The firespike out front is finally putting out its bloom. The hummingbirds have probably already given up waiting. As always- I need more sun for most of the plants I have in my yard but it is what it is. However, the plants will soon be full of their scarlet glory. The firespike is one plant that was here when we moved in that I do curse. It is not invasive but is very, very easy to propagate to plant where you want it which I discovered one year when I put some flowering stems in a vase and then forgot they were there until much later when I realized the leaves were still as green as ever and that there were even a few blooms. I checked and the entire vase was filled with roots which I stuck in the ground when it warmed up and they grew.
I woke up sad this morning. I know it had to do with Mr. Moon being gone although I truly do not mind being by myself. I mostly love that. It was more just a feeling of being low on the priority list and I've struggled with this for years. It is a conundrum because I do enjoy being alone so much and really, I cannot have my cake and eat it too. I have joked for many years that I can't believe we got married at the end of October because that, my friends, is rutting season. For deer, that is. During rutting, the male deer throw caution to the winds and go about proudly thrusting their antlers at each other and showing off for the females which are in their estrus.
You know, like in high school when the guys drive around the McDonalds' parking lot in their souped up cars to impress the ladies. Of course, that goes on 365 days a year but otherwise, same-same.
But we did get married during rutting season and I joke that it's quite appropriate we did although it's come back to bite me because it's hard to schedule an anniversary trip when the bucks are all out there, strutting and forgetting their usual caution.
Do I ever get resentful? You bet. Does that do any good? Oh, hell no. He has absolutely no concept of me not understanding how this all works and you'd think by now I would. And I do. It's like I always say- I do not understand why he finds these things so important but he does and I need to understand THAT.
And of course this works both ways. Believe it or not, I am far from perfect and not always easy to live with.
So back to this morning. Lily and I had talked about getting together today with her kids but it turned out that the boys were going to a birthday party for a neighbor later on in the afternoon and Maggie had a playdate with her best friend, Mary. So instead of going to Monticello or something like that, we just met at the Hilltop and had lunch. I was happy to see everyone.
I was fretting beforehand about what in the world I'd get at the Hilltop that would be even vaguely healthy which is not really the basis for their menu. So what did I eat? Not much is the answer to that. But that wasn't the purpose of meeting up, not really. We ate outside and it wasn't horribly hot and the mosquitos and flies and yellow flies were nowhere to be seen and I got to catch up on what the kiddos had been doing the last few weeks.
Going to school, mainly.
Owen is very excited about getting his driver's license soon. His birthday is this month but he wasn't able to get his learner's permit until a little after his birthday and it has to be a year after that to be tested and licensed. I asked him if he was going to drive out to Lloyd to see us and he said that would be one of his first trips. I really can't imagine this. I remember one time when he was very young and he got mad at his mother and demanded that she bring him over here and when she refused, he said, "Well then, I'll just walk."
I have thought about that so many times.
But now he won't have to walk. He'll be able to drive and I'm not sure my heart will be able to handle it. Here's what Owen looks like next to me now.
Fun note: the lovebugs can and do stay attached for not just hours but sometimes days as they fly about and eat.
To give them credit- they do not carry diseases, bite, or damage plants. Just cars.