Thursday, May 13, 2021

Soul Rest


So, that's a little better, right? It's still got too much beige in it but at least it also has blues and reds and the fact is, I was not going to come home yesterday without a new rug so there you go and there you have it and it's nice and thick and feels good on the feet. Supposedly it's handwoven although I can't imagine that what I paid for it would even cover the cost of shipping it from India which is also supposedly its country of origin, much less the wages of some poor six-year old child who theoretically wove it. 
I am not making light of child labor, I promise. Just add this to the long list of things I feel guilty about. A long, long time ago I realized that guilt and shame are my default emotions and this little verse came to me which sort of sums it all up:

Guilt and shame,
Guilt and shame.
These two words are my middle name. 
Come on, come on and dance with me.
I'll share my guilt and shame for free.

I know I often sound like someone who doesn't give a damn what anyone thinks of me but I'm not in the least. Now I will admit that I'm not as bad about it as I used to be but there's always a strong streak of what may be imposter's syndrome in me- if you really knew me, you wouldn't like me. 
I guess that's why I adore my closest people so much. They DO know me and they still seem to like me okay. I don't take that sort of thing for granted. EVER.

It's been a strange day, weather-wise here in Lloyd. I woke up this morning and got dressed in my summer outfit which is the ever-charming short-alls combined with a ten-year old tank top. 
Don't hate me because I'm beautiful, okay?
Anyway, I realized I felt chilly and went to turn down (up?) the AC which had been set in the low seventies to see that it was 69 degrees in the house. What?!
I went outside and it was so cool that I went back and changed into my winter outfit which is a pair of long overalls and a long-sleeved shirt. And that's what I'm still wearing. Hell! I even put socks on! 
It's been gray all day and damp as SpongeBob SquarePants' underwear. Not a day conducive to great activity. I finished the mask I was working on and I did a little more sewing on my dress. I also finally cleaned the hen house. I went through Miss Darla's nest and took four more eggs out of it that were unmarked. I hope I'm not messing up her process. I know the eggs cool every time I take her off the nest and she has them arranged exactly as she wants them and I do disturb that. 
Another thing to feel guilty about. But not very. 
Do any of y'all remember when I found tiny Miss Violet sitting in a hidden nest on a veritable mountain of eggs? She could barely balance on top of it. I remember showing her to Owen who was a little guy then and he said, "She's having birth!"

In random news (as if any of this wasn't), Mr. Moon and I rewatched "Frida" over the last few nights. If any of y'all haven't seen that, I do recommend it. It's a fine movie in my opinion. In a related note, if any of you haven't read Barbara Kingsolver's The Lacuna, please do. It's related because Frida Kahlo is a main character in the novel although the book is not about her primarily. 
I guess those are my hot tips for the day. Recommending an old movie and an old book.
We just can't seem to find anything we want to watch together. We tried some other movie a few nights ago that we hadn't seen. Crazy, Stupid Love. 
Well, it was crazy and it was stupid and we didn't love it and we didn't finish it. 
And why do people think that Ryan Gosling is cute? 
I do not get that. At all. I don't even believe I'd think he was cute if I was forty years younger. Definitely not MY type. 

As you have probably gathered by now, I don't really have anything of importance to say today. It wasn't a bad day at all but I've had no adventures or epiphanies. I've just dawdled around and stayed cozy, being sweet to my husband who has been sweet to me. I've watched the birds at the feeder and observed a male cardinal taking a little splash bath in a tiny puddle. I've been thinking about Gibson spending the night tomorrow and hoping that he has a really good time with me and his Boppy. 
And there is absolutely nothing at all wrong with any of that. In fact, it's been rather delightful. 
Perhaps the best part of it is that I do not feel a bit guilty for having such a slow, sweet day. I just feel relaxed. 

Carry on. 

Love...Ms. Moon


 

 

32 comments:

  1. That sounds like a perfect day to me. And your rug is beautiful. The cost of living in India is lower than here and I hope that they felt the pay was okay.

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  2. Huge improvement on the rug- it's lovely! Child weavers......ugh. Had to laugh at your two changes of clothing......same drill here. I think *the lacuna* was one of Barbara's best books....loved it. I've been trying to find streaming for *over the hill*, one of my favorite Olympia Dukakis's films........ haven't found stream yet, but I persevere. I want to watch it again....nothing else is striking my fancy at the moment. Quiet day here, nursing dogs sore foot (he's 10 and overdid his activity).....and just not EVEN feeling guilty for having a quiet day. Have fun with Gibson tomorrow......much needed for all of you
    Susan M

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    1. I agree with you on Lacuna. In fact, I think it may well be her very best. I hope you find your movie! I've never seen that one.

