Another chilly, dreary day. It's actually raining now which is putting paid to the check that the sky's been writing all day.
I don't have much to say at all. I went to Publix to get a few things, notably half and half because that's what Lis takes in her coffee and if there are two things I do to get ready for Lis it's to put a flower by her bed and to make sure there's half and half in the house.
I'd sprinkle rose petals on her pillows but that might look weird. Then again- it's only weird if you make it that way.
Am I right?
I got to see Lily at Publix which made me so happy. It seems like I haven't been seeing my kids nearly enough nor the grands either. I felt cheered up after seeing my beautiful girl. My dreams have been so sad lately that I ride the waves of them far too long into the day. Lately I've been dreaming about a house which is probably representative of a house I did once actually live in and there's a neighbor in my dreams whom I did not end up with well. In real life, I mean. I have no idea what happened but it seemed to me that one minute we were grand friends and the next...no. Not at all.
And I suppose I'm still working that out in my dreams. It's like my brain gets tired of picking apart one aspect of my life, some unsolved piece of the puzzle, and moves on to another. Certain themes never fail to entertain my sleeping mind though and they are the usual ones- abandonment, loss, fear of homelessness, my-husband-doesn't-love-me-anymore-and-is-moving-in-with-that-black-haired-bitch-who-drives-a-truck.
And of course my mother and stepfather make appearances frequently, sometimes in starring roles, sometimes just in cameos.
Occasionally, I will have a sweet dream but if I have even three a year, I'm surprised. Few and far between.
So seeing Lily cheered me like I said and I bought a sandwich at Publix (the famous Pub Sub!) and sat in the parking lot and ate it and that felt like a big treat because it was. I stopped by the Bad Girls Get Saved By Jesus thrift store and looked about. They did have some very interesting pieces today. A dresser and a rocking chair mainly, that looked to be authentically old. And they were priced very, very reasonably but the rocking chair was not comfortable and I don't need a dresser and so I ended up buying nothing although a few pitchers tempted me with their seductive lines and vase-like properties.
When I was at Publix I decided that tonight would be the night to try "frying" eggplant (Eng: aubergine) in the air fryer for a parmigiana and so I bought one and brought it home and sliced it, dusted the slices with flour, then dipped them in beaten egg and then panko. They came out beautifully.
And the weather.
Some days are like that.