Monday, June 9, 2025

Jibber-Jabber And The First Best Story Of My Life


I took this picture on my walk this morning and was completely blinded by the sun when I took it. It really was just "point and shoot" because I had no idea what I was shooting although it turns out that the sky is pretty easy to get a picture of, even if you can't see it through the lens. 
I guess because it's so big? 

So, yeah, I got out there and did the walk and it was fine. I didn't feel close to dying although I was hot. Part of my route took me down Main Street in Lloyd where I noted that the restored house is still for sale. It seems that there's more and more "cute" things showing up on the porch and in the yard which I guess is someone's way of trying to improve curb appeal. I'm not sure we have curbs though. You'd think I'd have noticed by now. I also saw that there are TWO porta-potties on Abraham's property across the street from where his house is which would usually indicate some sort of construction about to happen. I also noticed what I think is a new truck in Abraham's yard and I am just hoping that he won the lottery and is building himself a new and stronger house because if not, he may have sold that property to someone who's going to put something commercial on it. Like the GDDG which is right next door. 
Hoo-boy. 

The route I walked was intended to keep me less than a mile from the house because the sky was threatening. By the time I got home, it was seriously thundering and rain had just started to fall. It turned into a downpour and I was so glad I made it home before that started. Since then it's already rained at least twice more. 

It felt a little cooler when I'd finished my lunch, or at least I was cooler, so I decided to go out and dig up some more potatoes. It tickles me that when Maurice sees me putting on my gardening shoes, not to be confused with my walking shoes, she heads on out the back door to meet me outside. She may be crazy but she isn't stupid. She kept me company while I dug potatoes which was a messy business due to the wet dirt and I sweated through my clothes once again. She laid in the shade and kept an eye on me, just in case...well, I don't even know.  Keeled over from heat stroke? What would she do? Dig around in my pocket and find my phone in the ziplock I keep it in when I work in the garden to prevent dirt from getting into the charging port? Take the phone out of my pocket, remove it from the bag and call 911? 
Nah. She'd probably just stand over me and meow. 
I know she is concerned about my wellbeing, though. The sky darkened up again and when it began to thunder, she did indeed meow directly at me and then went and sat closer to the gate so I'd get the message and stop what I was doing and go inside. Between that, and the fact that it was starting to rain, AND that I'd dug up not only some potatoes but also some extremely fierce-looking ants, I decided that was enough for today. Those ants were huge and they were boiling out of the ground. Also, they were very red. I managed not to get stung which was a sort of miracle for which I am grateful. 

I've got the potatoes on an old sheet with the other ones I've dug with a fan on them to dry them out a little. We've eaten a few of the potatoes and they are fine. I do not care to lose them to rot. 

I've got a little experimental project going on here. It's so silly and so simple that I'm a bit hesitant to even mention it but here goes- when I make fruitcakes, I wrap them in cheesecloth which I have soaked in rum and then I wrap them in aluminum foil. That's the way it's generally done, I believe. Cheese cloth is, well, cheese cloth. It's used for many things in a kitchen and it's available in kitchen supply stores and even grocery stores. 



When we had eaten all of our fruitcake last winter, I decided I was not throwing that rummy cheesecloth away and I didn't. I washed it and it came out of the dryer feeling like the nicest cotton gauze. Like, perhaps the sort of cotton gauze that hippie clothes were often made of, but softer. 
Hmmm... I said. What have I here?
And since then, I have been using cut up pieces of that cheese cloth as cleaning cloths and also, sweat rags which are infinitely valuable here. When I'm working outside, I have to have a sweat rag to keep the sweat out of my eyes and off my face. I've used old napkins before and if they are the older, softer, more absorbent ones, those work great. 
But they have met their match with these cheesecloth squares which I just use and wash, over and over again. 
And today, I washed most of a package of unused cheesecloth with the dedicated purpose in mind of using it for all sorts of things that need utmost absorbency and softness. 

Here's the piece I washed today along with a piece that I've been using since winter.


The top one is the older one and it has gone through some bleach loads which is why it's so much whiter than the new one. And because the new one has only been washed and dried once, it has not yet achieved that closer weave. I plan on cutting the new one into good-sized squares or rectangles and hemming them. I can guarantee that they will be used over and over again. With enough of them, I could almost do without paper towels. But that's a long way from happening. Meanwhile, I will be buying more cheesecloth. That package in the picture cost about five dollars, maybe? 

