it, or none.

  4. If you were agoraphobic, you probably couldn't go to the grocery store let alone the movies and out to lunch, etc. I'd cross that off your worry list.

    We all have tiny worlds-even me. I don't leave DC, ever. And rarely leave my neighborhood city blocks. If I had actual land and solitude -- no way would i leave unless i had to.

  5. Wait, I cross the river to Virginia for work every day. So there is that. ;) I guess I should make myself sound very worldly and say I do inter-state travel every single day.

  6. I hope you enjoy the movie - I can't wait to see it.
    That picture of Mr. Moon! What kind of fish is that? Looks delicious :)

  7. We live a little bit out in the country, and I would be perfectly content to sit on our covered deck and enjoy our lake with vocal frogs, our hummingbirds in the summer, the honeysuckle sweetening the air, a good book, and our dog, Maggie. But I made this commitment to hit the gym three times a week, and there's the grocery shopping and domestic diva duties. But, yeah....I'd be perfectly happy to sit on the deck.

  8. Did you like the movie? It's been a long time since I have been so charmed and entertained by something on the big screen...

  9. Well, If I had that fish and that man, I might never leave town either. Make the world come to you, Mrs. Moon!

  10. Who? Who says being content while being alone for days at a time is a bad thing? It's good to get out too but the other is not bad.

  11. Elizabeth- Mr. Moon is such a Viking. He is most beautiful out on the water where he is most happy. I swear.

    Lisa- It's not a bad place. It's full of mystery and beauty to me.

    Ms. Vesuvius- Thank you. I wonder why we all thing we suffer from something that needs to be fixed when perhaps we are just who we are and as such, are fine.

    SJ- And I do inter-county travel every time I go to Tallahassee, even to the grocery store which is eleven minutes away. So...we're okay, right?

    Mel- It was a grouper. Grouper season began today. A noble, beautiful, delicious fish.

    Catrina- I seem to be able to stay very busy right here in my own little world. And instead of the gym, I go walk in our woods. What more could I want?

    Joan- I loved it. But it was not my favorite Wes Anderson movie. See my latest post.

    Denise- That's my evil plan. That they should all come to me.

    Ellen Abbott- Thank you. For reminding me. So much.

  12. People who say you "should" or merely talking about what is good for them. Most people cannot be happy nor content when alone and they don't understand how others can be. Personally, I enjoy alone. Of course I have my dog and go out for walks 4-5 times a day but I have no need for people unless they are the "special" people. (special=who I click with or few and far between)
    If I lived in your house I would have my groceries delivered and never ever leave home. :)

  13. Sounds like a good day. Movies and lunch and friends. But I do like the photo of Mr. Moon with that big honkin' fish.


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