Monday, September 7, 2015

And So

And here we are and it's a gray Monday and depression has leaked into anxiety but not too bad but there you go and this is what it's like, having a brain on weirdness. One day up and one day down but I'm not bi-polar, I don't think. I've never experienced mania and thank god for that.

I'm sick of that news. As someone I know posted on FB this morning, I have NO MORE FUCKS TO GIVE about certain things and that crazy woman in Kentucky is one of them. I am pretty sure I will not be taking in a refugee and so what can I do about that? Dress myself in sackcloth and ashes (sounds pretty much like my regular wardrobe) and moan and tear at my hair?
I just want to cut my hair.
Fuck it.
This does not mean I don't care about anything, it just means I've lost my ability to remain on high alert about any of it. Give me a trowel and send me off to the woods to dig up plants. The world is insane, it always has been, it always will be until we humans make it unfit for life at which point, whatever happens will certainly be beyond my ability to do a damn thing about.
Hell, I can't even control my dreams because if I could, I would certainly not have dreamed about THAT shit.

I'm going to town to have lunch with Lily and the boys and whatever of the children want to come and then I'm bringing the boys back here. Since Owen started school we've sadly missed our Japanica! dates and so we shall go there unless for some reason they are closed. Would Japanica! close on Labor Day?

We shall see, won't we?

Someone in the hood is having a party already. I hear the music. I heard the music at four-thirty this morning, too.

Party on, people.

Love...Ms. Moon

13 comments:

  1. I'm wondering if that Chick in Kentucky is willing to sit in the slammer for her "fifteen minutes of fame"? Otherwise, or maybe in addition to that, she just be dumb.
    Cheer up, it could be hotter than you know what, like it is here today. Oy.

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  2. me too. I am sick to death of these people who think they are above the law, who think that their religious beliefs make them better than everyone else, and who are not satisfied with actually being able to worship as they please and so force their morality on everyone they disagree with. some holier than thou christian who is a notary at a bank refused to notarize the documents of two atheists which is totally against the code of notaries which says they may not ever discriminate and that witnessing documents they don't approve of in no way signifies agreement. if it wasn't so damn hot out there and humid I would turn my back of everything and work outside. instead I'll finish this drawing.

    and the planet is not crazy, just the human beings. and humans aren't just crazy, they are barking mad, insane!

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  3. Oh love may your anxiety pass swiftly as a high tide river under a sturdy bridge.
    Rebecca

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  4. I'm trying to get back to "Fuck it." I was so good at it, but then some of those pictures got under my skin. But it's all too much.

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  5. Yeah, the news is pretty heavy right now. I always used to feel I had to do something big about it or I was a bad person, but now I try to accept that doing something small (a donation of some kind, signing a petition, voting for someone who has a good moral compass) multiplied by all the other people who do something small, will be a big thing, and that I need to make sure my own corner of the earth is looked after - my family, my home, my community - so that I am not a burden on anyone else. It seems to me that this is what you are doing, Mary.

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  6. I know you say that you have no more fucks to give but, like me, you do give a fuck. It is one of your best and worst qualities. You have so much love but that love also sinks you. The fact remains, people like Donald Trump *really* don't give a fuck and good people like you do. Because you are a good and decent human that makes living on this earth tolerable for the rest of us.

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  7. Living near a city whose murder rate rises every day, having to hear/read about a woman who refuses to do her job all in the name of her religion, and seeing over and over the pictures of that precious little boy washed up on the beach made me come to the conclusion that I just can't take any more! We used to watch the news during dinner....now we watch reruns of I Love Lucy. Some say I'm burying my head in the sand. I'm saying it's keeping a slippery hold on what's left of my sanity.

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  8. I hear you Ms Moon. The news , all this heavy shit. Sometimes I wander why we all can't get along .....

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  9. YES, NO MORE FUCKS TO GIVE- jUST ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER, KNOWING THAT SOMEWHERE THERE IS A PERSON WITHOUT FEET, BUT WHAT CAN i DO ABOUT THAT. Oops- even my computer is disagreeable, cap lock working in reverse.

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  10. I'm with you on the news. Enough already. I care about it all, and that's exactly the problem.

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  11. The news will definitely bring on anxiety and depression. Your lunch looks like it was lovely. Your girls are just glowing!

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  12. That comment was, of course, meant for the post above this one. Its that kind of morning. xo

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  13. I limit the news I consume. It's just too much.

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