Well, my vast relief and feelings of rebirth faded rather more quickly than I would have liked.
Today has been a day of pondering what on earth I need to do with my life.
I have come up with no answers.
In lieu of any sort of real post tonight, I'll just give you camellias.
I keep trying to write something of value or interest but it's just not going to happen tonight.
It's been that sort of day.
Let's see what tomorrow brings.
I recently started volunteering afternoons twice a week at out thrift store/food pantry. It's made me feel useful and it's a hoot (most of the time). Maybe you could volunteer a tad somewhere?ReplyDelete
I know I should.Delete
Hey! You'd be GREAT as a preemie baby cuddler at a nearby hospital!ReplyDelete
Maybe. I really hate hospitals.Delete
You made my day with your wonderful camellias.ReplyDelete
I'm glad. They are beautiful.Delete
I chalk it up to the pull of the moon...you know, that big wolf moon that's gonna be around this weekend? I woke up in a bit of a funk this morning, too. Washed some rugs, scrubbed some floors, went to Winn Dixie for a few things. Then, on the way home, decided to stop at Dollar General for a single size serving of Butterfinger ice cream because....well, because. I got out of the car, took two steps, and broke out in sobs. No idea why, but I did make quite the scene. Forgot the ice cream, drove the two blocks home, and continued my crying jag. I wish you a peaceful evening and better day tomorrow, Mary.ReplyDelete
Sometimes these things just descend upon us. Might be the moon. Who knows?Delete
Had lunch with two women friends (wonderful but short)......and otherwise just hovering here....in between storms, chores for said storms, laying fire in woodstove).....and I believe your camelia altar would just make my day. Life....may just be camelias for you today, and that is oKReplyDelete
Your camellias are beautiful and so are you. Wishing you a better tomorrowReplyDelete
Thank you, obscure.Delete
Me too. I think a quilting bee would be nice. A bunch of lovely ladies, sitting around, chatting, laughing, drinking whatever their drink of choice is. Sign me up.ReplyDelete
Funny how women used to have time to things like that before all the labor-saving devices.Delete
Darling Mary, all you need to do in moments when you feel like this is just be. Without judgment. Feeling whatever you feel and letting it pass on through. Some days sit heavily on us (I'm speaking her to myself too). That said, I'm intrigued by the baby cuddler at a hospital idea.ReplyDelete
You are precious.
how many camellia bushes do you have? so many different beautiful flowers. the purpose of life is life itself. in just existing you are beautiful.ReplyDelete
Ellen- that was so sweet! I probably have about ten camellia bushes.Delete
Good Morning Mary,ReplyDelete
I slept in this morning, not long but a bit and it felt so good. As far as your self question, "what next?" I answer, my ten cents worth is you continue just like you are. You're beautiful and so are your husband and all those kids and smiles and laughter. Keep sharing with us and all of your family. That's what you do best and what a wonderful job you do.
Thanks from all of us out here who don't respond as often as we should. Your beautiful blog is my go to every morning.
Oh, Tom. You are so kind.Delete
Beautiful camellias! For what it's worth, I had a terrible time coming up with a blog post today too. I think it's sunspots.ReplyDelete
Sunspots! That must be it.Delete
So join the club, there's more of us looking for that fecking sense in everything from time to time.ReplyDelete
I think it is the human condition.Delete
All you need to do with your life is to give love to those around, which you do quite spectacularly, Mary. Take a day off and give love to yourself!ReplyDelete
Thank you, Stillwaters.Delete
It's my experience that when there's some big dreaded or just anticipated event, and you're all focused on that, and it goes by successfully and you (me) think whoop, that's good!, the next thing, way too soon, is you're just right back in the muck and dailiness and without the focus (good or bad) that was sustaining you before. And all the adrenaline has been used up. Thank you for reminding me/clarifying this way too common pattern in my own life.ReplyDelete