Monday, January 29, 2024

So Many Camellias


Another perfectly beautiful day and I've been inside feeling somewhat miserable for all of it. I have not felt better today and in fact, a little worse. It's not terrible but it's not great either. The only things I've done outside are to dump compost, pick salad greens, and cut camellias to bring in. I don't hurt anywhere and I'm not coughing my lungs out and I'm not totally congested but I'm achy and slow and my eyes are gritty and my brain is so foggy that it feels like everything's been wrapped in wet gauze. 

Fun.

If I still feel bad tomorrow I'll do another covid test but I really don't think that's it. Mostly I just feel like I'm wasting time, you know? These gorgeous days and me just sitting around and being useless. I know, I know- that's what I need to be doing but why couldn't I have been sick last week when it was so gray and gloomy? 
Too bad you can't arrange your illnesses around the weather forecast. 

There's nothing wrong with my appetite though. This morning I decided that what I really wanted to eat was some soybeans with the delicious goop on it, based on the recipe from the Farm cookbook. You know- the mayonnaise, soy sauce, and garlic powder sauce? To me, that is comfort food. So I started cooking the small amount of the beans I had in my little grains and beans refrigerator this morning in my beautiful white pot that I'm still completely enamored of. Soybeans take the longest of all beans to cook, probably because they have the most protein. 


Well, these soybeans must have the most protein in the world in them or else they're just really old because they've been cooking for eight hours and I still can't smash one between my tongue and the roof of my mouth which is the way I test them. As Ina May Gaskin said once, "Crunchy soybeans don't make it."
So I may have to go to some plan B for supper. 
With my soybeans I also wanted some sort of healthy hippie bread and that is actually coming along nicely. Whole wheat, oat bran, etc. 

I thought about walking up to the GDDG because I'm about out of Meow Mix and you know that's not going to work. I just couldn't, though. I've got enough for at least one or two days left and I can always drive. I didn't even want to do that today. 

This girl came in and woke up me this morning. 


Yep. Deja vu all over again. She and I ended up back on the sofa, me making a weak attempt at stitching, she snoozing. I guess this morning she decided that someone needed to get me out of bed and when I say "someone" I mean her. Cats, like dogs, know our routines and habits better than we do and they do not need to know how to tell time on a clock or a phone or a watch to know exactly when things should be happening and I guess I had exceeded my time limit in bed. She came in and meowed questions at me until I said, "Okay, okay," and got out of bed and she lead me to the bathroom as if to say, "And this comes next," and I suppose she figures she's done her job for the day and she has. I think that Maurice is just like me in that following routines helps her to control her anxiety and her humans are very much a part of her those. If we deviate from them, she's right there to do her best to get us back on track. 




Mr. Moon called and he sounded overly cheerful in my opinion. He reminded me to eat all the peas and cauliflower now while he was gone and I told him that I had not yet made it to the store to buy any cauliflower but he did not seem to detect the hint of snippiness in my voice or, if he did, he chose to ignore it. 
Oh well. 
Honestly, it's easier to be under the weather if he's gone anyway. He's not a demanding husband but I do have that slightly unhealthy need to please and if he's not here, that is not a problem. 

I just went and checked those damn soybeans. They are not anywhere near tender. 
Sigh.
Oh well. 
I've got some frozen shrimp that'll thaw out in minutes. I might make some barbecued shrimp to eat with that healthy hippie bread, thus undoing all health benefits involved. That's okay. I'll eat some salad too. 

I am not unhappy and I am not, despite what I said earlier, truly miserable. Just tired, mostly. I hope I feel better tomorrow. At least good enough to walk up to the poorly-lit, florescent-light-humming, aisles-blocked-by-boxes-of-things-needing-to-be-shelved, no employees-in-sight, incredibly convenient Dollar General to buy a bag of overpriced cat food. 



We shall see. 

Meanwhile, I plan on getting lots of sleep tonight. I better start early because you-know-who is going to make sure I get up in a timely fashion tomorrow. 


