Monday, January 12, 2026

Could I Have Rambled Any Further? I Think Not


Poor old piano. It sits in my hallway and has for many years. My ex-husband gave it to us when Jessie was still living at home because she was showing such an interest and aptitude for music. The ex was (still is) a guitar player and he and his wife were getting rid of this piano which was very old and funky then and in need of tuning and in the sixteen or so years in which it's been sitting in the hallway it has gotten neither less funky or more in tune. I'll never forget when Jerry brought the piano over in a U-Haul he'd rented and he and Glen managed to get it into the house and in the hallway, he said, "Looks like it grew there," and it really sort of did and there it still sits. 


Since no one plays it except for me, very, very occasionally and extremely badly and haltingly, it mostly just holds pictures and the speakers from the stereo and the router for the internet. I keep my old student piano books on it and there's an ancient Methodist hymnal


although I have no idea why I've kept it. In fact, I'm not sure how it came into my possession to begin with, but it was probably my mother's and here's a clue. 

Although we never attended the Methodist Church in Roseland (which, by the way, is still a very growing concern with a connected thrift store where I shop every time I'm in Roseland), the one-time minister of that church, Denny Hendry, eventually started his own church which was the Roseland Gardens Community Church on the bank of the Sebastian River in a beautiful wooded spot and he did actually grow a rose garden. So I suppose Denny may have taken some of the hymnals with him and Mother sang in the choir and had the hymnal for practice and pleasure. We had a piano and she wasn't a bad piano player. I took lessons when we lived in Roseland but I showed no talent whatsoever and eventually, even Mother realized her money would be best spent NOT paying Hildred Mueller, my teacher, to screech and scream at me when I invariably hit the wrong notes and which, by the way, I still hit. The same exact ones. Hildred and her husband Harry had a little act together. Hildred and Harry, I think it was called. Could have been Harry and Hildred. Harry was a jolly little round man with a very large tummy and he sang while Hildred played and she may have sung too. I only saw them play once and that was at a PTA thing which for some reason had entertainment that night. 
How the hell did I get here? 
Piano. Things on piano. Hymnal being one. 
So yes, we attended the Roseland Gardens Community Church and of course my brother and I were bored out of our minds but at least there were giant jalousie windows to look out of and if the preacher and/or the choir weren't too loud, we could hear birds and the wind in the pine trees and that was pretty okay. I swear to you though, almost every page of that hymnal has a song on it I remember and every fucking one of them is an ear worm. 


Since we've made it this far, I'll go ahead and repeat something I know I've written about at least five or ten times which is that eventually, after Denny Hendry crashed his church and lost his wife due to an unwise affair with another church's organist (no jokes here, please), the church and land were eventually sold to a spiritual community led by a former Jewish Brooklyn housewife named Joyce Green, rechristened Ma Jaya Sati Bagavati. 


It is now the Kashi Ashram. Arlo Guthrie was one of the devotees of Ma Jaya, which is why he has wintered in the communities of Sebastian and Roseland for many years. Ma Jaya died in 2012 and as is so often the case with spiritual leaders of all kinds, including ministers for Community Churches, there were allegations...
And far more serious ones than a plain old affair with a consenting adult. 
I have no idea if Arlo is still associated with the Ashram. I do know that he still seems to love that area very much. 

But isn't all of that odd? What would the little group of older, retired people who attended Denny's church in the early sixties, most of whom probably had no real belief in religion but who believed that going to church on Sunday was just what one did and a way to be part of a community have thought about all this?


My memories of that place were of watching manatee slowly swimming by in the river, of the smell of roses, of those many pines and palms, of Helen Kretshmer, the choir director at the piano, her white hair pinned up in a knot on top of her head, the sweet little congregation who often all went out together to Sunday lunch after church was over, the Christmas pageants where I once got to be Mary, the soprano with the huge breasts who sang "Where You There?" on Easter Sunday whom my little brother had stood motionless and watched as those breasts quivered as she emoted the words to the song during rehearsal, the gentle sermons which never once, as far as I can remember, mentioned hell or an angry god. 
It's bizarre to know that none of the people who pay big bucks to visit Kashi for yoga training or spiritual retreats have any idea about these things although perhaps they do still get to see the manatee.
Sigh. 
Such is life. 

