Saturday, May 13, 2017

How Not To Relax

The crazy has been strong within me today and I have various theories about why and of course, who really knows but I think I may have actually had a sort of panic attack after breakfast, feeling as if small currents of electricity were sparking off inside me and my stomach is definitely off and for a moment or two at El Jalisco I felt as if I might pass out or something but I didn't.
I took an Ativan and came back and laid down on the bed in our beach room and looked at the Oleander blowing outside the window and breathed as best I could and then I slept for a few moments.
We went into Apalachicola this afternoon and walked around a few shops and peeked into a house for sale and went down to our property where I saw a raccoon trundling back into the heavy growth by the water and I followed him up to a point and then squatted and peed. That had nothing to do with the raccoon. I just had to pee.

Now we're back at the Simmons again and I still feel far from peaceful although the ocean has calmed down from what it was this morning which was a raging churn of waves and froth. It's still not a body of water I want to get in right now. A few weeks ago a guy died right off this island, saving his nephew in a riptide. No one else is swimming either but maybe we'll take a walk in a few minutes. I just feel completely uneasy and yes, anxious, and unlike yesterday it does suck.

Well, that's enough of that. We all know I'll live.

Love...Ms. Moon


  1. I think you should get some Mary Jane. Like, today. Because I am so baked right now. Anxiety? I have none. Less than none.
    I was going to say something else but I can't remember what it was. I forgot.

  2. Mary I often have panic attacks while I sleep then I wake up all scribbled. Ugh is right. I read a book when I was a kid in which someone was poisoned by oleander. I wish I could remember the title. I loved love you. Watch those sneaker waves (that is what the surfers around here call them) but DO get yr paws wet. XO

    PS I'm with Birdie. Go greener!


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