Sweet dreams, y'all. 

Love...Ms. Moon



31 comments:

  1. sorry to hear you are *off* .... feeling *off* in general....is just not fun. If only we could schedule these days at will! I guess you will have soybeans tomorrow...and go for the shrimp and bread tonight, which sounds all too wonderful to me! Bless Maurice's little heart for trying to keep you grounded and on HER schedule......hope you rest VERY well and have an uptick tomorrow!
    Susan M

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  2. Mary ... Dump the soybeans, saute the shrimp 🍤 in butter with lemon pepper, slather butter on that hippie bread and pile on some salad and enjoy your supper!
    Marcia in Colorado

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    1. Haha! I did not dump the soybeans. They are on the menu for tonight! And I made one of my favorite shrimp dishes- a mustard sauce shrimp thing and it was delicious. So was the salad.

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  3. Hope you're doing better tomorrow. I wonder if you've got allergies?

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  4. Kitty supervises me at everything that interests her. She politely follows me from station to station in the morning, but her attention to my business is supreme as she watches me count out pills to the little case because she knows the next job is her food. The instant the little case snaps shut, she is Meow Queen, telling me what to do, even head butting my legs in the proper direction. What would we do without them?

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    1. I guess we'd just fall apart, Joanne. At least according to cat wisdom. Funny how almost all of their attention to us has to do with their food bowls.

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  5. Although I don't ever recall you mentioning a microwave, could you not microwave those soy beans for ten minutes? That would soften the ****ers up! Serve them right for being so contrary!

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    1. ugh, Mr P.......microwaving changes the texture of most things....and don't think it would be *kind* to these beans! Susan M

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    2. Mr. P.! What a great idea! Next time I'll try that. Of course I have a microwave oven! But I think I'd have to nuke them far longer than ten minutes. That would require a nuclear reactor of some sort.
      Susan- I'm pretty sure YP was joking.

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  6. Marcia has the right idea and Maurice is doing a good job making sure you are OK.
    Feel better soon.

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  7. Hope you're feeling better tomorrow. I'm tired as hell too and heading to bed shortly.

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    1. I hope YOU'RE not coming down with something.

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  8. I love that big blue lamp base, it's about the size and shape I'm looking for to put my leadlight butterfly shade on. I shall save the photo to take to lighting stores. I agree with Maurice that routines must be kept, but small deviations such as going to be earlier and not doing too much are okay when you aren't feeling 100%. Toss the beans and barbecue the shrimp.

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    1. You know, I just love that lamp with all of my heart. May did such a good job getting it for my Christmas and I love the shade too. I doubt I would ever have put those two together but to me, they are perfect in my house.
      I had a lovely shrimp supper!

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  9. I hope that you are feeling better today. Those camellias are so lovely. They don't grow well where I live....wrong type of soil, but my Mum had a large bush at the front of her house and when it was in flower it was the talk of the neighbourhood!

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    1. One of the camellias that I planted when I moved in here is in the front yard right next to the fence and that thing has grown so tall that there's no way I can pick the blooms near the top. They are slow growers but when they do grow. I hope that the people who walk by my house enjoy those flowers.

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  10. so sorry about how miserable you're feeling. Hope it passes very quickly now. Just sit and contemplate those camelias.

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    1. I think one could find inner peace by contemplating camellias.

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  11. Ugh! I hope you're feeling better. At least you have all those amazing camellias around you! (Are you allergic to camellias? LOL)

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    1. Nah. I am NOT allergic to camellias! Thank goodness.

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  12. Hope you are feeling better today and the sun is shining again so you can get out for a walk.

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  13. I boiled pinto beans last night. It seemed to take forever til they were soft. I blame Republicans.

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  14. I feel tired myself today. I hope sleep offers you a cure. I'm off to sleep very early. I hope those beans are worth the wait.

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    1. Well, the sauce I make to go on them will be.

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