Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Because We Are Human

A morning in which tears flow and that's okay.

Scott just left to collect Yolie and Kaleb and the Airstream and head west. He and Mr. Moon had one more transaction to complete and look what's in my yard now.

Good thing we have a big yard. 

I wrote Yolie this morning that my heart was sort of breaking. And also that sometimes when we meet someone, we realize that there had been spaces empty and waiting, shaped just for them in our hearts. 

"Oh hello. There you are."

Like that.

I had Yolie and Scott and Kaleb-shaped places in my heart and they are no longer empty and today, on this beautiful windy day in March, the people whose shapes fit those places are leaving but somehow, they leave without taking themselves from my heart. 

They are going to stop in Apalachicola and that makes me so happy. They will get to see some more of the Florida I love.

So yes. I hate to see them go but they say they will come back and I just feel very lucky that we got to spend this time together now. And I know that they are on a journey and there is such a big wide world for them to discover. Some people journey in big ways and some in small. I am one of those. But that, too, is okay. 

And May is about to journey into her new life, married to her Michael and she's been searching for the right song to walk down the aisle to. I shot her a text this morning with a suggestion and she already had that exact same song in her head and I think it will be the one. 
I won't tell you the name of the song although I am sure you know it. It is one of the most beautiful songs ever written and it is perfect for coming togethers and for taking-leaves. Both.

Well. I have much to do and better get off my ass and get on with it, my heart swollen to three times its size, thus overspilling through my eyes. 

It is a day to be humbled by love. 


  1. I was fooled by one of those...I know yous. I totally interpreted it wrong, thinking he and I should be together when it was a warning that you know this guy, stay away.

  2. My heart breaks a little bit too to hear they're moving on. You all have been so perfect together, souls of the same flame, reunited. But now, no matter the distance, you will never again be apart. Actually, you never were apart, given how naturally you all fell into knowing one another again. It's a marvel really. Your heart has been dealing with one complicated joy after another this past year. Life really demands we show up doesn't it. I'm happy for you, through tears. Love.

  3. Ellen...LOL.

    It's been a long, long time since my heart has felt swollen to three times its size. I'm not sure what that says about me, but this entry makes me miss that feeling.

  4. Ellen Abbott- Oh my Lord! Me too! I know exactly what you're talking about. #luckytobealive

    John Gray- "Emotionally" being the key word?

    Angella- And every day that we get up and put on our clothes we are indeed showing up. I find that after I do that, it's never as bad as I think it will be.
    And sometimes, it is grand.

    Steve Reed- Oh sweetie! Maybe you don't have the need to live in such extremes and that is perfectly and wonderfully okay.

  5. So much love in this post. And May getting married--that is really fine.


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