And I feel like that I've done pretty well at that overall but this evening I've just hit a wall.
I'm pissed. And not just about that.
I mean, I'm sure that that is what I am really and actually pissed about but it's been the little things that have finally lit the fuse. Such as:
We aren't getting the rain that we were promised. By the weather widget. Is this a sane thing to think or say? No. No it is not. Too bad. But this does not stop me from being extremely disappointed and, yes, angry that all of the rain has passed south of here and with all of the computers and models and predictors with scientific degrees THEY'VE STILL GOTTEN IT WRONG!
Every time Netflix makes a suggestion for me I can only realize that THEY HAVE NO IDEA WHO I AM OR WHAT I LIKE. Again with the science and algorithms.
People are being stupid and refuse to practice safe boundary-keeping and are doing things that threaten my loved ones who work at grocery stores. Also, churches are still meeting, threatening our entire communities. Also- and this sort of sums everything up for me- our governor, Ron DeSantis, has declared that the professional wrestling company WWE, is an essential business and shall continue production as long as the events are closed to the general public.
Oh wait. That's not as stupid as gun shops being declared essential business.
How could I forget?
Another thing pissing me off is that we are being asked to make our own face masks and if that's not bad enough, we're being asked to make them for hospital and clinic workers as well.
How many nuclear bombs do we have?
Okay. This is ridiculous and personal BUT, my next door neighbor still has a Trump sign in the front yard. It's faded all to hell but you can still read, "Make America Great Again."
It's just another day in the alternate universe of Corona Virus lockdown. I honestly don't have a thing to complain about and yet, here we are and I have complained a lot.
All I did today was take a walk and trim a few things in the little garden bed by the kitchen.
Here's what the sago palm looks like now.
If you click on it you'll be able to see the incredible way the seeds are nested in that twisting and curling soft material. It's pretty awesome.
I also took a nap.
Meanwhile, my husband has accomplished this:
By involving things like this:
And writing this post isn't helping.
I guess I can make myself feel better by saying that if you get angry and pissed and momentarily let go of your peace and sanity and gratefulness for a moment, you're not alone.
We are human. We're yin, we're yang. We're god, we're devil. We're good and evil, enlightened and ignorant. We are dancers and fighters and lovers and creators and destroyers and right now I need to go create some pizza.
Exhale. Let it go.