Husband and wife hallway dancing has commenced.
I really have nothing to talk about today so I'm just going to give you a few more pictures of the man who, along with Keith Richards and Charlie Watts, have given me so many hours of dancing delight and so much permission to be a woman who owns my own body, my own sexuality, my own joy in the evil celebration of what rock and roll can be.
And here's Mick a year ago with his youngest child, Deveraux Octavian Basil Jagger who is eight years old. His partner is Melanie Hamrick, a former ballerina.
So yeah, happy birthday, Mick. Don't stop dancing. Don't stop singing. Don't stop doing what you do which is something no one else on earth can nor ever has. And certainly not for this long.
Love...Ms. Moon
And that's about it for tonight.
A time of goodness, a confession of foolishness.
I'm sitting here fretting because Mr. Moon is not home yet from a day in town and he's not answering texts or his phone. He went to lunch with me and Lily and Lauren and all was well but I forgot to ask him what he had planned after that.
This is not entirely unusual behavior for him although IT IS MARTINI NIGHT and he's generally not tardy for that.
Oh, how quickly the mind can jump from all-is-well to worst-case-scenarios. And when this does happen and I tell him how worried I get he always says something along the lines of the fact that he is always fine.
Indeed.
And I just spoke to him. He is fine. He was on another call when I called him. He's been doing stuff for Tom's estate and is now at a carwash, cleaning out Tom's car and getting the crap out of it (not literal crap in this case, thank goodness) and will be home directly.
I don't think he realizes, after all this time, that I am so apt to freak out about things like this. Why should I? As he says, he is always fine.
Now, my first husband?
I still have the PTSD from worrying about him getting home. Because he was in a band he was always late getting in when he'd had a gig and frequently if they'd just had a rehearsal. And when I say late, I mean hours and hours after the bars closed. As you can only imagine, he was up to no good but somehow it was very hard for me to let my mind go THERE. I am sure it's because I couldn't deal with that reality. It took me years to accept what was staring me in the face and I'll never forget the moment that happened. It was a horrible, horrible moment and I can still feel it in my very bones, that second of lightning strike-like realization.
But before that happened, there were so many nights when I'd worry that he'd been in a car wreck or had been arrested. We lived in Lloyd for most of that time, even farther from town and more in the woods than where Glen and I live now and it was truly not beyond possibility that he had either been in a wreck or had been arrested and traffic was so sparse on the roads at that time of night that if he had been in an accident, it could have taken hours for someone to discover him.
You have no idea how many times I stayed up until four or five in the morning, wondering what it would be like to be a widow. And of course we had little children so add that to the equation.
Lord but I was so gullible, so trusting, so self-deceiving. And I still wonder why none of our friends told me. Everyone knew. Everyone but me. And I suppose I knew too but like I said, I couldn't face it. One sweet, dear man did tell me once that my husband really shouldn't treat me like he did which should have probably been enough but denial is a powerful and mysterious thing.
So that's probably why I get overly concerned when Glen's late getting home or I can't reach him by phone. I know he's not out being up to no good. That's just not him. But as to wrecks? Sure. That could happen to anyone at anytime, anywhere, and that old fear just kicks right into gear and common sense flies out the window.
Well. That is certainly not what I meant to write about this evening but that so often happens with me, doesn't it?
I was out in the garden this morning, not doing a real picking or anything, just a survey although of course I did do some picking, when I found this tiny embryo of a Seminole pumpkin.
And I have no idea how many of those there are on the vines because it's not easy to make my way through them without a machete or some other sharp bladed instrument. So I will just have to be surprised. I wonder how many will actually grow into maturity and I have no idea exactly what they look like when they do.
Here's an internet photo of what they can look like.
What else was I going to write about? I went to town and had lunch with Lily and Lauren and Mr. Moon, as I mentioned above. That was fun. I went to a jewelry store/repair place where I'd had two necklaces restrung. One of them is great but the pearls are not. I swear to you, they are at least an inch shorter than before. I know it's normal for the stringing material to relax and stretch a bit over time but this seems a little over the top. I have absolute trust in this place. It's been in business in Tallahassee forever and ever and the same family runs it that opened it. They surely would not risk their reputation by stealing a few cultured pearls.
Any suggestions?
Oh! Oh! I ordered myself two birthday presents! One was the final book in Colson Whitehead's trilogy set in Harlem over a span of years whose main character is a man named Raymond Carney. I've read the first two more than once and have even read them out loud to Glen on trips. Those books, in order, are, "Harlem Shuffle," "Crook Manifesto," and now "Cool Machine." I am so damn excited to step back into that world.
The man just got home. He said, "I forgot it was Friday."
"I figured that," I said.
Oh well. Lucky for me I can make a pretty darn excellent martini myself, which I did. He can make the second one. As MFK Fisher so wisely said, a bird cannot fly on just one wing.
Or something like that.
I had an entire complex menu planned for tonight but I have switched it up to make it simple. We'll be having clam spaghetti and a salad. I just went out and picked a little arugula and basil for that salad. Here's what my basils are looking like.
Ooh...clean sheets on the bed tonight!
Happy Friday, y'all.
Love...Ms. Moon
I do really love the way the bottles look with all the peppers in them. So brightly colored they are a visual representation of summer's heat.
