The news today only becomes more and more terrifying as Trump picks his cabinet.
The right-leaning people I know caution jumping to conclusions, even suggesting that we need to really try and work together to become a stronger nation.
And I want to weep and I want to tear my hair out and I want to run away and I want to scream and I want to...
Well. You know.
So anyway, I finally got out of the bed today after Mr. Moon got home and I did work in the garden some and so did he and right now it needs mulching so badly. My winter greens are growing beautifully and I think that the mushroom compost was a much needed addition. I've picked us a beautiful salad for tonight and have washed the leaves tenderly and wrapped them up in a clean dishcloth to dry and set them in the refrigerator.
See? Life goes on.
Because what else are you going to do? Wash the clothes and tend the garden and the chickens (I mixed the worm medication in with their feed today) and make the supper and then clean up the kitchen and finally, and at last, fall into unconsciousness because that seems to be what I crave the most.
Lily brought the kids over briefly. She needed flour to make bread and did not want to go to the store.
Maggie has learned to kiss in a sweet baby sort of way. She leans forward and offers her open mouth and lets us kiss her. She looks quite pleased when she does this, not so much by the kiss I suspect, but by her successful mastering of the skill, by our praise when she does it.
I gave Lily some rosemary from the garden, some for her bread, some to root.
I gave Gibson a pickled okra because as he said after he asked for it, "Pickled okra is delicious and healthy!" I gave Owen some kale from the garden to munch because he loves it, straight from the dirt. I gave Maggie some kisses. Because she let me.
Oh, how I hope that tomorrow seems better. For me, for you, for every damn one of us on this planet.
I have no idea what that would take but I'm going to hope for it anyway. With the small, minuscule amount of hope left in this shattered dark heart.
Love...Ms. Moon
You've described my emotions so well. I just want to stay in my bedroom with the blinds closed and grieve. When JFK was assinated I could not believe one deranged person could inflict such trauma on our nation. Now it has happened again. We are a nation in crisis.
ReplyDeleteIt HAS happened again. And this time, with our full attention.
DeleteWhich may be the most unbelievable part of it all.
at least you have family love to enjoy today, amidst the teeth gnashing and hair pulling events politically. And on top of all that insanity.....Leon Russell, who has been moving me to tears with his gift for 40 years. Really? Enough already
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Yes. I have my family. I don't know what the hell I'd do without them.
DeleteI see people like Leon Russell and Leonard Cohen taking a look at what's going on and thinking, "Well, that's enough of this," and going on to whatever happens or does not happen next. I could be projecting. I could be wrong.
I finally cried today. It wasn't the big ones but it was a start. As always your words are like hugs to me.
ReplyDeleteI haven't had the big one either. I think I'm afraid. Which is fucking stupid. We all need to get it out of our systems and move on to whatever comes next. Which may be another huge weep-fest. Who knows?
DeleteBannon, alt-right BANNON will be sitting in the White House. I can't stand it.
ReplyDeleteIs DT stupid or evil? Or both?
DeleteOh Mary, this is a nightmarish roller coaster. I thought I was finding my feet earlier but the fact that Trump made Bannon, the white supremacist, his chief strategy advisor is making me crazy. I'm so upset. How do we combat this? I'm not sure how we move on from here. The hatefulness is spiraling out of control all across the country. The stories are horrifying.
ReplyDeleteJust when you can't imagine things getting worse...
DeleteWhat's next? Is he going to appoint David Duke to a position? At this point, I would not be surprised.
I'm stuck on Owen eating kale right out of the dirt. He is an amazing kid.
ReplyDeleteGibson wants the carrots to be ready, right now! They are about the size of hat pins.
DeleteIt is so universal I think, that babies always learn to kiss with their mouths wide open. And the funny little noise it makes when you send a kiss right into it.
ReplyDeleteExactly.
DeleteI am trying to be open-minded about this, to take it day by day. Maybe we will be surprised. Maybe this won't be a disaster. I literally have no idea what to expect.
ReplyDeleteI am terrified of the surprises I'm afraid we may be confronted with. I mean, I know that DT is a huge liar but if he comes through with one tenth of what he promised, it's going to be bad.
DeleteIt won't be over. it won't be over for two years if we're lucky. I can't think of any way any of this gets better in the meantime but plenty of ways it can get so much worse. Obama was struggling so hard to be diplomatic and not speak ill of Trump but OMG, those people just don't have a clue about what they are supposed to be doing, didn't even realize that the all the staff goes with the outgoing president.
ReplyDeleteThey are completely clueless and absolutely unqualified.
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