I have no pictures for today so I grabbed one from the memories that my iPhone so cleverly and thoughtfully curates for me. I don't know when that was taken but it's about the cutest picture I've ever seen. Ms. Magnolia June when she was in her three or four-year old glory. I'm sure we were at the Wacissa.
It's raining and supposed to keep raining for some time. Maybe all night. That is good. We need it. And then it's going to get cooler. I'm talking duck-on-the-bed temperatures. I'll have to get it back out of the closet.
I'm not going to write a lot today because I'm not in the greatest mood. I've got the doctor's appointment to dread, of course, and besides that- well. You know.
I did have a very nice time today. Jessie and I went to pottery class and I discovered that I have no natural ability at all on the potter's wheel. I so, so wanted to make that magic happen, the turning of a lump of clay into a bowl or a cup or a vase with nothing but my fingers and centrifugal force. And perhaps if I tried and tried and practiced and practiced I might get the knack and that may happen one of these days but no time soon. I did discover that my wonky wrist that I broke fifty-three years ago combined with my arthritis-bent little finger does not help with my technique.
But I had a beautiful time, just being there, and Jessie and I laughed and laughed. It felt so good to truly laugh from my gut. And I enjoyed talking to the other people in the room today and then someone put on some music and it was such a fantastic mix of eras and genres and that was wonderful too.
So all was not in vain.
Mr. Moon found a house on a lake that he went and looked at today. I am such a horrible wife. The house has four bedrooms and the idea of trying to furnish a house of that size and get all the kitchen things that I'd need, not to mention the plates and cups and towels and everygoddamnthing that goes in a house AND have them be things I'd want to live with, makes me want to die. It wouldn't be a house for us to move into, just to go to on weekends and hopefully sometimes with the kids and sometimes they could go on their own and of course he could fish off the dock and of course there's a boat house.
I'm impossible. We have been here before. I know that. I am just too damn attached to the things I love and cannot imagine living with furniture or pots and pans or knives or rugs or rooms that I do not love.
Even just on weekends.
So that's going on.
But mostly, it's the worry and fear of what is coming.
Look. Here's another beautiful picture of my grandchildren.
How innocent Little Magnolia and Little August were - standing there on the deck holding hands so naturally. Never such innocence again.
ReplyDeleteI hope all goes well at the medical appointment tomorrow. Be brave.
All went well. Don't know how brave I was.
DeleteAs to August and Maggie- I think that honestly, August is just about as innocent as he was then. In some ways, at least. He's sort of pure in his thinking.
Dear little kids! Mr Moon seems determined to have that second house. If it's meant as a family place, why not have the family help furnish it? No reason it should all fall on you. Easy for me to say, I know.
ReplyDeleteYes. Easy for you to say! I could say it too but it wouldn't do much good. I don't know if the kids would be able to find the time to come and stay at that house, much less help me furnish it. It's a nice idea, though.
DeleteSweet babies: Magnolia June and August both loving the waterfront.
ReplyDeleteA second home on the water with a boat to go fishing seems to be Mr. Moon's goal. Think of all the family gatherings, eating fresh fish and enjoying the water. Family is everything.
I'm so bad, Susan. I think of family gatherings and I think about making up beds with clean sheets and putting clean towels in all the bathrooms and making sure there's plenty of food for everyone. I am just a lazy old thing.
DeleteOh the sweet littles! I love the pics. My anxiety level is increasing each day. I don't watch TV news at all but I read a bit to try and keep up. I may stop even that. I can't fix anything and it just makes me sick.
ReplyDeleteDeb, I agree. We've got to figure out coping mechanisms, don't we?
DeleteI love those memory reels from the google photo and FB, they always tug the heart strings. On the second house subject, haven't you been wanting to thin out some of your belongings? A lake house would be just the ticket! And the fam can pitch in some of their stuff. Plus Wag the Dog, FB marketplace, Buy Nothing pages and such to fill it out. My uncle bought a lake house that the whole family gathered at. We still miss it 45 years on. Fingers crossed for your. DR visit. x0x0 N2
ReplyDeleteI don't have any extra furniture for a new house! That would be the most difficult thing, I believe. I just honestly do not feel motivated for such a large project.
DeleteThe photos are beautiful, thank you. I'm glad the four bedroom house isn't a possible purchase, but just a weekender, but I can't imagine carting so much of my own stuff just to bring it all back two or three days later. It's a shame you can't take things and leave them there for the next visit.
ReplyDeleteOh, there's no way I'd be carting stuff back and forth. Which is why I'd have to buy all the things one needs for living in a house to keep there.