Enough of this nonsense! 

Mr. Moon is back up at Lake Seminole and tonight he is catching huge catfish and is very happy. I made chicken soup for him to take with some rotisserie chicken I bought last week and some chicken stock I had in the freezer AND another container of chicken soup I'd tucked away in there a month or so ago, thus fulfilling my purpose on earth which, as we all know, is to take leftovers and create more leftovers out of them. The soup has quinoa and the chicken, green beans, carrots, kale and mustard greens, garlic galore, onions, celery, spinach, and lots of lemon juice. 
Once again, my man shall not suffer from hunger. 

It's going to get so cold this week, possibly 26 degrees by Friday. For us, this is almost frighteningly cold. The plants will have to be wrapped again and there are a few that I'm going to ask Glen to help me bring in despite their large size because I don't think the wrapping alone is going to protect them. 

Here's a door knob Glen found while digging the trench for the water pipe. 


I am wondering if it came from this house or from the little Episcopalian chapel that was once housed in that area of the yard. 


Speaking of churches. 
When the congregation dropped to two members, they moved the chapel to Tallahassee where it still sits right beside an Episcopalian church there. 
St. Clement's Chapel. 
The woman who told me this who grew up in Lloyd and who is now deceased, seemed to still be upset that the chapel had been moved. 

No one can hold a grudge like an old Southern lady. 

Ask me how I know. (That is MY river, you Gee Dee Kashi's!)

Love...Ms. Moon

P.S. Now I remember what triggered this whole thing! I sat down at that piano and played badly and haltingly this afternoon and I loved it. 





38 comments:

  1. Door knob? No, I don't think so. It's clearly a Mallomar (though possibly a petrified one).

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    1. Yes. A petrified mallomar with a depression on the back which still holds traces of the metal fitting.

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  2. I can hold a grudge too, not just Southern ladies, Northern ladies too.
    I looked up that Joyce Green. Why do people do awful things in the name of any religion?
    Enjoy your piano playing. I had one for years but lost it in the divorce. No idea where my ex-husband took it to.

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    1. Come to think of it, I hold grudges forever. But then again, I am an old southern lady.
      Yeah. Joyce Green was a true cult leader, wasn't she? Sex and power.
      You should get another piano if you want it!

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  3. Grudges? Mine go back to the Reformation! Don't get me started on grudges..
    I loved this rambling and lovely post full of life and stuff. History.

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    1. It makes me happy to know that you, too, can hold a grudge. Some grudges are definitely worth holding.
      Oh, and there's so much more history having to do with that little church, the pastor, and his wife. And kids, too.

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  4. Agree with Boud- this is like sitting across from you having a bit of pie and something hot, listening - not interrupting a fascinating tale. The door knob is a haunted object- a good haunting i reckon. A place of honor for her is required.
    I am a northerner, no grudges held here - must have something to do with the cold...Only have two arms- one to hold a hot water bottle and one a cup of tea.

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    1. I think I hold my grudges with my teeth.
      When I do a post like this one I always think of a friend I had who used to say, "To make a long story interminable..."
      Wish you were here for pie and chat.

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  5. Hahaha! Great stories and rounding it all up with piano and hymnal where you started. Brains are weirdly fascinating with how something can trigger a whole slew of memories and associations. Loved this! -Nicol

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    1. Playing piano always takes me back to Roseland.

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  6. A delightful ramble, I enjoyed reading this. My favourite part was the soprano with the huge breasts. I'm with your brother on that.

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    1. I was fascinated too! Her vibrato got those bosoms heaving.