Some of you who are as old as I am, will probably remember Birdseye diapers. These are still made and every new mother should have a few packages, not necessarily to use as diapers, but to use as burp cloths or as we called them around here, spit-up rags. 
These, too would probably make excellent kitchen rags or sweat rags if that's something you could use but for right now, I'm going with the cheese cloth. 

So that's my household tip for the day. Just call me Heloise. 

And I have to add that forty-nine years ago right now I was in labor with my first baby, having no idea whatsoever that labor could be so horrible. It was for me, anyway. It's certainly not for everyone but it is not painless without drugs. I'll just say that. I wanted a home birth and the women who attended me were not trained midwives, but women friends, some of them who had had babies of their own, who wanted very much to be midwives. Armed with a copy of Spiritual Midwifery by Ina May Gaskin, they were by my side for the entire twenty-eight hours of the labor. I finally could not go on one more moment and my then-husband drove me to the hospital, which was about a mile away, where I was checked in, assessed, and sent immediately to the delivery room where the doctor who had done all my prenatal care, delivered the baby. Fast, fast, fast. 
Forty-nine years ago and I remember some of those moments so clearly. So very, very clearly. The memory that always makes me laugh happened after I got to the hospital and the nurse was trying to get me to get up on the exam table and I was so into pushing that I would not stop squatting on the floor to do just that. 
"Get up here on this bed," she said, "Or you're going to have that baby on the floor!" 
"I DON'T CARE!" I roared. And I didn't. 

And that was Hank. My red-headed baby whose arrival immediately put all of that work, all of that pain, into a place that didn't matter and there was nothing that mattered except for him and I knew what love was from that moment on. 
And before supper time, we checked out of the hospital, AMA, and went home where my life and Hank's life too, truly began. 
I was twenty-one, almost twenty-two and I had just met the greatest teacher of my life. 

And that's what's going on within me and without me this evening. Mr. Moon and Owen are at the lake and hopefully, no one's fallen off a roof or lost an arm or a leg to a power saw. I hope they sleep well. I do believe I will. 

Love...Ms. Moon


39 comments:

  1. The picture of the sky was beautiful. Florida skies are awesome....they were in Miami and down in the Keys. Fond memories of long ago when I lived there.
    That was quite a story about Hank's birth. Wow! I remember my clinical rotation through Labor and Delivery. The nurses on that floor hated me! LOL! I kept going to the nursing station saying....'you need to give this poor woman some pain meds...this is terrible'. They said...'that's natural pain'. I thought...horseshit...there's nothing natural about pain! I managed to get through my clinicals (with some PTSD). Happy Birthday to Hank!!
    Hope Mr. Moon and Owen get some cool time together and some projects accomplished. Does Mr. Moon have a pontoon, yet? That sounds really fun.
    Paranormal John

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    1. No pontoon boat yet! Glen will patiently wait until the right one at the right price comes along.
      Well, I'll tell you something- the pain of childbirth is indeed natural pain but a the same time, it can be almost or entirely unbearable. I have often said that if I'd delivered all of mine in hospitals, I would have asked for an epidural every time. I am not exactly sure why we humans have evolved to have to experience this to have our babies but I do have a theory about why pain can be important in childbirth. I'll go into that at some point, I'm sure.

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  2. Happy birthday to Hank and mom! And I've been using the same piece of cheesecloth for straining cheese and milk and yogurt since last century! Wash and reuse ad infinitum. It doesn't seem to wear out.

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    1. And it looks like the most fragile of fabrics. Like spiderweb cloth, almost. And of course spiderwebs aren't that fragile either.

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  3. Happy B-day to Hank! You describe a long labor and then joy of having your first-born son. Long labors are unrelatable for me. My labor was all of two hours with no pain, and I was up and walking, ready to go home.
    Glen and Owen must be doing the male bonding thing over at the log home as well as working on a few projects. Hopefully they'll squeeze in some boating and fishing too.

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    1. I have always been so jealous of women who delivered quickly. My daughters both had fairly short and although very intense, labors, I don't think they felt they were in as much pain as I did. I am so grateful for that, too.
      There's no boat there yet, so, the only fishing will be off the dock.