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  3. Well, now I have to go look up Ryan Gosling.

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  4. Relaxed sounds important. So does a sweet husband. I got very excited over my new kitchen rugs last Friday. That's life...sounds like you're in a sweet spot. Enjoy it. Savor it.

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    1. Thank you, Debby. There is a whole lot of sweetness in my life these days.

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  5. That rug is worth the wait. It looks nice.

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    1. Thank you, Joanne. It feels really nice on the feet.

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  6. That new rug is beautiful. I would like that rug.

    As for Ryan Gosling, I would let him eat crackers in bed:)

    Sounds like it was a relaxing day. I have a problem with guilt as well, although I'm getting better.

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    1. Yup, I like him. And his understated thing he had going.

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    2. Maybe by the time you're my age, your guilt will be well under control! I hope so!
      And guys- I just don't get Ryan Gosling. This is not very polite but his eyes are too close together! Or something. Seriously not my type. Y'all can have him.

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  7. The new rug is lovely. Imposter syndrome. We are the same person.

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  8. That new rug is quite an improvement. I started out in sweatpants and long-sleeved shirt, ended in shorts and T-shirt; it was warmer in Boise than Lloyd today!

    Imposter syndrome - I know it well. Why do we do this to ourselves?

    Borrowed a copy of Pixar's "Soul" from the library (only 36 holds before our turn, but our turn finally came). Loved it.

    Chris from Boise

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    1. There are many days I change outfits at least once. Sometimes more. But I must be comfortable!
      I don't know why we suffer from imposter syndrome but a lot of people do.
      I haven't seen "Soul" but I hear it's good.

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  9. I'm in FL right now you know, on an extended stay at my "FL house" in Daytona. I was cold as hell yesterday too. Had to put on long pants and a long sleeved shirt. I'm from MN but when I come down here my body adapts and suddenly feels cold when it's 70 and overcast and damp.

    Can't wait for Gibson's sleepover!

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    1. And the cold here is so much wetter. I really think it gets into our bones more.

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  10. I like the rug! You are a wonderful, beautiful person, really!!
    Have fun with Gibson!

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    1. But see- if you really KNEW me...
      Haha!
      Thank you, Ellen.

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  11. as usual, I'm playing catch up on reading blogs. just been busy and especially no time on Thursdays. I love the new rug! it's been cool in the mornings here too for the last couple of days. and I'm so glad as I still have much to do before the end of the month.

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    1. Glad you approve of the rug, Ellen. You have an artist's eye and besides, you and I share a lot of the same sensibilities when it comes to our things.
      I'm going to hate it when this cooler weather leaves us.

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  12. '... damp as SpongeBob SquarePants' underwear.' That made me properly laugh - would be so appropriate for wales - I always say the main season here is grey - oh for some sun.

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    1. Me too, was just going to say that 😅

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    2. I'm sure that someone else has used poor SpongeBob's underwear as a comparison to something damp. I mean- they have to be damp, right?

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  13. I have what I think is the soundtrack to Frida and I just love it. I'll have to watch the movie too though. As for Ryan Gosling, while I don't usually go for blonds I think he's cute - he's got that "twinkle" in his eyes that I just love!

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    1. Beautiful music in the movie. And beautiful art. And beautiful people, too.

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  14. I love the new rug! I think it looks great. And hey -- you are not responsible for whatever's going on in its place of manufacture. This is why Capitalist countries need regulations, to curb the worst excesses of the market.

    "Frida" is a great movie. Did you know Salma Hayek's daughter goes to our school? I've probably never mentioned it on my blog but it's true. I've never met Salma but I've seen her. She's a tiny thing and always wearing sunglasses.

    "The Lacuna" is my FAVORITE Kingsolver book. People often opt for "Poisonwood," and I liked that one too, but I think "The Lacuna" went to the next level.

    Ryan Gosling IS pretty cute, at least to me.

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    1. You are so right about the capitalist system. I have vast doubts about our government's dedication to regulations dealing with worker conditions though.
      Okay. Glen's (not so) secret crush is Salma. When I told him that her child goes to your school, he asked if he could come to teacher/parent conference night. To be truthful, I have a crush on her too.
      I SO agree with you on Lacuna. So many different threads that she weaves all together to make a gorgeous masterpiece. If you ever get the chance, listen to the audio version. She reads it herself.
      EVERYONE here thinks that Ryan Gosling is cute. What's wrong with me?

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