This evening's post is going to be short. We just got back from Lake Seminole. We took Magnolia because she wanted to do something with her Boppy and Mer and she's been wanting to see the house.
She gave it her approval.
Jessie and Vergil and Maggie's cuzzies came to meet us there and I think Ms. Magnolia had a very good time. We took her to Chow Time for lunch first because that's where she wanted to go.
When we got to the house, she explored the dock, the upstairs, all the downstairs, and played basketball with August and Levon when they got there and then played some chess with August while Levon continued to practice his basketball skills.
I wouldn't be surprised if he started sleeping with a basketball.
Glen and Vergil took the kids down to the dock for a tiny bit of fishing and that's exactly what they got. Both Mr. Moon and Magnolia caught and released the same teensy bream.
I mean, you could put that thing in an aquarium, no problem.
Here it is making an escape. Or trying. They did indeed release the little guy back into the lake so that he can grow up to be a big old daddy bream. Maggie was pretty excited to have caught anything at all and I'm glad she got something.
So that's what we did today. I put away kitchen utensils I bought or brought from my own kitchen here. This is all going to be a slow process but from the looks of things, the entire project is going to take a very long time. I can't remember whether it was August or Levon, but one of them asked, "When are you going to get some tile on this floor?"
Sigh.
Magnolia was very sweet today and thanked us for each and every little thing we did for her. She must really love being with us because she never does anything that would cause us to think twice about spending more time with her.
I took a full dose of the hormones last night and feel better. Several of you asked why I decreased the dosage to begin with and it was two things- one was the fact that trying to get a response from my OB-Gyn who prescribes them was taking so long that I began taking only halves because I didn't want to run out entirely. Two, because I keep thinking I don't need to be taking all of these hormones and for awhile I was seemingly doing fine on half a dose.
But, between the anxiety and the fact that I am really not as sweet* when I take the half dose, I don't think that's something I'm going to try again.
Thank you all for the very, very dear comments you left me yesterday. My vain little heart loved them all, even as I know you are being kinder than you have to be. I will try to get around to answering them all. You know I hate it when I don't do that.
I really try. I do.
Love...Ms. Moon
*Just ask Mr. Moon. I will jump down his throat in a fiery microsecond lately and that is not the way to be. He seems to be taking all of this in a graceful manner but I don't want him to have to put up with it. He's just the only one here to lash out at with my hormonal shit and that is so not fair. It just isn't.
Would it be okay to swim in Lake Seminole or are there alligators lurking? It's lovely that Maggie gets on so well with the boys,
ReplyDeleteAlligators everywhere. Plus, an undoubtably high bacteria count. Especially around the edges. All the cousins get along. It's beautiful.
DeleteSending you many big hugs! Xo, Rigmor
ReplyDeleteThank you, dear Rigmor!
DeleteI am not the pink and frilly feminine type, never have been, and don't feel any difference in myself for no longer taking them, so I honestly don't "get" the need for the continued hormones, but if you need them, you need them and I hope your doctor never lets you run out.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad Maggie caught a fish, but I don't think I've ever seen a bream that tiny, he's so cute. I'm glad they let him go so he could grow up. Do you think Levon will follow Mr Moon's footsteps and play basketball professionally when he grows up?
I don't take the hormones in order to feel feminine. I take them to keep depression and anxiety away from the door. I started taking them a long time ago after I'd just gone through menopause and out of the blue, I was hit with anxiety, which I had never experienced in that way. I still cry when I talk about it. I probably wouldn't be here if I hadn't gotten medication, including the hormones.
DeleteThat is a tiny fish but I would imagine it's a baby.
I have no idea what Levon will end up doing. For now, he is entirely focused on basketball though.
That's an elegant outfit Maggie's rocking today. I was amused to see Mr Moon bending a little at the knees to get into the frame with her!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're feeling a bit better.
He is a very, very tall man, isn't he?
DeleteI am so thankful to be feeling better.
Such wonderful photos. Maggie is always so elegant, even when fishing from the new wood on the dock. Glen is a GREAT grandfather. Your grandchildren get taller every week.
ReplyDeleteGlen really does love the grandkids and I think that he is really fulfilling a dream that he probably did not know he had until the kids started really growing up. He has been all in since day 1 and the kids adore him.
DeleteAnd they do get taller every week. Damn.
What a nice dock, to have a roof and all! So glad you're feeling better. We women have been full of estrogen since forever, and it's no fun to diminish it. I took HRT for a while, then went through a nice menopause years later...not very nice at all. But at that time I wasn't working with people and so it was not as bad for that reason.
ReplyDeleteYes. It is a nice dock and I will stand by my belief that it was the dock that sold him on the house. Although he does like it too, it being all manly and shit.