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  4. Cheesecloth! Tahnk you for the tip. I shall order some today. I have been using old worn out sheets and old worn out tea towels (dish towels) as cleaning cloths and most of them are now long gone and I've been wondering what I can replace them with.
    Happy Birthday to Hank. My third child is 49 this year.
    I think Maurice is definitely watching out for you, the meow as the thunder began is proof of that. But is she doing it for you or for Mr Moon? She knows how important you are to him.

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    1. I honestly think that Maurice feels protective about me. She watches over me and sometimes she brings me "food". I am not sure why. Do I seem like I need protecting? Perhaps to a cat.

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  5. Happy birthday to Hank! I did not know cheese cloth was so thick! I learned something new.

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    1. When you wash it and the fibers shrink it becomes like that. And the more you wash it, the softer it gets.

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  6. I do love cheesecloth and I do love your fruit cakes! I love you, too, but will say that you were way to young to be birthin' babies! AND in that way- labor for how long? Over a day, you say! Smokes! And then...you had more? Day-um, girl!

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    1. My shortest labor was with Lily and that was just under ten hours, I think. I am not an easy birther. Yes. I had more. I have always loved babies THAT much.

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  7. That pix of the Clouds turned out so well even tho' you had to blindly point and shoot, Bravo!

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  8. Modern mothers with their disposable diapers (nappies, here) don't know what they're missing. Cloth nappies were brilliant for so many things.
    Those clouds are beautiful and before I had even begun reading I thought "there's a thunder storm in there somewhere".

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    1. I still have a few cloth diapers. I don't even use them for cleaning. I just...keep them.
      We're getting one little rainstorm after another here.

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  9. Hmmmmm...I wonder what the port-a-potties portend. (Portend-a-potties?)

    I'm so impressed Maurice can tell your gardening shoes from your walking shoes! That's a clever cat!

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    1. Seriously. I do hope Abraham isn't throwing us under the bus.
      Maurice knows me better than I do, I think.

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  10. Birthdays may be to celebrate the beginning of a new life, but I always think the mother's the one who did the work, she should be getting the credit!

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    1. We always say, "Happy Birthday" to the actual birthday person and "Happy Birth Day!" to the mama.

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  11. Happy birthday to Hank! Whoa, you were in labor a long time! I always remember that as soon as one of my babies was born, I sort of forgot all of the pain and just smiled with the joy of this new child in my life. Just like you wrote, nothing mattered except the baby and the love!

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    1. I did NOT forget the pain. Not at all. And I think that perhaps part of my love for the baby comes from the fact that the instant the child is born, the pain ceases. It's like we associate the baby with the end of the pain. Just a theory I have.

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  12. I was cleaning out a box of something in the basement and came across a dozen diapers I had saved. The diapers I used were flannel and they are now in service as rags, as I am hopeful I will not have any more babies:)
    Your cheesecloth looks like muslin, the best thing to wrap a baby in when it's hot.
    Happy birthday to Hank. I would not have survived 28 hours in labour. Mine were all about 12 hours and that was long enough. All my babies were big and my poor perineum got torn up each time. TMI I know, but truth. Looks like I got in a knife fight:)

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    1. I've always heard of flannel diapers but I don't think I ever saw any.
      You and me both on the hope for no more babies from us!
      Muslin, I think, is very much like washed cheesecloth. Both are simple-weaved cotton.
      You would have survived 28 hours of labor if you'd had to. I know that. My babies varied in size from Lily (10 pounds, 2 ounces) to both May and Jessie who were around seven and a half, I think. The only time I didn't come through birth with an intact perineum was the hospital birth because ALL women got episiotomies then. Even with Lily I did not tear and she had a nuchal hand!

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    2. Katie was the biggest at 10 pounds 11 ounces. The didn't have time to let the freezing work for the episiotomy and just cut me unfrozen. That was the worst pain ever.

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  13. I bought a bolt of 4" wide cheesecloth from the wholesale upholstery/drapery fabric warehouse decades ago for one of the processes I did in etched glass, soaking it in a dilute solution of white glue and lay it on the glass until it dried and then sandblasted through it. Made a nice little texture. I still have quite a lot of it. I never thought about using it for a sweat rag though I do use it in the kitchen for squeezing all the water out of grated zucchini. I use bandanas for a sweat rag, fold it into a triangle, roll it up, tie it around my forehead. Usually soaked through by the time I come in.

    I delivered both my babies without drugs. I remember the first time as soon as she popped out (wee, and the afterbirth) the pain stopped and I was filled with elation seeing that brand new little life that came out of me. that has to be the most awesome thing in the world, in the true sense of the word awe.