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  7. I have always thought a piano is a wonderful piece of furniture to have and if I win lotto and buy a house big enough I shall have a piano. For the grandchildren, since I can't play at all, but I would keep it polished (maybe) and tuned and stare at it lovingly every day. My grandson-in-law is a musician and might bring the great grands to visit me and play on it.

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    1. I have had some fairly harrowing experiences with children playing that piano. Several times I've had to flat out ask if they could please keep it down a bit.

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  8. I'm trying to imagine the excitement and joy I would feel if I saw a manatee swimming by. Yikes! And the doorknob/Mallomar is clearly a relic of a lost culture.

    One of my life goals is not to hold grudges (flying in the face of my heritage!) but I may just give up this year.

    Ceci

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    1. You NEVER know what you're going to dig up in this yard. Trash and treasure both.
      I commend you for not holding grudges. I do not even attempt to let the ones I hold go.

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  9. I took piano lessons for five years when I was a kid but never actually practiced (sport was always much more important), so I'm sure that not only my family but the neighbours were delighted when I moved to Switzerland!

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    1. Haha! I bet if my mother had gotten a nickel for every note I played that she winced at, she would have been able to at least afford a tank of gas, an oil change, and four new tires for her 1960 VW.

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  10. Well, that was a fascinating reminiscence, for what it's worth! It is very strange that an ashram, of all things, was founded in your hometown by a religious leader from Brooklyn. With Arlo Guthrie involved! That's all very exotic to this Pasco County boy.

    Probably wise to bring your plants in if you can. I'd have brought in the avocado if possible, a couple of weeks ago when we got to 22º F, but it's just too big to move. Do you have a chicken coop heater? They work wonders on plants!

    My piano teacher was grumpy with me, too, and probably helped put me off piano forever.

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    1. Listen- that's all exotic to me, too! I mean...back when I went to church there, I would not have had the slightest clue what an ashram was. Nor had I ever heard of Arlo Guthrie. Hell, I'd never heard of Woody at that point. Let's not even mention Ganesh and Shiva and Vishnu. A Brahma was a type of cattle and they were pretty well known.
      By the time the ashram was founded, I'd been gone from Roseland for a long time.
      I do not have a coop heater. I just have to bring both of my most precious plants in. Both from Roseland, of course.

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  11. So many amazing memories to share, Mary. It's great when our minds just wander back and come up with all of these details that we didn't realize we remembered. I took piano from nuns and Sister Waldamera was not always so nice about my attempts to play! ;)

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    1. Oh, I always realize I remember a lot of things. I have been accused of making things up by certain family members and all I could think when that happened was, "Look. My imagination is not that good."
      Sister Waldamera? Really? Now there's a story too, I bet.

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  12. You have so many vivid memories. No churches turned ashrams where I grew up.I get having a spiritual leader. What I don't get is having big pictures and a statue dominating the space. Except maybe Buddha but Buddha is more like Ganesh, though Buddha was a real boy, in that he was transformed. The Buddha is an icon, not a representation of the named human. Kind of like Jesus I guess except boy did christians pick a gruesome representation, dead guy hanging on a cross.

    My mother played piano a little and so we always had one. My brother took piano lessons and he still plays I think, has a piano. I took piano lessons for a short while but my talent lay elsewhere.

    They moved the chapel as in the entire building?

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    1. I tell you what. I don't even like the idea of a spiritual leader. What gives anyone the right to tell others how to act, what to believe, etc.?
      Tom Robbins said that if Jesus had been born in America in fairly recent history, people would be walking around wearing a dead Jesus in the electric chair. I've never forgotten that. Can you imagine that image adorning every church wall behind the pulpit?
      They did indeed move the entire building. Lock, stock, and pews.

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  13. Your mind works like mine, off on tangents, one thing leads to another and somewhere in there is a thread that connects the thoughts. I took piano lessons for a year or two as a child. I wanted to play not practice scales and practice practice practice. I never got any better so I gave it up, good idea there.