DeleteWhen I went through menopause I suffered the regular stuff- the hot flashes, the brain fog, the not-being-always-very-pleasant thing. But when I began suffering such severe anxiety that I was not at all sure i wanted to keep on with this life, I sought help and the hormones were part of that help. I always thought I'd just get through menopause too, and that would be that. Turns out it wasn't.
Sounds like a fun time at the cabin, though I'm not sure the bream thought so! LOL! It will be interesting to see how you respond to the hormones over time. Levon definitely looks like a dedicated basketballer! (So does August, for that matter. Boppy must be proud.)
ReplyDeletePoor little baby fishy.
DeleteLevon looks like a little pro, doesn't he. The kid owns that ball when he's playing. August is okay but he doesn't have the same obsession that Levon does. He's going to get into some track club, I think, and he'll be very good at that, I think.
Boppy is very proud of those boys. And all the other grands too.
I love that even your "short" posts are long, Mary. Might start calling you Ol' Reliable.
ReplyDeleteGod. I know. I think I should be called "Ol' Rambler."
DeleteI think taking it slow with the cabin is the right move, for you anyway. Gives you time to let it grow on you.
ReplyDeleteDon't tell anyone I said this, Ellen, but I am not sure I'm going to live long enough for that to happen.
DeleteWhen my mum was diagnosed with high blood pressure, the doctor gave her a prescription for a months worth of pills. At the end of the month, mum said, that's it. I'll be fine. Nooo, you need to see the doctor and you will need to take the pills for the rest of your life. She didn't like that, just like I don't like taking my antidepressants, but everytime I stop taking them or taper them down, boom, depression. I know how you feel Ms. Moon. I'm the same with the pepcid.
ReplyDeletePerhaps you could have a discussion with your obgyn about a better way to have your prescription filled on a more regular and less painful way. It seems ridiculous that it's so hard to get a refill.
As you said it hard on Mr. Moon too. I had to chuckle though. Now that I have no estrogen left in my body I often tell my husband exactly what I think of him. I told him that I am not the woman you married, I was nice then. I don't have any estrogen left and no fucks left either.
The other day he commented that my son never looks happy. I said, neither do you. I'm not mean but I do speak my truth much more often now.
Sending hugs and estrogen:)
Oh god. Yes. We are very much the same when it comes to medications AND to how we are speaking truth to the husbands these days. I try so hard to be sweet. I mean- he's the person I live with. My partner. My love. I really shouldn't be rude.
DeleteYet here we are.
Family time at the lake sounds like good fun. It is great to have a gathering place with lots of toys: boats, fishing poles, basketball...and your just getting setup. Levon, August and Maggie look very happy to be at the lake.
ReplyDeleteMood swings are real and seem to come in all shapes and sizes. In my opinion, we all need to give each other some slack or space. As for HRT, it's genius.
For me, knowing when to walk away and reset is important. Sometimes, I need "me" time and that can mean a nap, escaping to the beach or spa, or finding that ideal purchase (which could be as simple as a tree or plant, or an entire new bathroom suite at the Kohler store which out of the blue happened last week).
Surprise honey, we now have a new bathroom, and we laugh.
Haha! I should definitely try the new bathroom suite answer to the mood swings! In all actuality, we need to completely design a bathroom for the lake house which Glen took down to the studs, and we need to pick out new flooring for the laundry room and a bathroom here. So...
DeleteI don't understand why it's so difficult for you to get the meds you need in a timely and efficient manner. Can't your GP write a script for these? I take meds for different ailments. I get a 90 day supply of each, that's renewed automatically for a year. Then I check in with the GP to confirm they need to continue. None are hormones so what do I know. Well those grandkids are growing up fast!
ReplyDeleteI don't know if it's the doctor or the office staff. But I know that they have a new woman in the front who took care of this last time and it was pretty quick.
DeleteAnd my regular doctor is great with prescriptions.
That dock might be worth the price of the ticket. It’s so beautiful. That and the porch. The kids seem to have had a wonderful time. They’re all going to be tall like their Boppy.
ReplyDeleteI think you are right, dear woman. And I have always loved a dock but this one is Glen's dock. I don't feel any special affinity for it at all but he does and that's what it's all about at this point in life.
DeleteThe kids did have a good time. Magnolia June was very happy to have visited, especially.
It looks like a good time was had by all! I loved being around my Grandmother. She taught me more than my Mother.
ReplyDeleteI didn’t remember you started taking half doses of your hormones. It’s amazing how such a small shift brings great relief.
My grandmother wasn't much of a communicator because she was profoundly deaf. I don't feel as if I learned a great deal from her but I do remember her very fondly.
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