Still dreary here, cold and wet, the day is beginning, the boys will be here soon.
I couldn't find the dogs this morning to let them out and of course, they are upstairs, sleeping with Jessie whom they adore.
I think that Jessie and I are going to have to take the boys to town to shop for tonight's dinner. You would think I would have had this more under control but no, I do not. We are talking sushi here.
It is amazing to me how very little it takes to unbalance me. I suppose I need to remember that three weeks ago I was what I would describe as completely unhinged and had been for three months.
Just three weeks.
Not such a long time to find my balance; it is not reasonable to believe that I am yet sure of my position on the high wire as it stretches across even the shortest distance between two points.
And even if I stumble, there will be my loves to catch me.
I, too, get rather unbalanced when I have to put on a social event even for those i love most and am most familiar with in this world. the many steps to pulling it all off cause me some anxiety and i suspect you are similar. but it will be fine. as you say, your loves will be there holding the net beneath you, and everything that needs to happen will get done. breathe breathe breathe. and set those high expectations of yourself on a high shelf. it will all be perfect no matter how it unfolds. you'll see. xo
ReplyDeleteBe gentle with yourself like you'd be to those you love. And yes, preparing dinner for anyone other than myself unbalances me to bits.
ReplyDeleteTwo steps forward and one step back is still progress.
ReplyDeleteI need to be reminded of that as well. Thanks for the reminder.
ReplyDeleteYes. Thank you. Relish in that net of love.
ReplyDeleteSounds to me like you are doing great. A change in three weeks is good. And Jessie is there to warm your heart and mind.
ReplyDeleteAngella- It all turned out so beautifully. It really did, just as you said.
ReplyDeleteMs. Vesuvius- First off- CONGRATULATIONS!
Secondly- I ended up doing very, very little of the cooking and it was splendid!
Ellen Abbott- You are so right.
Birdie- Some miracles take a little longer than others, don't they?
Denise- Oh, I did.
Syd- Yes. To all of that. So very much- yes.