So cold today. So very, very cold.
And I am so very, very anxious.
I miss my husband being around to joke with, to hold on to when I feel as if I need holding on to but he has to be out in the world and that's all there is to it and I will be fine and I've taken my daily Ativan and that will help.
What a miracle to have that to fall back upon.
Here's another miracle- having made blog friends who can advise us on how to deal with what's going on with Owen. Elizabeth, of course, who has connected me with someone who is advising me as to neurological pediatric clinics in our area and also SJ, who works in insurance and has valuable information in that regard.
It helps so much to feel as if we have these lights in the darkness of our confusion.
We shall get help for our boy and that's all there is to it. Whatever it takes is what we will do.
Meanwhile, as I said, it is so cold. The heater in this old house just can't keep up with it and I have turned a space heater on in my bathroom and when it warms up in there some, I plan to take a hot bath to see if I can get warm. I have no place I have to be today except to take some laundry to Lily's that wasn't finished up here when they left last night.
AND...I have just gotten a call from Lily who has been able to make an appointment for Owen at Nemours pediatric neurology clinic in Jacksonville for THURSDAY! THIS Thursday! This clinic was recommended to us by the connection Elizabeth set me up with via Facebook. It's just for an EEG and although he has had several here, they like to do their own. And so- we shall begin and I am so vastly grateful and so incredibly relieved.
I will go with them for this visit. Owen has to be sleep-deprived so my job will be to keep him awake in the back seat on the way over.
I can do that.
I can do whatever it is I need to do.
Once again, I thank all of you who come here, who read here, who have offered your support in all of the ways that you have offered it. We feel blessed in your caring. We do not feel alone.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.