Monday, June 21, 2010

No Picture

I can't even believe it. When I went to put my pictures on my iPhotos last night I got a message that my start-up disk was full and I thought, "Whatever," and downloaded my pictures, deleting them from the camera and guess what? They weren't kidding and those pictures are GONE, even though they were there last night.
Shitfire.
Well.
I guess I know what I'm doing today. Going through iPhotos and deleting millions of pictures.
So you'll just have to take my word for the fact that Mr. Moon and Jason caught some beautiful fish, snappers and grouper and Key West Grunts and a King Mackerel and that Jessie helped clean the boat even though she was so tired. And that Owen was wearing a romper that his daddy used to wear when he was a baby boy and that he climbed the stairs with three women hovering over him and that he was so proud. And that he can imitate Elvis the rooster and that he does.
And that we ate a delicious dinner and Melissa was here and we watched Crazy Heart and Jessie cleaned up everything even though she was SO TIRED and the card she gave her daddy made him cry.

You'll just have to take my word for this.

It was a beautiful Father's Day.

And today I'm thinking about Michelle and Adrienne.
Their mama just died and Michelle wrote about that beautifully and I am holding them in my heart, those beautiful women who found me by some mysterious process involving chickens and whom I have come to love in some strange and passionate way.
Things with their mother were complicated, as things with our mothers can be, but at the end, they knew her true heart and it was beautiful.

I don't need a picture to know that.

14 comments:

  1. Ah, lord. Not gnna read about that today, but I'm sorry, Michelle and Adrienne.

    The pictures - agh! Technology. We're all dependent, and I firmly believe, screwed, sooner or later.

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  2. It sounds like a nice evening. Sorry about the pictures. Best to back them up on CD.

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  3. ms mary moon,

    families are complicated, yes. the expectations we have for our mothers, the powerful beings who usher us into this life, are, well, Expectations.

    sometimes we shake our fists at our mothers the way we shake our fists at the heavens.

    in the end all i can say is that she was indeed powerful. magnificent, strong, courageous.

    as michelle said in her post, that heart weren't no tin can.

    she had the heart of an indian. all the love was there, but it wasn't leaky or emotive like a gringo heart. like MY gringo heart.

    she held her head high everyday of my life, and it was HIGH until the last breath. she passed looking straight up to heaven. she did ms moon.

    thank you for the candle, and have a blessed first day of summer.

    xo

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  4. Oh, that sucks! I did that once, and I still cannot believe how it could have happened to me, of all people. Haha.

    I am so sorry about Michelle and Adrienne losing their mom. I cannot imagine the pain they are going through, regardless of how she was at times.

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  5. Thank you Ms. Moon.

    And Adrienne's words are absolutely true

    xoxoxo

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  6. Sounds like you had a good day yesterday! We took my wonderful son-in-law out to dinner last night to celebrate him being such a good Daddy to my grandchildren. I'm busy getting ready to take my grandson on our first vacation together--just the 2 of us! I can't believe my daughter actually agreed to it, but we are getting the heck out of town before she changes her mind.

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  7. Sorry about your pictures. Technology glitches make me crazy.
    Sorry about Michelle and Adrienne's mom, but she sure did it with her whole heart. Very humbling.
    We had the best possible father's day here too, couldn't have asked for more from our little family. A perfect day, homemade icecream to watch the sunset.
    Thanks for the smile, imagining Owen master the stairs, crowing, wearing his daddy's romper. Didn't even need a picture to see that in my head.
    Have a great first day of summer.

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  8. I just bought an online backup system for my computer and it downloaded my entire hard drive last night. I always feel slightly panicked about all the photos on my computer but can't seem to muster the energy to do something about it.

    Thanks for letting us know about Michelle and Adrienne's mother. Those two are such wonderful mamas, themselves --

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  9. Ms. Moon,
    I’ve enjoyed catching up on your stories today (I was in Naples-on-the-Gulf that is how it was spelled 40 years ago). So, should someone pee on your toe?—no wait—that is for a sea urchin sting. Hope it is better! Loved hearing about your week and your family and friends and your fridge—love the photo booth photos of you and Mr. Moon from a few moons ago. And I say hell yeah to these words of yours:

    “I won't have to make any damn calls at all to wish any damn man happy Father's Day.

    I didn't have a daddy. But I've known a few good ones.

    And I am who I am with just the DNA that my father and grandfathers gave me and that's as much as any of us can ask for, even though we might have wished for more.”

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  10. Whether illustrated with photographs or not, the portraits you create every day of outer moments or inner landscapes always remind me to live with a more open heart. That said, do you actually have to delete pictures---can't they be put onto a disc? (I'm sure I'm the least tech-savvy of all your readers, but...) My condolences to Adrienne and Michelle.

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  11. oh how this day is marked,
    this longest day of the year,

    all these souls coming in, some going out.

    hold fast, courage
    opening
    each grateful heart.

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  12. Jo- A little too close to home.
    I'm sorry.

    Syd- I don't think CD's would hold all those pictures. I need an external HD.

    Adrienne- What a fine death she had! And I am so glad you were all with her. I love you, you precious woman.
    Thank-you for coming by and telling us this.

    Ms. Bastard-Beloved- And to you.

    Angie M- We will all know, those of who don't already.

    Michelle- I have been thinking about you and yours all day long. Light and love.

    Lois- AWESOME! Where are you going? What fun!

    Mel- Good words and thank-you. I keep forgetting it's the first day of summer. It's been so damn hot already. I'm glad your Father's Day was such a good one.

    Elizabeth- Yes, on Michelle and Adrienne. Yes.
    Was that online back-up expensive?

    Michele R- And I enjoyed reading about your beachy times. How lovely it all sounded!

    A- Most of the pictures I deleted were either duplicates or pictures I just don't need. I promise.
    Thank-you for what you said about my words.

    Rebecca- Your words. Oh, your words. Always perfect.

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  13. The online backup thing was called Mozy -- and it cost me just under $50 for the year.

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