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    1. I must sweat a lot more than you, Ellen. I have to wipe my face almost constantly. I remember my grandfather doing the same when he worked outside in Roseland.
      Yes! Exactly on the immediate disappearing of the pain with the arrival of the baby. I think this may actually help with the process of falling in love with our babies.

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  14. Good morning! I was 21 when I had my first baby. She was flipped front to back through much of the labor, her hard little head scraping down my spine, but I forgive her. (A little harder to forgive my kid turning 50!) Lucky me, we had a diaper service where we lived, and I also got darn good at washing them myself. These disposable diapers? yecch. And so unrecyclable.

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    1. Back labor can be torture. And how dare our babies become fifty-year olds?
      There were diaper services here too when my kids were born but I always just washed my own.

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  15. That book was my guide and on the day I found out that I was pregnant I went to an event in Dublin with Ina May Gaskin at what was a semi legal women's centre (catholic Ireland early 1980s). And these cheesecloth diapers were a big thing during my student years, we bought them in bulk and dyed them purple to wear as scarves. We also wore builder's dungarees dyed purple. And no bras obviously. While it all sounds a bit silly now I am actually proud and a bit emotional remembering this

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    1. I am proud of the way we dressed back then too, Sabine. We discarded society's ideas of what we "should" wear and chose our own styles.
      "Spiritual Midwifery" was my Bible. For sure. I met Ina May once when I worked at a birth center. She had come to collect data for something she was doing. I felt as if I was in the presence of a goddess. Which I was.

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  16. Happy Birthday to Hank!! I hope he has a great day with everyone celebrating him!

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    1. Oh, he's had to work today but this weekend we'll be celebrating for sure.

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  17. I love birth stories told as you've told this one of you and Hank. For me, it took a few weeks for me to feel like I understood what motherhood was going to be for me. I remember looking at my first born and thinking, "I've got to get to know you." I'm sure someplace inside me was bubbling up feelings of love, but it took a few days before I could name it as such. Please don't misunderstand me. Unconditional, absolute love. And I adored the newborn and baby stage. But it didn't feel natural from the very first second I laid eyes on my baby boy. And I'm not sure I ever really forgot the pain of childbirth. I know most women refer to it as you do. But for me I can still remember the unrelenting pain and exhaustion from hours of pushing that felt like it was quartering me top to bottom and left to right. Would I do it again? Sure. Being a mother is certainly worth it and the treasure of my life, but it lives in my memory as trauma. Something I'm glad to have moved on from.

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    1. Hello Dear Susan From Ohio!
      I think that some women are indeed traumatized by the pain of childbirth. No one can be prepared for that. I know that when I was in labor with Hank, I spent a lot of time in my bathroom, mostly to be alone, and when it was all over, I hated going in the bathroom for days afterwards. PTSD. And every time I had another baby it was like, "Really? It's like this again?" I've had many dreams in which I've found myself pregnant again and think that this time around, I'll get an epidural because I can't go through that again.
      Notice I did not say that I forgot the pain of childbirth. I put it away into a place that didn't matter. Whenever I hear someone repeat that, "You forget the pain when you're holding your new baby," I wonder if there is something wrong with me because I sure as hell didn't forget and haven't yet.
      And I've always considered myself very lucky to fall in love so quickly with each baby. That is just a blessing that I am grateful for and I know it is NOT that way for every new mother.

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    2. Thank you for this kind and reassuring response. You've made me feel seen in my experience. I needed that.

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  18. Neither of my babies were in any hurry to be born - I ended up with medical intervention with both but then natural birth with that assistance. Ever since then, every happy birthday to a child is a happy anniversary to the mother too!

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    1. I'm curious- medical intervention to get things started with your babies or to speed up your labor?
      You are right about the happy anniversary to the mother.

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  19. Both my son and daughter were born at home in our rented apartment in San Francisco. I had two midwives and a doctor present for the first, my son, who was 10 days late. I had intermittent labor for 12 hours, which backed off, and then 8 hours full on. One of the midwives had mistakenly eaten a pot brownie, the other was calm and knowledgeable. The backup doctor took pictures. My daughter came 18 months later after only 3 hours of light labor and before the good, and only, midwife arrived. The chute was already greased! No drugs either time and I was lucky in that the pain was reasonable. Happy Birthday Mary and Hank!! x0x0 N2

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