Thursday, June 10, 2010
Hank's Birthday Day
I am the proud owner of three Ativan. Last night I was the proud owner of four but I took one and then two hours later I took an over-the-counter sleep aid.
This was because I have not been sleeping well and I was desperate.
Let me tell you something- that was a FINE combination. For the first night in about oh, a million years, I didn't wake up once. Well, I might have woken up with five or six hot flashes but I don't remember it if I did so IT DOESN'T COUNT!
My nurse practitioner is not a doler out of anti-anxiety medication. Oh, she'll prescribe an antidepressant but not those tiny pills that every one loves. When I was going through my worst, worst, WORST crippling anxiety she gave me a scrip for ten of them. Ten. That was two years ago.
I have to admit I have been a lawbreaker since then and traded various things like eggs for a few more. As in- I have probably taken Ativan on the average of one every three months for the past two years. I am not worried at this point about abusing that particular drug.
So it was wild and crazy of me to take an ENTIRE pill (I usually cut them in quarters) and squander it on sleep. But I did it. And it was awesome.
And today is a beautiful day and I am rested and I'm going to the grocery to get what we need for the island and then at one I take over care of Owen and then tonight we're all going to town to have grouper sandwiches to celebrate Hank's birthday. Thirty-four years ago RIGHT NOW I was probably on the floor of the hospital, squatting and pushing with the nurse laughing at me and saying, You better get up in this bed or you're going to have that baby on the floor," and me thinking, "So?" and I feel joyful that I was such an amazingly strong, fierce mama at the age of twenty-one, even though I did not know it then and suffered huge guilt for caving in and going to the hospital at all after twenty-eight hours of labor. Ha!
Happy Birthday, Hank My Boy. I hope you slept well. Your mother sure did.
I'll see you tonight and we will make merry and we will celebrate and your father and I will give each other a hug and look at you fondly and remember the two hippies we were, clueless but trying so hard, and here we all are! And isn't it grand?
Oh yes it is.
I am rested today and can let my heart be open to it all and here we go- one adventure after another, thirty-four years later and my son still blows me away and is completely and utterly his own self, no one else and I can appreciate that fact and the fact of who I was and what I did to get him here and well, I'm glad I got good sleep because it's going to be a long, beautiful day with the grandson and then the rest of the family, both sides, all sides, and we have a lot to celebrate because it is Hank's birthday. Hank- the wise and wonderful.
That's all.
Love...Ms. Moon
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Happy birthday to Hank! Lots of birthdays this week--yesterday was my grandson's birthday and he turned 6 and the day before that would have been my mother's 80th birthday.
ReplyDeleteHappy Giving Birthday, Ms. Moon!
ReplyDeleteI love Hank and wish him ever so many more!!! He is irreplaceable.
Much love,
SB
Whooo hooooooo! Happy birthday Hanky Panky!
ReplyDeleteMama, you did a great job raising that man, and I'm so glad you had him.
Happy day to Hank, and of course to you as well. NEVER underestimate the power of good sleep-which I know you don't.
ReplyDeleteI SO know what you mean by rested with a good night sleep... Only ONE night is so fab...
ReplyDeleteCongratulations for the birthday boy. And congrats to you for getting him grown up. He is the same age as my son. I remember thinking in the hospital "how am I going to do this? How will I get it to grow?" I wanted to trade him in there and then, out of pure anxiety...
We did well... and you did even better!
Happy birthday to Hank. Glad that you slept well. I did too and am enjoying the day.
ReplyDeleteWell, the birthdays just never stop around there! Happy Birthday to all of you!
ReplyDelete1. Reality is a crutch for those who can't handle drugs. - Lily Tomlin/Jane Wagner
ReplyDelete2. Happy Birthday, Hank!
love lily tomlin :) and love a good night's sleep for a wonderful girl xo
ReplyDeleteLois- Yep. It is our birthday season, for sure. I can't keep track.
ReplyDeleteMs. Bastard- Beloved- He is irreplaceable.
HoneyLuna- I'm glad too.
Kori- I do not underestimate sleep ever, ever, EVER!
Photocat- I knew from the first second that raising that baby was what I wanted to do more than anything. I was just lucky that way.
Syd- I'm having a great day, too!
Elizabeth- Seems that way.
Ms. Trouble- Or- better living through chemicals!
Maggie May- How is your tooth now and can YOU sleep?
A girl needs her beauty rest. Seriously
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to Hank! Happy birth day to Mama Moon!
Happy Birthday Hank!
ReplyDeleteThank you, mama! I could never have asked for a better family, and you are the bright, shining heart of ours. See you in just a bit!
ReplyDeleteMichelle- Once in a while you just have to take matters into your own hands.
ReplyDeleteDTG- Stop it. You're making me cry. See you in a few...
Happy Birthday, Hank!
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you got a good night's sleep, Ms. Moon. I've been at the hospice for the last 72 hours and haven't slept for more than 4 hours per night. But I'm heading home now, and it will be wonderful sleep indeed.
i hope the birthday day was amazing!
ReplyDeletesweet dreams tonight :)
Bird's was definitely a good time.
ReplyDeleteHere is a link I thought you might enjoy:
http://i.imgur.com/rSDvq.jpg
I remember getting a Temesta in hospital after getting surgery for my ectopic pregnancy and it was the most glorious experience. I think that's a similar pill.
ReplyDeleteI hope you had a good celebration and that you got yourself a present, other than the pill.
happy b day hank:-)
ReplyDeletelove your birthday memories and tributes to your beloved children.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday handsome Hank with the twinkle in his eye.
Happy Belated Birthday, Hank!
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm telling you, NOTHING is better than a good nights sleep when you haven't been getting any. Last night was my first in...weeks? And I FEEL AMAZING TODAY. This is what the rest of the world feels like? WOW.