DeleteYeah, Bruce does help. Thanks for that.
ReplyDeleteI love that song so much and the album it's on, too.
DeleteYour grandchildren are just beautiful. Maggie's skin is almost translucent. Oh to have skin like that!
ReplyDeleteIf you are interested, have a look on you tube, there's a pottery an hour away from us. It's called Ingleton pottery. It's a father and son set up. The father only has one hand but he turns the most magnificent pots.
As for the house on the lake, we can't help the way we feel, can we?
I have wanted to move for years but hubby can't bare to leave here. And so we continue on here. I'd rather be with my hubs wherever he wants to be than any dream house. I'm sure Mr Moon feels the same. Xx
That is a very interesting site! I could get some good ideas there. Thank you!
DeleteNo, we can't help the way we feel and Glen would really like to have his cake and eat it too with a house on the water and our present house and with me in both of them with him. And honestly, that's not so much to ask.
There are other ways to create "beauty with clay" I think I almost killed a potter once when I tried my luck on a wheel, or maybe I knocked something valuable over. Some people can and others cannot. So. What.
ReplyDeleteWe do have a vague plan of moving elsewhere but I admit there are mornings when I wake up and get this wave of relief that at least for now, I am where I am.
Oh my, Sabine! Jessie had a bit of an accident yesterday with the pot she was working on, on the wheel. It went flying but no one was hurt nor was anything broken but that pot was no more.
DeleteEvery since we moved into this house, I have felt as you do when I wake up. Happy to be here.
Magnolia June is gorgeous. And little August! All.That.Hair! Yes, Bruce helped. Hashtag a lot (I love to say Hashtag).
ReplyDeletePatricia
That was when we thought that August had this hair situation which is called "uncombable hair syndrome." Hashtag Not Kidding!
DeleteYes, I thought the same as Boud. Why not let your lovely kids furnish the lake house as they will share it with you, won't they? That could make it a fun adventure as you shop with your girls when you can. Mr. Moon will take the grands fishing and you can relax on the dock or stay home in peace.
ReplyDeleteMy girlies do not have time to help me shop for furniture for an entire house! It's a lovely idea but I could not ask them to do that.
DeleteIn fantasy, it all sounds pretty cool but in reality, it would be a hell of a lot of work for me.
You sound like you're feeling overwhelmed with the idea of furnishing another house. Could one or all of your kids help you with that? Then it wouldn't all be on you. Just a thought. I was out shopping yesterday and thought about picking up a couple of things for Katie for Christmas but I just looked around and couldn't even cope with everything, so I left. Sometimes things are too much. I was so tired yesterday, I did the bare minimum required, including thinking and decision making. Today is a better day.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and love sweetie.
I feel the same way about shopping that you did yesterday. I can't cope! Sister, I've been so tired lately too. I think it's probably depression along with the attitude of, "What the fuck? I might as well go to sleep."
Deleteit sounds like a good place and you don't have to furnish the thing in one fell swoop. just a few essentials at first. and Ellen D. has a good suggestion.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking about checking out the pottery studio that opened here but I'm not really interested in throwing cups and bowls with drab glazes which seems to be what they offer for classes. I want to work with porcelain and sculpture and pretty colors.
I've seen some finished products that have come out of the studio there that look very fine with colors that I like, anyway. But I know what you mean.
DeleteGreat read! I'm in the carpet cleaning industry and have done a few cabins and getaway homes. The owners always seem to love them and have a great time.
ReplyDeleteLOL
DeleteOne thing you could count on is that no water front house of mine is going to have carpet. But thanks, Chem-Dry.
DeleteCatching up, what wonderful treasures from LindaSue!! I’m impressed with Maurice’s new trick, my kitty will occasionally play fetch the ball. You should google the Acro Cats to see cat training in action. Plus there’s a cat rock band!
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Barbara
A cat rock band. Remember Josie and the Pussycats?
DeleteI understand your reluctance to invest in another house. It does seem like an awful lot of trouble, especially having just sold Dog Island. I'm not in a great mood either. Maybe it's sunspots.
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's stupid Christmas or maybe its the sword of Damocles hanging over all our heads.
DeleteOh, dear God, Bruce is so sexy.
ReplyDeleteI’m ready to meet you at Mary’s place! I think this is one of the few ways we differ. I’d be so excited about having another place. I wish it could be infectious. I don’t think we need to look far for a reason for our moods to be off. Life in general can be hard enough and then there‘s you-know-who! Sending you love and joy from here.
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