Wednesday, July 2, 2025

I Can't Begin To Title This


It took me almost an hour to answer comments this evening. I wasn't even going to do it. I was going to beg off due to feeling so flattened, and in so much despair. As deep as my despair has gone in the moments and days and months and years of Trump's presidencies, it has now deepened to previously unknown and unimagined depths.  

I know that all of us who have read about the horrors of what Hitler and the Nazis brought to this earth have reassured ourselves that this could never possibly happen again. 

Guess what? 
Guess again. 
And if we wondered how it could have happened, I think we are getting a very quick education on that issue. 

I've got to step away from all of this. I have to. And yet, right now I cannot seem to. 

Okay. Here I go. I'm going to show you pictures and talk about a few nice things, not in an effort to distract myself or you, not to pretend that none of this is happening, but as a reminder that there is another life, other lives, happening even as the evil gains more hold on us every day. 

First off. Hank sent a group text this morning with part of an email that Cornell University sent to him. For an explanation about why Cornell would be sending Hank an email please go to the the post HERE

The email Cornell sent him contained a link to a page in their Division of Rare and Manuscript Collections at their library. Please go visit it. 
HERE.

I am so proud I could bust wide open. 

That is my child. That is my son who was absolutely part of the Queer Evolution and Revolution, or at least as far as I understand it. I could write volumes on Hank and how he was not only furthering communication with communities who were all fighting so hard to establish their places in this movement, but who also enlightened and educated me and his family in ways that I can't even begin to describe. 

He was so patient with us, mostly his parents of whom he had four. His siblings just got it and understood it and we all accepted that he knew exactly who he was and what he needed and what he was about. 

But none of this is about us. It is about Hank Thigpen who is now and forever more a part of the Cornell Library. 

Damn. Okay. I really don't know how I could write anything after that which would have any real meaning at all. 

But here's some of the other stuff. 


The new boat hooked up to Glen's 4Runner. I talked to him just a little while ago and I was so happy to be able to do that. He was approaching Mobile, Alabama and had decided that although he was only five hours away from home, he was tired, his butt was tired, and he was going to get a room and get some sleep. I had to tell him a story which I don't think I'd ever told him which was about the time I drove from Denver to Tallahassee when I was 19 in my Capri with my parakeets and rocking chair. When I was approaching Mobile I decided to go ahead and smoke the very large joint that a sweet man in Denver had given me for the trip, before I made my way through the heavy traffic of the city. Which I did. And it was one of the most fun drives I ever had. 
Truth. 
Boy, things have changed. I wouldn't smoke a joint before I tried to wash the dishes these days. 

Pottery was depressing for me. I do not suck one bit less than I did a year ago. I am not kidding. I did get my hump bowl (or was it a slump bowl?) glazed. But I loved being with Lily and it was very nice to talk to the other ladies. While I was there, I perused the shelf where fired pottery is placed before it is glazed and fired again. 
Would you look at this?


I mean...I mean...how beautiful is that? 

Maggie decided that she would rather wait to come spend the night when Boppy is here. And truly- what is a visit to Mer and Bop's without Boppy? 

And on top of all of this, I got to have a long and very good conversation with Owen today. It means so much to me that he seems to enjoy these talks we have together. I love watching him as he figures out the world he is becoming part of as much as I loved watching him figure out how to walk and to talk and to learn to pretend. 
What a joy to be part of all of that.

I will be so happy to see my husband tomorrow. 

Love...Ms. Moon




25 comments:

  1. Kudos to Hank for achieving academic recognition from Cornell.
    As for current political matters and matters of war, I think we would go mad or become terribly unhappy if we did not turn our heads away from that stuff from time to time. There is still joy and splendour in the world and we must not forget that.

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  2. Congrats to Hank. That's big!
    As for the orange piece of shit, his time will come. He truly is an evil man, and the people that support him and his "policies" are truly evil as well. I never thought I'd see this in my lifetime. It's too bad he didn't die at birth, and I don't say that lightly.
    We made it up to 90F today and I do not like this weather one bit. The dogs don't either and we had to take short walks this morning because it was too damned hot. It's supposed to cool down tomorrow. I hope so.
    Sending hugs and love woman.
    The same country that produced the piece of shit, also produced you and your family, so there must still be good in the world.

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    1. Trust me when I say I'm not doing much walking right now. I'd be interested to know what your humidity is like there. You have so many trees I'm thinking it might be higher than I think.
      How many people have had the same thought about Hitler? Better he never should have lived. I'm still boggling that a reality game show host is bringing the country and the world, by extension, to depths not explored since WWII.

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  3. Wow, Hank! Just wow!
    I echo Pixie's sentiments about the orange piece of shit. If we somehow survive this we will all have PTSD.

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    1. Google "Continuous Trauma Stress Disorder." I think we all have it.

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  4. Big congratulations to Hank! I think we all have ptsd right now. Cruelty for its own sake. And that fucking ai meme our own government posted with alligators wearing ice hats is as cruel as it gets.
    Xoxo
    Barbara

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    1. Every time I think this administration can't go any lower, it sinks another ten thousand feet.

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  5. Mary, I feel that as Hank’s awesome mom , you had great influence on his wonderful writing and explaining.that has helped so many. Yay Hank and Yay Mary!!! Hank that was brilliant! Sending love and peace to all of you. Carol in Atlanta

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    1. Oh, Hank was born the exact way he was and is. If I did anything, it was just to love him and do my best to understand and support. But that was easy.
      My brilliant boy.

