Looks what's back! The AOL is suddenly giving me the pictures I send it and I am so grateful! That is a redbud tree against the dark sky behind it. Last night we had the tail-end of that horrible storm that swept through the south yesterday and it's still blowy and the sky is ominous. A branch just fell from the pecan tree over the bird feeder and scattered my chickens who looked like this just five minutes ago.
This morning my heart is a great deal lighter, just a few tongues of dread licking me now and then, but my head still feels fuzzy and unfocused and my body feels as if it's been beat up. This is the way it happens- the periods of depression and anxiety affect my body so profoundly. My muscles try to hold it all in, I suppose, when it's happening, and when it relents a bit, they are as sore and stiff as if I'd worked in the yard all day long, especially in my back and shoulders. And the disassociation which occurs in my brain takes a while to dissipate, like pulling a ballon on a string back to where it belongs. There is no disease process whether of the mind or the body which does not affect the other.
But. I am so grateful for this lessening of fear and despair. They closed the schools in Leon County today so Owen is free as a little bird and we are going to take him to Japanica! We all miss it and yet, because that boy loves it so much, feel too guilty to go there without him.
Here is a picture that his mama sent me last night of our darling Magnolia.
All the pictures. I will be posting all of the pictures. Just for the joy of it. And in that vein...
The old man in concert down in South America.
What if all of us at the age of 72 could feel such joy in our purpose on earth?
Wouldn't it be a better place?
Good morning. Good morning. Good morning.