I took the trash and I unpacked my suitcase and put everything away. I did laundry. I picked those peas and peppers and pulled a very few weeds. My Lord but it is hot out there. I'm sure I did some other things but I can't really remember except for the fact that Shelly from pottery came by to see me and my house after she and her mama, son, and the son's friend had been to the Wacissa for a swim. That was nice. I showed them around this old house and by now I feel like a tour guide. "And this is the bathroom Oprah built..."
And so forth.
I spend a lot of time on these tours apologizing for flaking ceiling paint in the hallway and flooring that needs replacing. "Don't walk there!"
Sigh.
Shelly's mom was so sweet, as is Shelly. Her son asked if he could play the piano and I said that of course he could.
The kid has a damn gift. I mean- a real gift. I couldn't believe it. My old out-of-tune piano is probably still in shock after being played so proficiently by someone who absolutely knows what they are doing.
I had thought I'd have enough time today to get into some real pea-shelling but I only managed to spend one and a half episodes of "The Bear" at the task. It is going faster because I'm only picking the really ripe pods which are far easier to shell. I am going to cook the ones I did today for our supper tonight along with grouper that Glen caught and croquettes, also known as patties, made with squash that I didn't grow and eggplant that I did grow. So. Fish, peas, and croquettes. This should be good.
I'd say that I'd missed cooking in my own kitchen while we were in NC and I did, a little bit, but it was also fun to have to make do and improvise when things weren't quite what we needed. There was a griddle in the kitchen that I cooked the pancakes on and it was fabulous.
But sleeping in one's own bed and cooking in one's own kitchen really are the best.
Glen spent the entire day and I mean the ENTIRE DAY mowing the grass. I know I always say we don't really have a lawn and we don't in the front yard but various types of grass-like plants grow in other parts of the yard and those need mowing, as do the few little sprigs of whatever greenery growing in the front yard and it looks fabulous.
When I watered the porch plants (oh yeah- that's another thing I did) I had to take a picture of this lovely Golden Orb Weaver. She's not fully grown but she looks healthy and her web is a work of weaving art.
I gotta make supper.
Love...Ms. Moon
Macon at night.
And flowers.
There are about four inches of field peas below those vegetables.
Queen Maurice seems to be happy we have returned although she's going to be very pissed when she realizes that I do not deliver the treats the way Mark does.
La-di-dah.
La-di-dah.
We are home.
Love...Ms. Moon
Yesterday I had the best experience. I got to meet Barbara Rogers from When I Was 69.
Barb's been living in Black Mountain for a lot of years but she's moving to Colorado next week and so it was by by chance and by luck that we got to meet during my visit here.
When we first saw each other she said the very best thing which was, "You look just like you're supposed to!" and I said, "And you look just like YOU'RE supposed to."
And we did. Which is how it should be, isn't it? I remember the first time I met Steve Reed. He stopped in Lloyd on one his trips to Florida to visit family and after a little while of us chatting and me showing him around I asked if he thought I'd represented Lloyd correctly.
He said I had.
And that made me happy.
And just as when I met Steve and every other blogger I've met in real life, I felt as if I'd known Barbara forever and in some ways, I have! When someone writes about their life, the ups and downs, the fears and joys, the sicknesses and health, we come to feel a part of that life. We have invested time and thought and energy into them.
I think it's a beautiful thing.
Jessie went with me, of course, because I am NOT driving these mountain roads. No way. Also, I wanted her to come. And we both enjoyed our visit with Barb so much. She's as sweet and as funny as I imagined she would be. She's also incredibly positive and cheerful, i.e., just about the opposite of me, and I loved that.
So we drank our coffee and chatted and learned new things about each other. It was a stellar experience.
After we'd hugged goodbye and went our separate ways, Jessie and I did a little bit of thrift shopping before Glen was due to bring the boys into town to meet us for lunch. Vergil had been out spreading something like four tons of gravel on their property on the mountain but he came in and met us too.
The thrift stores in this area are so far superior to the ones we have in Tallahassee and Monticello that it's ridiculous. They not only have all the good brands, the prices are lower, the fabrics are more on the found-in-nature side, and a lot of people around here obviously have really good taste, which means like mine. We rushed, rushed, rushed through a Kiwanis thrift store and then a Goodwill. I got two very nice sweater things, a slip because I forgot to bring one which rendered two of my dresses unwearable, and...a pair of in excellent condition Converse low-tops! I've been wanting a pair of those forever.
And, okay.
This.
After lunch, Jessie and I did another grocery shopping because that is what we do. When it comes time to pack up on Tuesday morning we're not going to be thrilled but what are you going to do? We have six people to feed, two of them growing boys. Growing by the second. And they do not deliver pizza to the place we're staying.
Just like Lloyd!
The young boys and the old boys and Jessie have been using the basketball court.
Pictures.
And then this afternoon we took a teeny hike up a trail that parallels the little creek that flows through the yard here. It was the sweetest time.
This has been such a good little getaway. I've had so little stress and so much pleasure. I've loved cooking for everyone. It gives me a sense of purpose and satisfaction to see everyone fill plates and enjoy the food I've made. The little guys have been tremendous, open to everything, enthusiastic, and very, very funny. They make me laugh all the time. They are so different and yet never really fight, they adore each other. It's a beautiful thing to watch as is the way Jessie and Vergil parent.
We leave on Tuesday which means tomorrow will be our last day here. I can't believe the time has passed this quickly but it has and always does, no matter how hard I try to be present and in the moment.
This is the way of it, isn't it?