Friday, February 14, 2014

I'm alive and I'll probably be alive for awhile and I hit the wall today, hit it, bit it and am starting an antidepressant and making a Valentine's Day supper for my sweetheart although he offered to take me down to the coast for supper because it's easier to cook than to dress and put on a bra and it's okay.
It's okay. It's okay.
It's going to be okay.


  1. there was quite a long period of time, years, that my mantra was 'this is only temporary'. I had to repeat that to myself every day, many times a day.

  2. I am so glad everything will be okay - even though I know it will take time to feel better. Sweet Jo

  3. It is going to be okay. Just give it time and it will be okay.

  4. So glad you got the antidepressant. And ol' VD is a crock of shit and I got to have dinner with my love and our boys who spent the entire hour hitting each other with menus, Pokemon cards and making noises unknown until this day to humankind.

    It will be okay. What other choice do we have? We're all just going to keep on talking and keep on finding each other in the dark which makes it a little less dark.

  5. Of course it is. Time for the anti-d, it's a good thing, I think.

  6. Hang on Mary. I'm glad that you are doing this and that you can talk about it. I went on meds for anxiety a few years back and ridiculously felt such shame for needing to do so. It wasn't like my life situation was awful, in fact, it was great, but I could barely hold it together because I was dying inside. Take your pills and talk about it. We are listening and care dearly. It will be better. Joey

  7. Good news, Ms. Moon.
    Just want to say something that I'm sure you already know, but just in case: When I started my medication, my doctor told me that I would feel weird/crappy, etc., for a while before it kicked in, and to give it a month before I decided if it was working or not. I'm so glad she told me that ahead of time. (and it didn't last a month)

  8. Good for you to ask for help. And it will be okay--remember the Marigold Hotel quote--"Everything will be okay in the end. And if it's not okay, then it's not the end."

  9. Ellen Abbott- I myself have used "All Things Must Pass." A lot.

    Sweet Jo- I know. But there is hope.

    Birdie- And for you too, sweetness.

    Sara- Amen. And boys- oh my god. They are something, aren't they? Thanks for coming here. I mean it.

    Jo- I do too.

    Joey- If I stop talking about it, I'm probably dead. Thanks. We need to stop feeling this shame. Ain't no shame in wanting to feel just okay. None at all.

    Sylvia- Thank you. I do know that but it sure helps to be reminded. I feel weird today and that's for sure. But I'm going to hang in there with it. I am.

    Syd- I love that movie. I love that quote, too. Thanks for reminding me of it.


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