I mean, everyone has her ups and downs, right? Part of life.
But golly, I've just been in such a good mood today. Is it relief not to be going to the island? Could that be it? I don't know. But I have to admit that I did go to Goodwill and I spent almost fifty dollars but for those fifty dollars (not quite) I got four pairs of winter pants for Gibson, a lamp, a small pretty dish, six napkins in a beautiful shade of mulberry, and three dresses. One of the dresses is linen and has deep pockets and is not a beautiful shade of anything but is brown and I can live with that. It's for home wearing. One of the dresses is an April Cornell and looks never to have been worn and it's got the prettiest spring green in it and one is a silk dress from the Gap and yeah, yeah, whatever. It too has that beautiful shade of mulberry in its print and I seriously don't think it was ever worn either. And here's the thing- I really, truly enjoyed shopping today. I didn't stress out in the least, no panic. A girl came into the store looking for an AT&T place that no one knew anything about and I let her use my phone and tried to help her and that felt just plain good. And I had other stops to make and made them and never once felt my usual panic about getting home.
I felt what I think normal must feel like.
And isn't it odd that we should even have some internal register of what "normal" should feel like? Especially when we so rarely feel it.
This was probably part of it:
A text I got from Lily who had gone to the mall with the boys to meet a friend. If you can't see the picture she sent, it looks like this.
My little Rolling Stone Fan Man. Do you think that MerMer should find him a Rolling Stone shirt for his birthday? Well of course.
He is growing so fast right now. His legs are getting so long and skinny. He is reminding me of pictures of his grandfather as a boy who looked more colt than child. I am wondering how tall he will be when he grows up. We shall have to wait and see.
And as a side note- they are selling Rolling Stone T-shirts at the mall?
Wonders never cease or at least they can last for fifty years or more.
And now it's time to start supper and Mr. Moon has just mowed the yard with his fancy lawn mower and so I bet he's in a good mood. There is a part of me which wishes I was on the island, especially as right now, this second, the weather is clear as can be although there have been showers throughout the day.
Well, too late to second guess.
And I'm not going to second guess where this mood has come from. I'm just going to accept it, be glad of it. I swear to you, I almost want to tell my husband that I want to go OUT for supper. On a Thursday night! What?!
Where is Ms. Moon and what have you done with her?
And where can I send the thank-you note?
Yours In Either Normalcy Or Mania...Ms. Moon Who Will Take It, Whichever It Is