Sunday, October 31, 2010

The Church Of The Batshit Crazy Is Back In Session


Happy Halloween for all of you who do that sort of thing. I did not even get a pumpkin yet. I guess it's getting a little late. Maybe they're really cheap today. I could check when we go in to get Owen.

So I did a quick walk around this morning, feeling crazy here and trying to bring myself back to some sort of sanity but it didn't really work.
I mean look- eggplants on October 31? And there are more on the bushes.

(Pack of cards to indicate size. Of course.)
And cucumbers are blooming?


And beans are making?


And tomatoes? Yes. Tomatoes.


I'm not complaining. It's all good. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with four eggplant. Mr. Moon doesn't even really like eggplant although he will eat it. Especially if there's cheese involved.

Something crazy happened in the hen house last night. I don't know what. But the garbage can where we keep the chicken scratch had its lid taken off and there were feathers everywhere. The chickens seemed fine. Here are four hens.



Shalayla is off wherever it is that she stays during the day but I saw her this morning and she has feathers growing back and looks fine.
Elvis's tail feathers are growing back.
I wonder when the ladies will start laying more regularly again.

The greens look good. Here are some collards:

And one of my sasanqua bushes is starting to bloom:

So that's normal.

Normal. What the hell is normal?

I'm not even going to go into how completely insane I feel today. You've heard it before. It comes. It goes. I surely did enjoy sleeping in my own bed last night on my old, worn sheets. The air coming in through the window was nice and chilly and my pillows felt heavenly against me.

I'm thinking about how it's going to feel when Owen sees me and holds his arms out for me. I'm thinking about that. I'm thinking I need to put my shoes on and maybe go for a little walk. I'm trying real hard not to think about what that demon who lives in my heart keeps telling me- that I am a worthless human being who is destined to suffer.

I think that demon looks like a hickory horned devil caterpillar.


I wish I could crush him beneath my heel.
But then I remember that when it metamorphises, it looks like this:

So I suppose it's best to leave it be.

I wonder if Owen can say "Grandmother" yet. Probably not.

I wonder if he'll like the baby doll I bought him. I think he will.



And the chicken book. And the little blue thermal undershirt.
I'm thinking about how much I love my new linen napkins I bought. I washed them all last night and folded them up. A whole stack of white ones, some red, blue, and green ones.

I'm thinking about how everything is unpacked and almost back to normal.

Whatever normal is.

Happy Halloween from the Church of the Batshit Crazy. Our sermon has been canceled today due to a demon. If there HAD been a sermon, it probably would have been about the usual stuff. Light and love and water and dirt and chicken poop and the Holy Womb, the Holy Babies, the Miracle of Hands, etc.

You've heard it all before. The normal stuff.

No need to pat your pocket to see if you have money for the offering. We don't do that here.
But the pastor could use a hug if you see fit to give one on your way out.

Here I am. Arms open.
We're singing the Doxology now.

Praise Light from which all blessings flow. Praise Love all creatures here below. Praise Eggs above ye heavenly host. Praise Father Mother and buttered toast.

Ahhhmen.

21 comments:

  1. Ah, Mary. It's all ok. Have fun with your grandbaby. Laugh off your demon's whisperings til it runs away in shame. Make eggplant parmesan, it's delicious.

    wv: parbaked!

    Happy Halloween xx

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  2. (((Bear Hugs)))

    I like that song an awful lot. Have fun with your boy!

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  3. carve an eggplant and put a tealight in it!


    we dont do up the house or pass out anything here. i'm too cheap.

    xxalainaxx

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  4. YES! Carve them!!!

    You really made your point with the caterpillar/moth part. If we thought we were such hot shit every single day, we'd all be a bunch of pompous asses. Seriously. It just sucks that it sucks when it sucks.

    I really dig that song too.

    WV: ningers - Those guys in black who do the judy-choppin'

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  5. Welcome home, hope the crazy is already gone. I think Owen will cure most of what ails you.
    He's going to love that dolly. Thanks for not moth bits, that one is one of my favorites.
    Thanks for the sermon and the vacation you shared with us. It's always good to be home, mostly.
    I'm thinking you a giant hug - can you feel it? I just did. :)
    Word verification said ritio, so I guess that means yes!

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  6. Why indeed do some of us have to put up with unwelcome guests? I find that so many fail to understand those feelings of worthlessness - and so they kick you when you are down - and make you feel even more worthless.

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  7. I'm with Jo - eggplant parmesan with extra cheese, please.

    It looks like that baby doll is dressed up as Owen for Halloween.

    Happy Sunday - no tricks, all treats.

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  8. I need a hug too -maybe we should hug each other :)

    Will post rally pics today on the blog. They're already on Facebook if yiou want to see them.

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  9. Hugs and hugs. You deserve them.

    I loved your vacation. Hope you go back again.

    Bet Owen, Kathleen and the chickens are glad to have you back home and hope their love chases the demons.

    About last night and the chickens, could it be a raccoon?

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  10. I know that you would turn into a Cytharonia regalis moth if you could. You have that spirit or that of a luna. Take it easy and be gentle on yourself. I like the doxology. It is my kind of church stuff.

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  11. oh i love moths...

    oh and green stuff.at thsi time of the year..must.move.to..florida!

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  12. i'm a little scared of the doll too. but i don't think Owen will be. me and dtg or on the save wave length lately.

    Hugs from here Mary Moon.

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  13. Jo- Eggplant in the oven.

    Lora- Back at you.

    Dianne- Thanks. But maybe I just need a big old slap in the face.

    Stephanie- I had big fun with that boy.

    Mrs. A- I thought of that. Too lazy.

    Ms. Trouble- "If we thought we were such hot shit every single day, we'd all be a bunch of pompous asses." Thanks. I am going to remember this.

    Mel- I felt it. Thanks.

    Jeannie- Sigh. Yes.

    Lisa- The good news? I bought some Reese's pumpkin candy for Halloween and there have been NO trick-or-treaters. And the parmesan looks delicious.

    Elizabeth- Kiss!

    DTG- He is NOT!

    SJ- Hugging you hard. The pictures are excellent.

    Kathleen Scott- I am thinking it was a coon. Damn it.

    Syd- I just love you. Thanks.

    Danielle- You know. You could.

    Bethany- Nope. Owen loved it. And being on the same wavelength as DTG is not a bad thing.

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  14. The chickens look great, the garden looks great, and I feel great when I get to attend the church of the Batshit crazy this Sunday morning.

    Welcome home.

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  15. I know that demon. It visits me too. I can tell you you're not worthless and you're not destined to suffer, but the demon probably won't let you hear it if it's there, and if it's not you won't need to hear it. Big kiss and hug to you, Mary. I hope the demon's gone by now.

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  16. I'm trying real hard not to think about what that demon who lives in my heart keeps telling me- that I am a worthless human being who is destined to suffer.

    It's funny, but I'm reading Rick Springfield's autobiography, and he fought with terrible depression for years, and he describes it almost exactly like you did above.
    He's also very honest and sweet and funny, and it's a really good read.

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  17. Ms. Bastard-Beloved- It's a fucking crappy disease, this depression. And people who have it CAN be honest and sweet and funny. Thank god.

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