Wednesday, November 30, 2016

That Kind Of Day

I think today is going to be a stay at home day. A move very slowly and get a few things done day. A take my pill and see what happens day.
A recovery from anxiety overload day.
I think my body is literally allergic to anxiety. I am breaking out and itching and this happens when things get to a certain point.

Okay. I've swallowed that pill. I had a little talk to myself and said, "So- what's the worst thing that can happen? What's the best?"

I need to take the trash. I need to take a walk. The air is so very heavy with rain perhaps coming.


The zebra-winged butterflies cannot leave the firespike alone. Every time I look, they are fluttering and feeding there. 

Today is a I will note the butterflies feeding all day long day. 

Today is an I will be quiet day. 

Today is the only day I have today sort of day. 
If that makes sense. 

Love...Ms. Moon


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  1. My friend's son breaks out in anxiety welts - turns out it's the cortisol. Yes, anxiety is physical.

    Have a good quiet day x

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    1. It's so true, Jo. And that's why I've said "fuck it" and taken an Ativan today. I need to give my poor body a break.

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  2. quiet days are good. I'd take one myself except I still have much to do before tomorrow.

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    1. I do intend to get things done but very slowly and very quietly.
      We shall see how that works out...

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  3. And sleep when it feels like you must.

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  4. My anxiety manifests often with hives. It sucks. Glad you have ativan when you need it.

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    1. Yes. I am sure it is not uncommon. I have been coming down with hives since I was a child. No doubt I had anxiety then. I certainly had reason for it.

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  5. This will be a stay at home day for me too. It is raining outside for the second day running, and the last of my houseguests left this morning. I have work to do, and I will do it, but that is all. I hope you get rain soon. It feels cozy and cleansing.

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    1. Still hoping for rain here. Any little bit would be a relief. I am glad you finally have a day to do what you need to do and nothing else.

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  6. It does make sense, Mary. Perfect sense.

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  7. And was it a calming day? I hope so.

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    1. It was, in its way, calming enough. Thank you, Jill.

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  8. I'm way behind here. And everywhere. I'm so sorry to hear about the anxiety. I had a bout too. Driving through mountains and family/Thanksgiving set mine off. Ugh. I'm better. Hope you will be soon too. xo

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    1. Well, all of that would probably have killed me. I'm glad you're better and I hope to be better soon myself. We shall see.

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  9. Today is a nap day for me. I only got dressed because I have thought someone was coming by. They didn't. I slept.

    That is a gorgeous butterfly!
    Here are some chickens for you. 🐓🐔

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    1. Thank you for the chickens!
      And oh- don't we love our naps? It's like a shrugging off of the cares of the world for at least a little while.

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  10. Those zebra butterflies are really gorgeous. I hope that the pill helps to relax you a bit. Sometimes, I think that I might need a relaxing pill too. But I guess my pill is the boat and the horse.

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