Friday, April 21, 2023

What A Long, Strange Trip

Another strange, rocky day. 
No pun intended.

I slept very well but as soon as I got up, the same pain came around again to remind me that I'm not done with this yet. It's just so weird how it builds and builds and then suddenly, you realize it's VERY bad again and you're doing labor breathing. My mouth gets so dry and I don't know if that's a fear reaction or what but at least it does remind me to drink water. I cannot even imagine how much water I've drunk in the last few days. Gallons and gallons. At this point I should be aquatic. 

So. Yeah. It got bad again. To the point where I told Glen to go ahead and eat his breakfast because he might have to take me back to the ER for IV drugs. I took one of the pain pills I was given there last Monday (was it Monday? I am so confused) and although I'm not sure that helped, eventually, the pain ceased and when I peed, I found a tiny piece of grit in the screening, and I am assuming that was the cause of the pain. How long can this go on? According to what I've read, for months. But surely not with all of the water I'm drinking. 

And the rest of the day was spent doing what I do now with my days which is crossword puzzles, the jigsaw puzzle (still working on those forest gnomes) and "Parenthood." I knit a little while I watch that. 
And then I napped. 

I will be so glad to feel like myself again. I have so little desire to eat and even less to cook. I did enjoy making that little soup the other day but since then- ugh. My sourdough starter is looking so sad in its glass jar in the refrigerator and I haven't even had the will to feed it. And when Ms. Moon doesn't even have the will to feed her sourdough, she is definitely not right. 
I have been feeding Black Kitty, aka Sheba. She is still terribly skittish and may always be. 

Here's the other cat that hangs about. 


If I were to name him, I think I would call him B&B for Bold and Ballsy. He is both. He is such an odd-looking cat, far more so than the picture shows. He is one of those cats who looks as if they were made of the left-over spare parts at the end of a long week and some of them had been left out in the sun too long. He walks right up the steps and whines and cries. He is eating out of the food dish too. 

And so this is how today has gone. I am so glad that my husband is back. I don't know how I could have stood it if he had not. All I had to do was ask. 
Which of course sometimes, is the hardest thing of all to do. 

I would say "Happy Friday" but I'm just not feeling it today. 
Maybe next week. 

Love...Ms. Moon



21 comments:

  1. So sorry you're still dealing with this damn situation. Let's hope the weekend sees you doing better.

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  2. Thanks for updating all of us interested parties. Damn if this goes on and on that'd be terrible. I'd think there is something modern medicine has created to just ingest and dissolve all of that grit! I guess they can't do everything!

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  3. Good heavens. I have also read that once *blasted*......grit can pass for up to 8 weeks. Lord have mercy (for lack of a better expressive). I can only hope your new semi-aquatic urinary system flushes them quickly......I feel for you! To deal with not only the pain, but the anxiety that comes with anticipation of said pain.......is so very debilitating. I lift up my wine glass to you tonight in lieu of your Friday Martini, and send my own little version of a prayer for your wellbeing and recovery.
    Susan M

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    1. It's Saturday now and tho you may not feel up to answering comments....know you are in my thoughts and I SO hope you are feeling better today.....at least...better enough to feed your sourdough....LOL and free of pain.
      Susan M

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  4. Sending healing hugs, Mary. May the urinary gods smile upon you and relieve you of this nuisance.
    I am glad you are still able to feed the felines. Can the sourdough be resurrected with a good feed when you're better or will you have to start again?

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  5. 37paddington: Mary, months??? Let’s hope and pray not!

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  6. I seldom comment, but read daily. All i have to offer is a hug. Here's to speedy shedding of gritty bits.

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  7. I hope this is all over soon. Hugs!

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  8. Wow. You have been having an awful time and I am sorry to read this.

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  9. Wow, how wrong I was. I thought they blasted it to smithereens, The End. But No, there is a lot of Pain and then the end. I know the will not to carry on, feed the sourdough! But you are feeding the cats, so that is good, and All Will Be Well in the end. You will not float away.

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  10. I am so sorry for the suffering you have been through but so glad you didn’t have to do it alone. Cat therapy may help a bit! - Jenn

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  11. On the bright side, the bits of grit are on the move and leaving your body. The downside is it takes so long. I saw a movie once where the doctor operated and later showed the patient the vial of grit he'd removed from the kidney, and to be truthful, that's what I thought would happen for you. I'm sorry it didn't. I hope you feel much better sooner rather than later.

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  12. Sorry that you are still having awful pain! Did you know that you can drink too much water? Apparently it dilutes the sodium in your blood. ( I just looked it up!). I remember years ago reading that someone had died from a surfeit of water. Please be careful.

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  13. Oh I'm so sorry that you're still going through this. I don't really know what to say, except I hope you feel better soon!

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  14. Have you seen videos where they wire men up and give them them muscle cramps that are the equivalent strength of menstrual cramps?
    The men are astonished at how bad the pain is.
    It's like kidney stones are a way of saying, Now . . .
    Try labor pains!
    Except, of course, all bodies can get kidney stones (though I looked it up, and they are more common in men).

    Anyway--I see William Shatner auctioned off his kidney stone for charity--maybe you could save your shards and make a little art piece... a kidney shrine or something... :)


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  15. Rest for as long as you need to rest and feel better soon.

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  16. no more chickens so maybe now you're becoming a crazy cat lady instead of a crazy chicken lady. screening? (I've missed a few I think so I'm going backwards.) unbelievable that a tiny piece of grit can cause that much pain.

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  17. Please keep the grit so they can analyze it, then change your diet accordingly, depending on if it’s oxalate or calcium. Hope this ends soon.

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  18. It's hard to accept when our bodies do stuff we don't want to happen or cannot imagine. This will pass, literally, your body knows how and can get help without too much difficulty, trust yourself.

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  19. I imagine all of this will take time. Oh, if we could just snap our fingers and set ourselves right again! You'll get there, though. I'm sure of it.

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  20. Sorry to hear your saga- I hope it clears up quickly and you can get back to the sourdough!

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