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    1. There have been some damn fine piano players who wouldn't know a scale if it had hit them in the head. I mean, I guess all that scale playing is important but...it's not that much fun and it's not that creative.

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  14. My husband was a piano tuner, and I loved his work. Honest and helpful. And I have the 1940 Episcopal hymnal (before they modernized it!); music was the important part of church for me.

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    1. I cannot imagine a whole lot of vocations more important and probably satisfying than being a piano tuner.
      For me, even the music was deadly boring. Thank goodness we only had to sing a few of the stanzas. Even the best hymns (in my judgement, anyway) were often dreary and either pitiful or simply for the purpose of praising god and I've never understood the need of a supreme being to be praised all the time. My mother surely loved the choir though. By the end of her life she was not much of a believer at all, but she loved the singing.

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  15. We have a piano that does nothing but sit in our foyer. We have had many pianos over the years and they all ended up just sitting. SG plays fairly well, but he’s out of practice. I do not play. I learned some songs as a kid but don’t even remember those. I’ve thought of learning, but I want to play well and don’t have the patience to wait. It’s not even an elegant piece of furniture like yours. A Yamaha electric. But it looks ok.

    I had a good time with: “I once got to be Mary, the soprano with the huge breasts...”

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    1. SG should take it up again! Does he need a project since his book has been published? It might bring him pleasure but of course if it doesn't, why bother?
      "...but I want to play well and don't have the patience to wait."
      Man, you just summed up my attitude about learning most things. Wait? It's hard? Forget it.
      Oh god. You are so right about that part of the sentence. Oh well. It's sort of nice thinking of what it would feel like to be a soprano with huge breasts rather than an alto with...um...lesser breasts.

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  16. Your Roseland church stories are on-point.
    As children sitting in a pew wondering, when is this going to be over. I have no recollection of any sermon content. Do people attend church for the company of other people and religion is secondary?
    My Aunt Mary (born and bred in Arkansas) loved her Baptist church and when she visited Boston, MA, she sought out a Baptist church finding it very different from her Southern version of church. Aunt Mary loved ceramics, chickens and roosters. Her Southern cooking was amazing. There was a lot to love about Aunt Mary.
    The backstory on your piano is fabulous.

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    1. God. When the Doxology was finally sung in the service of the church I attended, my entire soul was lightened. Almost done!
      I think most people probably attend church for reasons that have nothing to do with religion.
      Yes. Southern Baptists don't have a whole lot in common with Northern Baptists, I imagine. And even in those two categories, I am sure there are many, many different beliefs. I mean- Jimmy Carter was a Baptist and he was, in my opinion, what a real Christian should be.
      Aunt Mary sounds familiar...
      Except for the religious part, of course.

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  17. this post was more intriguing and captivating than some books I've read! All bound together by the thread of that first thought and then weaving it all from there
    Susan M

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    1. Well, not only is life stranger than fiction, it can certainly be more entertaining, too.

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  18. After many years of taking piano lessons, I can only say my hands are just too small to play octaves, and my brain never keeps the music together to play without reading the notes off sheet music. I do like certain hymns though, and have a hymnal still, without a piano though. I gave all my sheet music away many years after the piano was confiscated by my sister. Long story there. I did enjoy your well woven tales today!

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    1. I have noticed that my crooked fingers have a much harder time reaching an octave. Especially the left one.
      I'd be interested in hearing the story about your sister and the piano.She confiscated it?

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  19. I play much like you and only on the odd occasions when im home alone. Still, it fills a place in the soul to make music. It feels like a very necessary place. Makes our hearts happy. Much love.
    Xoxo
    Barbara

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    1. I totally agree, Barbara. There is just something about the right notes that soothe the soul and bring such pleasure. Why do we deny ourselves that? Because we aren't "good enough?" Fuck that.

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