The Time Of Year When Winter And Spring Come Together In Lloyd

The Time Of Year When Winter And Spring Come Together In Lloyd

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Cellulitis. They said Mother has cellulitis. I guess that is true. It doesn't entirely explain all the rash but maybe it does. I don't know. Anyway, May is going to take her to the dermatologist tomorrow because even if I felt like it, there is no way I should expose Mother and all those people-at-risk in the assisted living to this cold and that's all it is. Just a cold.

But I'm miserable.

The weather has been a perfect metaphor for what I have. Not really raining, not really freezing. Just drizzling and chilly. I've watched so much crap TV today and when Mr. Moon got home I suddenly felt weepy and bitchy and wanted to fuss like a little child and I did a little bit and he doesn't deserve that. Not one bit. He is such a good man. He took Mother to the ER and then my brother Chuck came and took over so he good go back to work but he did it. He took her.

So anyway, I'm making one of his favorite suppers which is eggrolls and hot and sour soup with an egg in it, stirred in just right and I'm not sure why he loves this meal but he does. It's all vegetables and tofu and tofu is not his favorite thing by a very long shot but he likes it fine when it's wrapped up in an eggroll wrapper  with cabbage and green onions and bean sprouts and baked in the oven.

I guess I don't like feeling weak and sick. It makes me feel like a child and I don't want to feel like a child because a child can be helpless and that's the last thing I want to be. But. Sometimes we feel that way and really, it is okay. Especially if we have a family to step in and help. Not only us but to do the things that normally we would do. To say, "It's okay. Here. Let me take this weight off you. Now you go rest."

He bought me some NyQuil, Mr. Moon did. I'm going to take some later on. Why not? And then I'll sleep and it'll be good and I'll rest some more and soon enough I'll feel better. The sky will clear and the rain will stop and before I know it, the redbud will come out.
That is the way of it.

Winter is okay. Being sick is okay. Both are just part of life. Part of the bargain we make when we're born. Or something. I don't really know.
I just know that there are resting times and that for me, this has to be one of them.


15 comments:

Maggie May said...

i am seriously contemplating getting 'be here now' tattooed on me. it's really all we can do, and all attempts to do otherwise just lead us closer to despair. xo

Maggie May said...

i am seriously contemplating getting 'be here now' tattooed on me. it's really all we can do, and all attempts to do otherwise just lead us closer to despair. xo

Angie Muresan said...

Well, I'm in the same situation regarding the cold. I've been in bed all day yesterday. My husband said I was awake only two hours out of 24. I hope the Nyquil works for you. It always does for me.

ellen abbott said...

These bodies are biologically based and it's an integrated system that makes you vulnerable to big and little beasties. They are here same as you and me and they need to eat just like you and me. Everybody has to eat and every bodies just trying to stay alive. Kind of really interesting when you think about it, these living bodies that die and rot when they get broken or worn out.

Mr. Shife said...

Get your rest and hope you feel better soon. Saw the title of your earlier post about 2013 not being the best and I have to agree. Only 3 days in and I am wanting a mulligan. Dealing with a part of life that I wish I did not have to. Take care Ms. Moon.

gradydoctor said...

Your writing is like music. I swear it is to me. Sometimes it is hard core rock and roll and other times it is easy listening. I love all of it. Every genre, every track.

Feel better. And thank Mr. Moon and May for stepping in.

nicol said...

I hope you get rest. That meal sounded delicious. You take care of him and he takes care of you - it's the way it should be.

Sleep well, Ms. Moon.

A said...

Oh that dinner sounds good. Maybe make yourself some garlic soup tomorrow. Feel better!

Elizabeth said...

I feel like I've been sick for weeks, mildly sick, to be sure, but just down and out. I love that you still make your man his eggrolls and soup, though -- and I'm glad that you're going easy on yourself. Take care, feel better --

Denise Emanuel Clemen said...

Oooh, feel better soon. And good luck with your mother.

Young at Heart said...

I feel leaden and lumpen and like I just want to take to my bed through January.....and February......feel better!!x

bugerlugs63 said...

Get some good rest Ms Moon. I hope you slept well.
I get wanting to play up and make a fuss like a child when I'm unwell, the kids laugh at me! I laugh at me secretly and then I cry again.
Feel better soon x

L and L said...

Hello my dear. I am still sick as well. Thinking of you and wishing I could bring you some hot rum toddy or other by a crackling fire. Sending love and hugs and wishes of wellness. Lizzie xo xo

Syd said...

Ugh--cellulitis can be nasty. My father had that and nearly lost his arm because he was too stubborn to see a doctor.
My wife is coughing up a storm here. Hope that you feel better.

heartinhand said...

I'm not going to google cellulitis because the next thing you know, I'll be looking for it and I'm already busy looking for signs and symptoms of about 20 other things...

Feel better. Rest. Sleep. Soak.