I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed this morning and something got into the trash that was outside waiting to go to the trash place and I had to clean that up and that is just not a good way to start a day, much less a week but the sun is shining, finally, and at last, and so we can play outside today and we will.
I have not been sleeping so well but wake up over and over and over again and my dreams are just horrible and I'm feeling like the world's worst mother and am fretting and worrying over things that threaten to overtake me if I let them and I need to stop and just...breathe.
Breathe. Let it go. Be mindful of this beautiful day, the light fully back, the clucking of hens next door, the calling of birds, the richness of my life, this cool, sweet air.
I have a rose vine which I didn't even prune this year and it snakes and climbs and drapes and catches you if you accidentally brush it on your way out to the hen house and year before last I cut it back to the nothing and still it grows and the tiny, baby-pink roses on it are a wonder and they smell exactly like roses should smell.
Here they are.
And now I need to go take the trash and make the bed and get ready for Owen and Gibson and pray that they are not too jacked up on yesterday's candy and let the chickens out and remember to be thankful that this is my life and that it is filled with beauty, both great and small and that all will be as it will be and it is not mine to control the world.
Or something the fuck like that.
Happy Monday.
Love...Ms. Moon
When my kids were jacked up while visiting their grandma, my mother made them wash the car, getting wet and spraying each other with the garden hose. They have wonderful memories of that but maybe it's still too cold there for that sort of activity.
ReplyDeleteOh, if we were judged by whether or not we replied to the comments we got on our blathering, well, it's a good thing we're not. I rarely respond and it's not because I don't appreciate them or don't have anything to say, it's just that who has that kind of time! writing, reading, and leaving comments is about all I can handle. but mainly it's because when I respond it's via email, not on the blog, so if you don't make an email address available...
ReplyDeleteI rarely ever check back on comments you may make on comments I may make. It's that whole "I was looking back to see if you were looking back to see..." thing. Don't feel pressure to respond to any of my dorky comments! Lol!
ReplyDeleteBreathe. It could be worse. You could be in a women's prison and have to wear maxi pads on your feet.
I'm having a shitty shit day. Thanks for reminding me to remember to focus on the good.
ReplyDeleteI have very little time to blog lately so all I am doing is reading other blogs and comment.
ReplyDeleteI have having a crap day as well. Maybe I can find a hole and bury myself. Or have a nap.
I spent yesterday with all eight of my grands (who range in age from 17 to 9), along with their parents, my brother and his family, and my dad. I had such a good day and at the end of the day even posted on my facebook page that I felt so blessed. This morning I got up, decided I wasn't going to the gym, did a load of laundry, took a two-hour nap (at 10 a.m.!), and I've been sitting on my deck watching the hummingbirds. It's now 3 p.m. and I'm considering another nap. So yesterday's blessings just may be today's melancholy....
ReplyDeleteYou are the best mother. I love you so.
ReplyDeleteAngella- It's so funny- Owen ASKED me today if he could wash the garden cart! Which is fairly ridiculous but I said, "sure" and got them a bucket and rags and they spent half an hour cleaning it. I swear.
ReplyDeleteEllen Abbott- For me, it's just a way to make it a conversation, you know? It means a lot to me. Just, personally.
And my e-mail address is on sidebar under my name.
heartinhand- Well, so true, but thankfully not part of my reality. Today, anyway.
Jill- Some days you can focus on the good all you want and it still isn't going to make everything all better.
Birdie- Nap. Always the right choice.
catrina- Or exhaustion!
May- You seriously just made my day, darling girl. I love thinking about you with your new magic box. I love you so much I can't even say it. Thank you.
You're right Ms. Moon. I tried really hard to focus on the good today and it didn't matter. A shitty day occurred. Oh well, I guess they make me appreciate the better ones.
ReplyDeleteLife has sure gotten in the way with my blogging as well. Too much going on. I guess that's good.
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