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  6. I remember reading that about Hank. I think very highly of intelligence/creativity/bravery and find that so impressive he broke through blind-spots that needed to be broken-through. Obviously. He's clearly himself. As a mother, I'd be extremely (!) proud of him. I am thankful for Hank and his accomplishments and bravery.

    Driving-so glad your man stopped when he needed to. Loved the side story. (haha.)

    Pottery-I think it's very artistic and think you express what you see in life and express it? Who cares what I think, but I think original art, as long as it is who we are trying to express, is very pleasing. I liked what you created. Thank you for sharing it. -Nicol



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    1. Oh, I am so proud of my boy. He was and is important in so many ways. I know that he has influenced many when it comes to acceptance and love.
      I can't even make a decent plain bowl in pottery. I really need to watch more videos. I think that pot I photographed is just an unbelievable work of art.

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  7. I don't find that pot beautiful, to me it would look better without those oversized blossoms on it. But I can admire the skill needed to make it.
    Mr Moon's new boat is a thing of beauty in my eyes. I would love to be out on a lake in that. But an alligator-free lake!
    You have so much to be proud of when it comes to Hank, and indeed all of your children and grandchildren.

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    1. Oh, but that pot is a work of art! And as such, I think the flowers on it are amazing.
      I do have children and grandchildren to be proud of. They are my hearts.

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  8. Hank should be rightfully proud of the initiative he took to help grow and connect the queer community in Tallahassee. My favorite zine title from the list on that Cornell archive page: "Him? That's Billy, He Hits on Everyone."

    That pot is amazing, and will be even more so when it's glazed, I'm sure. Very sculptural.

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  9. I think the aim of the dictator is to keep us all in despair so that we don't have the energy to fight them. They do one horrific thing, and before we can process it and react, they've done ten other more horrible things that we need to address. That way nothing ever gets addressed. The trick is not to try to address it all, just get out in the streets and demand that they get taken down and prosecuted.

    If that is the pot you made, you absolutely do not suck at it. It is beautiful.

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  10. I am in awe of and grateful to Hank. What an incredible, admirable accomplishment. I loved scrolling through the titles. That clay “pot” is a marvel. I love your top photo still life.

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  11. Your Uplifting Topics were appreciated even tho', as you said, the dichotomy of all that is Evil happening Daily can't be ignored or pretend it's not going to impact all of us, it will. But, Yes, Life goes on and we find a way to rejoice in what we can and do, that is the stuff Life is made of and worth Living for. The Boat is a nice one. Congrats on Hank's recognition, it is something to be so Proud of!!! And, that Pot is lovely that someone has Created, it will look Magnificent once Glazed and Fired.

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  12. Kudos to Hank and especially being recognized by Cornel. We can resist as much as we can...which is what is called upon us now. As serfdoms of the past, the autocracy will eventually fall. We, the serfs, know this, and sure are going to be protesting many more times! We also have to keep supporting each other when the going gets tough. Democracy is a good idea and I've faith that good will prevail.

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  13. Congratulations to Hank!! Well done. I'm sure your entire family is applauding.
    Mary--I have something to share with you that I think is amazing!! Bamboo has started growing in our front yard by the trees (that's not the amazing part). My husband has a garden. He could not find his roll of cord to tie the veggies up. So--he cut bamboo, ran it from fence hole to fence hole (chicken wire fence) and up along each side of the rows so the veggies can lean on the bamboo. Fucking genius I told him. It looks beautiful too. I'm very proud of him!
    Patricia
    Patricia

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  14. Congratulations to HT that's an amazing accomplishment. His work is impressive and shows great insight to a topic that needs more recognition. Will Hank visit Cornell to view and maybe even give a talk about his works held at the university? You must be very proud!
    That's a very good-looking boat. I bet the boys are already planning their first fishing trip on the new boat.

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  15. Wow! Congrats to Hank! That's a wonderful achievement. Thanks for the happy news! We need to hear all of the good things we can these days.
    Hope Mr. Moon is safely home soon.

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  16. I am so proud of Hank, and glad that my daughter and her husband went to (and met each other at) the school that recognized the historical value of his queer zine archival project. Go Big Red (the school mascot)! And that pot is beautiful, in the sense that I admire the artistic hand that crafted it, though it wouldn't be the one I picked out to keep for myself if choosing from a group of clay pots. I'd want something simpler, more classic, less "worked," like your slumped bowl. Stop crying down your clay woman! There is no one standard for beauty when it comes to art. Things have beauty in different ways, and appeal for different reasons. Your bowl would appeal just by virtue of being made by your hands, and then, it's more rustic nature also is inviting. I'm not kidding you, I promise. As for the world, it has really gotten to me these last few days, Alligator Alcatraz has not helped, it's a straight up concentration camp, people will die there, what happens when a hurricane sweeps through? I am trying, as best I can, to go numb again, but it is hard. Things have escalated. It's impossible not to see that. I walk around with a pit in the center of me, it feels like a slow leak of my spirit. And so, we will have to patch that somehow. Like a bicycle tire. I'll be over here, looking for the patch kit. Love you woman. And oh, one more thing, that is a handsome boat.

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  17. I am taking a news break today. I am too discouraged to even listen to it. And yes...there are wonders in this world, even now. Hank is one of them. Congratulations to you all.

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  18. Congratulations to Hank! How great to have your work archived at Cornell. And Mr Moon is sure gonna be happy with his boat!

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