Wednesday, December 22, 2010
I am that tired. Falling asleep sitting up tired.
It was a long day.
This morning's filming was so much fun. I just slipped right into the character, whoever SHE was, and I danced with it. Not quite literally, but almost.
We were in a magical place to film and at one point, one of the caretakers there came out and said, "Would you cast us a good spell?"
Well. This is MUCH nicer than being kicked out off the property. I told her I would do my best.
I don't know why, but when I'm in the right mood, being in front of FC's camera does nothing to frighten me or make me anxious. Possibly because there is no real crew to speak of, just a few people and so I'm not wasting a bunch of people's time and I'm not having to prove anything. I am not a movie star nor even an actor-wanna be. I am just...whoever Freddy wants me to be.
It's a joy.
But really, it's been a very, very long day. From early this morning to just now I have run, run, run. I stayed with Owen for a few hours, I visited with Kathleen. Can I tell you how beautiful she is? Her hair is coming in, a smooth, lovely cap of gray which covers her head and makes her look like the goddess she is. She is driving down to Pine Island tomorrow to spend Christmas with her family and I am so glad she feels well enough to do it. She had offers of rides but has chosen to drive herself and I am sure she can do that.
I hope they have a wonderful Christmas.
And Mr. Moon is playing poker and I should be wrapping presents and this morning's dishes still aren't washed and I am just beat. But, as you can see- my lipstick still looks good! (Loreal, Saucy Sangria, in case you're interested. That shit is awesome.)
So. Dishes. And then maybe try to wrap a few things? Or fall in bed?
We shall see. Either way I do not intend to suffer.
Life holds enough of that on its own and I do not plan on taking any which is not my share to take.
Not tonight, anyway.
And don't you do it either.
I really do not have the energy to respond to comments tonight and may not have the time tomorrow. Please know this breaks my heart but, sometimes you can only do what you're big enough to do, as Mr. Moon's wise father used to say.
I am reading them. I am loving them. I am loving you, too.